I started clear liquids today. I looked it up and found that the reason for this torture is to clear my intestines. Frankly, I would rather have the doctor give me 14 jalapeno enemas instead of putting me on clear liquids. No, really. Isn't there an easier way?

I have threatened to quit several times today and considered rescheduling the surgery. Luckily, I have been able to talk myself down each time. I also burst into tears twice. Thank goodness my husband is being sensitive and caring about it.

There is no particular food I am thinking about. There is just this general restlessness that says EAT NOW. To be honest, when I look at food I don't really want it. But I have the overwhelming urge to eat. It's this gnawing...gnashing...grinding-of-the-teeth feeling. I might be taking an extra Wellie tonight to lessen this anxiety. (Wellie=Wellbutrin...and yes, it has been approved that I can take an extra one if I need it. :cursing:

Meanwhile, I am trying to keep busy with the Jon Gabriel Visualizations, and looking at Before-and-After photos of other Bandsters. The Gabriel Method suggests finding a picture of your ideal body and visualizing yourself in that body while listening to a meditation CD at night and in the morning. I took it a step further and did mine in Photoshop:

http://www.bettysoutherland.com/NewB.html

If you want one too, email me the picture of your ideal body and a headshot of you that is in the same position as the body shot. (i.e., if the ideal body is facing forward, your head should be facing forward, too). If you have any skinny facial pics (like maybe from when you were younger), send those too, along with a Paypal for $12.50 to:

electrawoman@gmail.com

Depending on how many orders I get, I can probably get your finished pic back to you within a few days.

It would be fun to compare these to our final "after" pics :ohmy:

I know the liquid thing suck.. I have six kids here aged 5 to 10 and actually was crazy and have 2 extras here for three nights who are 2 and 3 plus my 18 niece will be here tomorrow. By the way I am crazy. So long story short I have to cook for them all. And boy oh boy do I want to eat.... The smell lingers in the house it is crazy.. So anyways we can do it... You can tough it out a bit longer.. Only 4 days of liquids left for me how many for you?????

Oh dear. You ARE crazy! Poor thing! NOw, I feel bad about complaining. :cursing: I just have to cook for 2 and they are not picky.

My surgery is MOnday so I have two more days preop, then 3 after. I can have full liquids by next Thursday, I guess.

Yeah monday... I am so excited for you.... Keep us posted on how it all goes... Complain away that is what this place is for. It is a good place to vent without being judged. LOL

Remember why you are doing this! To kick Fat's @$$! Stay focused and relax!

i now how you guys feel i have 5 other people in my house and i have a long way to go befor my date is 3/10/10