July 25, 2009

I am still at my office job and am now starting to feel comfortable wearing lower cut tops. It has taken me about 2 years to get to this point. I am not talking sleaze, just some cleavage. I am feeling better and am thinking I am actually "proud" I still have boobs after all this weight loss! I think I am finally getting that confidence I was lacking for so long! :thumbup:

I know I am not that obese 243 lb person anymore. I am for sure not fantastic, but am satisfied if I never lose another pound I will feel fine.

I get below 170 pounds some days, but can't STAY BELOW it. My upper body is VERY toned. I lift weights and am proud to say my arms and shoulders and back (not butt) look as nice as they looked 20 years ago. That is from exercising. I go to the gym 2-3 times a week for one hour and 15 minutes. I still need a tummy tuck and boob lift, but boob lift will not get done. Tummy tuck will though.

Band news: I cannot have more than 1 cc in my band without having reflux. The conservative doc I go to will not adjust or do another fill until I am reflux-free. This is so hard!

What I've done the past 2 years at least 5 days a week is wrote down everything I ate. That is how I keep track. It isn't pretty,:thumbup: but only I see it. It is like a diary of food.

The people I work with have no idea about my band. They know I sometimes have stomach trouble and the problems I have with my stomach aren't on a consistent basis. That is all they need to know.

Hang in there everyone, you can do this!