Today is my 5th post-op day and I woke up feeling pretty good. I had a bad experience yesterday with the shoulder pain, and gas pain. We went to my sister-in-laws for swimming and a little celebration. It was a stupid thing to do, but I mushed a little bit of potatoes and had a little sliver of mushy cake, and thought I would explode. I got up to excuse myself and was washing dishes, then felt myself getting sweaty and light-headed like I was about to faint. So, I went outside and got some air which helped a bit. Then I started the dry heaves. Nothing came up but some air, so is this the proverbial PB I've heard so much about? If so, I really want nothing to do with it ever again. Now my chest feels a little sore but the full feeling is gone. I weigh 214.8 this morning, down from 239 1 month ago. I can wear my wedding rings again which is very special to me.

My brother is having a cook-out tonight for his birthday - I have to have a little more self-control around the food. Has anyone felt like they want to take what is available just to make it look like you're a normal eater?? Does that make sense. It's hard to explain why I just have a tiny bit on my plate without having to go into all the details, which I don't always want to do,

I did have a good day with my mom yesterday. I fixed a meal for her because she doesn't have an appetite with this cancer news. I went to the store for her, and ran a few errands. She cried a little (highly unusual for her) and I think felt a little better,

Have a great day.

Hi Lauraq, Your are my band buddy! Lets play together. ok Put the plate down do not go there. We will be as normal as we are ever going to be a few weeks from now. Now is not the time to eat these things. I have heard stories like yours and others not at all a good thing to start yet. You are very emotional with all that has happened to you this past week. Lets face it you are under Stress to the Max!! Please drink your nutrition today and follow Dr. orders and water and get out a go for a walk. Get away from the food as my sister said to me last week "The food is not your friend now" She is right the food will not make us feel better. You have felt the chest pain it can get worse. Get busy write me a longer letter and we can chat. I am home all day today. I will check my computer all day, keep busy I want you to make this with me. As my stomach starts growelling LOL hope you have a GREAT DAY Happy 4th of July. Kathy imaluckydog to have a band buddy like you!!!!!