I am numb to just about everything at this point. I went to have my eyebrows waxed the other day and it hardly even hurt. It was the weirdest thing. It's kind of like my whole world is black and white. And logically I know this is all worth it. I know this will all pass and I will be fabulous. I can even say it out loud but right now it's just words. That whole BS about how it takes more muscles to frown than smile, i'd like to challenge that please. I think what i hate the most is my lack of personality. I'm flat. i wonder if this is how mentally ill people feel when they are medicated? is this the feeling that drives them to risk being off their meds?

Yet i stand strong. I've been a good good girl the past few days. I'm not really hungry any more at all, i'm just so so tired. Life has not given me any breaks this past week. I've had just as much if not more going on. With the kids breaking their cells phones (both of which have to be replaced today), trying to schedule photo clients for Sept and Oct, trying to keep my disgusting house some what clean while working a gazillion hours. And now tonight, the night before surgery i have an evening filled with church meetings... But tomorrow. Ahhh tomorrow things will get underway and I will crest the hill that i've been climbing. I'm so ready for this. I'm so ready to get back to the regular me, well of course with some improvements!!! See i managed to throw in a couple exclamation points. I haven't even been able to do that the past few days.

24 hours from now things will be underway....

I was numb too! Yes it passes an yes, you will be FABULOUS! Hang in there!