I was sharing old photos with my boyfriend today...We sat down to look at pictures from when I lived in Germany from about seven years ago. I was about 15/16 at that time. When I sat with him to share the photos I simply thought that I was sharing with him the sights that I saw while I was in Germany, I got more than that....I saw how I looked back then and it hurt...it hurt because I thought that I was so FAT :mad: back then. I was so hard on myself, and thought that I was so f***n ugly and fat...at about 150 pounds...I also suffered from bulemia. I would be so exstatic to be that weight again...now at 270m lbs. I really wish that I had realized...

Aw girl - but you ARE doing something about it - I think honestly we ALL go through that - I lost 35 lbs with diet and exercise almost 3 years ago - had an ankle injury and gained it all back eventually -- so here I am 35 lbs back plus another 10 so I know exactly what you mean. One day at a time - for both of us - and this time you are doing it the HEALTHY WAY -- so WAY TO GO - be proud! Continue to take care of yourself one day at a time.