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A day of questioning my decision

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stephaniel71

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I am 16 days post op, feeling pretty good. On pureed foods. I have my first fill appointment set for November 19th, so far down 17.5 pounds. But this evening I found myself questioning my decision....

My fiancé and I decided to go to the mall and pick up a few things and catch a movie. I thought this was a great idea. Since the surgery, I really hadn't done much for fun. I think this was not the best choice for me. This is something we do a lot. We usually make a day of it and have a lot of fun. But I forgot our day usually included eating at either Chevy's tex mex or Cheesecake factory, popcorn and soda with the movie or sneaking in an Auntie Ann's pretzel and top off the night with a Love it size Founder favorite Cold Stone Creamery Ice cream. Well I am pleased to report, I did not do any of the aforementioned. BUT IT WAS NOT EASY!!!

I came home feeling anxious, ravenous, and depressed. I was sitting there not knowing why I was feeling this way, when it finally dawned on me. My old life, the one that revolved around food, was dead.

I do question if I made the right decision. Again, I know this is my addictions talking. I need to know that these feelings pass. I know when I look at the scale and I put on my lose pants, I have made the right decision, it is just the silly little mind that plays tricks on me.

Anyone else feel the same? Any advice?

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I am 16 days post op, feeling pretty good. On pureed foods. I have my first fill appointment set for November 19th, so far down 17.5 pounds. But this evening I found myself questioning my decision....

My fiancé and I decided to go to the mall and pick up a few things and catch a movie. I thought this was a great idea. Since the surgery, I really hadn't done much for fun. I think this was not the best choice for me. This is something we do a lot. We usually make a day of it and have a lot of fun. But I forgot our day usually included eating at either Chevy's tex mex or Cheesecake factory, popcorn and soda with the movie or sneaking in an Auntie Ann's pretzel and top off the night with a Love it size Founder favorite Cold Stone Creamery Ice cream. Well I am pleased to report, I did not do any of the aforementioned. BUT IT WAS NOT EASY!!!

I came home feeling anxious, ravenous, and depressed. I was sitting there not knowing why I was feeling this way, when it finally dawned on me. My old life, the one that revolved around food, was dead.

I do question if I made the right decision. Again, I know this is my addictions talking. I need to know that these feelings pass. I know when I look at the scale and I put on my lose pants, I have made the right decision, it is just the silly little mind that plays tricks on me.

Anyone else feel the same? Any advice?

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omg me too!!! when were you banded? i was on the 3rd, my first appointment is set for the 19th as well. i feel the SAME way as you. my daughters 2nd birthday party is tomorrow & i was staring at the veggie platters licking my lips. haha. i am on a liquid diet currently, for 3 more weeks ive been told unless otherwise. i lost 15 lbs from my 1st consult to my surgery date & im pretty sure ive lost alteast 10 more lbs. congrats to losing 17.5!! go us! hehe. as far as the feelings go, that your old life i dead & that even tho it was sick life of binging & eating waaay too much, we will continue to miss it. but what we did, by getting banded, is going to help us in the future, to make us stronger & better!

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Hey, Nearly 6months in and 32kgs down nad yes those feelings do start to change, but so does your way of life. In saying thattoday we went out as a family to our markets which would of normally met with burgers and fries and cokes and lollies, but these days we buy a six square block of fudge and share between the 4 of us and are happy with that, but yeas I miss all my old friends (fried and battered) but The change this has made to my whole family out ways it. Goodluck on your journey, add up the money you would of spent yesterday on food and crap you will be hoorified.

Cheers Chooky

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I am three weeks post op, and I understand what you are going through. I am still on mushie foods until my next appointment, too - and last night, after dropping our kids off at the homecoming dance, some friends and I started off to our favorite restaurant (something we always do on high school dance nights), but once there, I realized there was NOTHING on the menu that I could have! Not one thing. So, I had a glass of water with lemon with everyone as they had their appetizers, and then I announced I wanted to head to the movie theater and off we all went - bought a bottled water at the theater, and really enjoyed the show, as well as the company of my friends.

I know that for the time being, I will not be able to eat what my friends eat, and never again will I eat the quantity of food I ate previously. But I can still enjoy the rituals of friendship that have been established over the years, and I can still have fun.

I just know that I need to find new ways to please that hunger in my tummy. Drinking water instead of snacking on chips, grabbing a sugar free jello instead of ice cream, and water with lemon instead of a cocktail with friends.

I have been too fat for too long and my body needs to detox from all the years of too much food. I know this, and I know this journey is not going to be easy. I have relied on comfort food for too long, and now I need to learn to deal with things differently.

This is a journey for us all - and I wish you all well!

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thank you for the encouragement. Today is a better day. I know this was the right decision. I look forward to a better future...I know this. And you are right...SOOO MUCH money saved.

Just that little devil gets in my head sometimes. I am quieting her a little by little each day. Good luck to all of you.

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Hi...i know exacly how you feel!!1 i am about 6 weeks post Op and i have my 1st fill on the 19th also!!

My husband and i dont go out alone much since we have 3 small kids, but when we do get a chance we used to go out shopping and to lunch...love cheesecake factory!. But ofcourse all this has changed... last time we went out shopping i could tell my husband wanted to stop and eat, but instead he drove through a McDonalds and bought himself some food and munched on it on the way home... i was trying to not focus on the smell of fries!! when i got home I drank a shake, but i felt upset. I realize that from now on when i go out with my husband, mother or friends i cannot focus on "where are we goingt eat". I need to find another focus!!

WE made the right decision we just need to keep ourselfs away from temptantion till our brain get used to the new way fo life!

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