O.k.... This is my first journal entry, although I have been banded since April 19, 2006. To date I am down 5 pounds.

I have run through the gammot of emotions for the last couple of months. I have spent alot of time depressed about getting the band, and wishing that I had an alternate surgery. I am sick of thinking that I spent $11,000 to lose 5 lbs.

I finally have seen myself pull up from my slump over the past two weeks. I joined Weight Watchers online, and journal my food like a MoFo. I started REALLY exercising almost daily. I am finally proud of myself again.

I am working towards:

a) doing the harder level aerobics dvd

being able to finally fit into the fat clothes in my closet

c) being able to get into the next lower size in the attic

d) doing crunches again

e) doing my measurments again and actually seeing the numbers decrease.

O.K.. that was alot of mini goals.:clap2:

I remember how good I can make myself feel when I try hard enough and put the energy into myself.

Obviously for this to work for me I have to make it work, because it sure ain't is easy to lose as I thought it would be. Silly me.:Dancing_biggrin: