Well I guess i was thinking the wrong way yesterday but its a new day. Let me clear this up I got off the depressants cause I dont like taking pills and it was making feel funny when i forget my meds... I have a bad memory. But really I got on them cause my hubby was in Iraq constantly and I had to deal with him being gone. I was constantly forgetting that pill and my head would vibrate but I think I have done well w/o them. I just have to control my anguish more and i have been doing good. I have relized through the prior responses that i have to have patience with this. I will do well in my way... I just hate that I have to wait but like I said i have to learn patience. I am still willing to do this for myself. I knew it will be a journey. Its just my start and having to deal with all this. For all of those that read my blogs thanks for the heads up!!! Its good for the support good or bad!!

Everything takes time and I have to stay positive for all of it. I am usually a positive person but like anyone else I have my bad days. Especally when I call the insurance company and they havent gotten my referral and then tell me It will be denied if my Doc didnt put all the nessacery reasons why she had referred me. but than again I dont know if she had or not. Dealing with the military hospitals sometimes is a pain in the neck cause you have to stay on them or you will be doing repeat visits for the same thing. And everytime I go I have my blood taken bc of my Thyroid. I changed my diet several times and the low carb thing works but I have to battle the hunger pains and usually give in.

To the response about the splenda... I would love to use sugar in everything but I have to pull back cause i love sugery coffees and I really not sure if spenda turns to fat...lol... maybe someone can clear that up for me... But i do know all the foods I love all turn to fat like all the carbs and sugar. I use to be on this diet doc low carb diet while my hubby was away and lost some weight and trained myself to only eat the good stuff for your body until my hubby came back and only ate hamburgers cause he missed them sooooo much, i fell back in my hole that I gradually climbed out of. And then we had moved to the desert where its truly hot and know I am the heaviest i ever weighed and having pains. Thank goodness he is behind me a hundred percent with my decision. I can can do a liquid diet for 2 weeks and soft foods because I will have to do this for myself to keep on the okay train. lol... I have no problem with that.. I am constantly battling different diets and it gets dicouraging that ur told that you have to work 10 times harder to lose weight. I have been there also but then I get bored and thats when the fat builds. I never feel full. Like i said before I can eat myself to death or feel hunger a step away. So if its a pill I can take to not make me hungry all the time to triing to shrink my stomach just by training myself, its a constant battle for me. And the AD were a crutch for me. I want to walk feeling good without the help of a pill that i may forget or double dose on ( done that several times)... So in my mind I will have no iffys about getting back on a pill that help me be more than lazy. Just wasnt my cup of tea. I would reather run than feel like I was swimming. If I am jumping around too much in this blog I just brain storming. Thank you all for taking the time to read this and plz dont judge me too harshly!!!Love ya!!! MUAH!!!