Well I slipped up:sad:. I actually got so tempted I had a slice of cheese cake:drool: that was sitting in my back refrigerator.:sleep2: I beat myself up for it vowing the next morning I would skip the suggested oatmeal breakfast (which I did) and would only be allowed the chicken flavored protein broth that evening (which I had):thumbup:. This was so unhealthy for me and it caused me to be even more hungry:thumbdown:. I told myself If I'm going to do this I can't beat myself up just for indulging as long as i don't go overboard.

I just don't want the added calories nor do I want to gain back that 40lbs that I have lost thus far. Not to mention the band has not been placed yet and there is no telling how ill I could have made myself by eating something I know I should not have:crying:.

Still i'm doing well and i'm just waiting on my shipment of protein supplemental mixes to arrive. I found out through a good friend GNC has the mixes available so I think I'm going to pick those up instead of waiting for them to be shipped to me.

It's about 4 more weeks until the next weigh in and i'm really trying to do another 40lbs. I am quite aware that the loss may not be as significant this go around but i'm :smile2:prayerful and extremely hopeful that it's at least that close. My mobility has gotten a lot better and i'm doing a lot more walking. I love to shop so this holiday season i will be doing a lot of going out and purchasing instead of online shopping (even though it just seems so much cheaper online and you don't have to worry about things not being available either).

Til next time....:sleep:

Dont beat yourself up! Guilt will not help you. Just get back on track and everything will be just fine. I cheated once preop, too. The doctors know this is a possibility. You'll be okay.