That seems to be heavy on my mind. I seem to think about food and what I will be mising all the time. Is that normal? We have KC strips in the freezer and I want to eat them all before Sunday! Will this obsession with food get better after banding? I know my husband "eats to live" and I "live to eat". I envy his relationship with food. Why is it all consuming to some (me) and not a big deal at all to others? I'm also not doing well in the exercise dept. I keep thinking after I lose a few pounds I'll feel more like it but I know that is the wrong attitude. I guess I'm pretty down today. I think I'm just getting scared the closer the actual surgery gets. I'm excited, also, but definately scared. It's such a huge, LIFETIME, committment. I think I'm going to go lay in the sun. Maybe that will lift my spirits....

Probably anyone who says they didn't feel the same at the point where you are now isn't being honest. Lots of goodbye meals and a deep concern that you might be one of the few rare failures! I am two months out and now about 80 to 90% of the time I dont think of food and I eat just to live. So much space has been freed up in my brain (from former 100% food obsession) that I just feel a weight is lifted from it. I wish I had done this many years ago!!! You will do great..you're honest with yourself and I think that's one of the big keys to success!!!

Xavier, thanks so much for the encouragement! I'm so glad to hear you're doing well and happy with the decision you made. I'm pretty sure I would back out if it weren't for all the encouragement from this site. Thanks for sharing!