"Do not question yourself!!!" I said this morning as I was telling someone my story about "My first surgery date that was to be July 20 and how very excited I was. Then it was moved up to June 29 my surgery date, because I had met all the requirements!!! OMG

Holy COW have a cow!!!!" I was shocked, I did not think I was ready, I was worried about the insurance, the surgery, I was worried about the pain, about not eating and only fluids, worried about drugs, you know yata, yata yata, everything you read about was going thru my mind non stop in a loop, Over and over again.

Well, let me tell you I hugged my DR. Yesterday! I never thought I would do that!! But I DID.... I just jumped up and said "can I hug you." He gave me a HUGE hug back, I felt so GOOD!!

I said to him I have the power to change my life now. This tool is helping me change, and I have found confidence as well.

I find support here on this web site, I have not told many of my family, they do not get it. That is OK for me.

It is for me to figure this journey out, it is MINE. I am two weeks Post Op and have never felt better in my life. It is eleven days from surgery exactly!! What a load lifted.......

I have not really suffered. I was uncomfortable for two days after surgery. Drugs helped. Drinking water has never been my thing, I drink lots of water now. The liquid post op is hard, I must say, and/but worth it. Eating slow is even harder, putting the fork down and not picking it up is starting to be funny. I just stare at it. The amount of food is so small. I want to be small. The saying is you are what you eat.

Thanks to everyone who has shared with me their secrets especially Band Groupie. I want to play in your BAND!!

imaluckydog who is helping to create my own destiny. Yipppeeeee I am down 37 pounds in four weeks, wonderland/onederland is just around the corner. Oh happy day

37 pounds is amazing. You are SO going to be skinny!!!!

Your attitude is what helps you through - if you see it, you can become it (it's what I've been told...couldn't have come up with anything that profound on my own). Tee Hee...Laura

you go!!! that's awesome! looking forward to sharing the same experience! keep it up.

Isn't life a wonderful thing? I just feel like I have a new outlook on life and I could not be happier. I am seven weeks post-op and 30lbs lighter. I now see myself doing things I always put off. I have signed up for a Harley Davidson Riding class, and bellydancing! I am marking off my "Bucket List" Yes I am only 39 and I feel that is not too young for a "Bucket List".....I am so excited about the future and I am VERY happy for YOU! SHARING YOUR JOY!

Holy cow girl! 37 pounds in four weeks???!!!! That's nothing short of amazing (you sure he didn't do an RNY LOL?). You won't be able to recognize yourself soon!! Go girl go! You're the inspiration! -BG

I love your "small portions, small me" analogy. I'm going to use that!

Thanks so much everyone it has helped me so much to be able to share honesty I said "HONESTLY" with all of you. I am now being honest and that is something I never did with myself, I was always making excuses. Huh no more excuses this is my life and I want it back from the sleep apnea machine, the high blood pressure drugs and the bad knee Dr. just to mention a few!!

imaluckydog to able to take control.