So today was my god daughter's 1st birthday!!!

And of course at EVERY get together there is FOOD!!! lots of FOOD..:thumbup: I helped cooked..made fried rice and fried noodles and yummy eggrolls.. Man was I tempted.,.I finally gave in and TRIED to eat half an eggroll, a spoon of rice and a spoon of fried rice... and thats when it all went down hill for me..:cursing: the food did not sit too well and all came back up.. GOSH..how do any of ya'll control yourself when there's sooo much good food around??? IT REALLY SUCKS!!! I guess thats when self control comes in huh?? (which I didnt have)..then of course I packed some food home for my husband.. and as Im sitting here typing my blog..guess what Im doing??? Yea.. you guessed it.. Im throwing up the food I just tried to eat.. I am such a failure and a sucker for food... someone PLEASE HELP!!!!:thumbup:

I always make sure to eat before I go. I still fight the urge to eat (because it smells so good).

lol.. i did but after being there for 6 hrs... u kinda get hungry...

From what I've read in a few of your blogs, it sounds like you have an eating disorder... I'm glad you are going to discuss it with your doctor. Have you talked to a therapist or psychiatrist about your feelings toward food? I dont mean to sound judgemental... I hope you dont take it that way-its just that all that throwing up cant possibly be good for you. Good luck and keep us posted, ok?