but I'll carry on because I'm worth it. (That's so hard to say)

I had a 2nd fill 4 days ago, an addtional 2.5 mls so now have 6.5 mls and it's tight. The doc said it was and he wasn't telling lies to me either. :blushing: Since the fill I have had 48 hours on clear fluids which consisted of water, tea, oxo drinks and a concoction I came up with; melon, yogurt and a soya protein powder. I know I previously said I hadn't used it but I have now tried it and it will be a daily addition. It lifted my mood, sounds odd I know but it worked for a while. I also had soluble vitamins being aware that minimal nutrition was going on here.

I have felt awful since this fill, :biggrin::thumbup: It wasn't easy and I was physically manipulated this time but it wasn't for long. This was THE time I needed my trusty chauffeur, Pete my husband, but he just couldn't get the time off, so drive I did!

Today I am going to try prepared jars of baby food, simply because I'm lazy but also scared to get chewing just yet. It may be another few days before I am brave enough to go for the chew, probably Tuesday (chewsday?) because I have the afternoon off work which would give me as long as I need and I have already decided on that meal! It will be cauliflower in cheese sauce with a quorn 'chicken' breast. Hardly solid food but at least I will have to prepare it.

Since I started today's blog I realised my tummy is rumbling so it will soon be receiving Heinz baby creamed porridge. I'm not sure if my stomach or my brain will benefit more from the food LOL

I am a little low at the moment but can see that light at the end of the tunnel, the tunnel is very dark right now. I'm sorry not to be my usual chirpy self. I think my lack of exercise isn't helping. There has been a slight concern over my gym membership, too long to explain here probably but basically, it's NHS subsidised and dates have lapsed between my reviews and my membership has become invalid. I am seeing my gym man , JIM, on Tuesday so it will likely be sorted then. Until then I will walk a bit. I did set myself a small challenge in August to cover 50 miles with exercise of one kind or another. I completed it and passed it and will add to it today also. I will likely manage 55 miles. I read other challenges where they were covering 30 miles day, how do they manage that at all? The time aspect o it would floor me apart from the fact I'd be dead in a heap by the end of the first day. I am no athlete! I would like to add to that mileage for September but have to be realistic so may well set it at 55 miles and see if I can make it more. Little steps are my way forward, the Olympics don't need me.

I'm off for that porridge now, can't wait any longer............