Well today June 20 marks 28 years of marriage to the most wonderful person I know. My husband, he has been there for me through all my ups and downs and there have been MANY. Over 200 plus pounds lost and gained again, again and again. He loves me and says “I keep exciting him.” How sweet!!! He is a good man no question about that.

What would be exciting for me will be to loose the extra pounds once and for all. I know it will be hard and I am ready to work for it. I worked hard for it every other time. I followed Diet Work Shop, WW, Cambridge, Weight Loss clinic, Alli, the SEA Food Diet, You know the one where you SEE FOOD and EAT it. LOL I followed all these to the letter and they did all work for me, maybe they worked for you too? This is what I want...

I want to dance.

I want to eat normal.

I want to think normal.

I want to look normal.

I want to FEEL normal.

I want to see myself as NORMAL.

I want to feel sexy again.

I want to look sexy again.

I want to buy clothes off the rack.

I want those clothes to FIT me.

I want to be looked at, not look through.

I want to be successful.

I want off blood pressure medicine.

I want off my sleep apnea machine.

I want my normal body back, the one I had when I met my husband.

I was NORMAL I DO remember how it feels.

I HAVE FORGIVEN MYSELF.

Do I want MUCH? I think not!!

I have made the decision to have Lap Band Surgery. I found a wonderful doctor and he has done other surgery for me. I trust him and he is the best surgeon at this hospital. I am ready. It was suggested to me over a year ago and I still was not ready for it. I am now. The count down begins, My Birthday is July 18 and I will be 53. My New BIRTHDAY band date is July 20, 2009. If all goes as planned.

I have chosen not to tell everyone, only my husband, son almost 21, daughter 19 and sister who had GBPS 7 years ago that changed her life, that I am having surgery. I have 100 percent support on this. I do not want to answer all the questions. I have thought long and hard on this. There is a RIGHT time for everything.

I have enjoyed reading and learning from everyone on this site. This site is amazing!

I find myself not eating because I am at my new computer. That is a plus.

Best wishes to all the BANDSTERS out there. Thanks for all the support.

imaluckydog Kathy

Its a great list my banding buddy birthday girl! We're gonna make 7/20 a day to remember! We can do it and we will shine like stars!

KayVee, You are the BEST!! Thank you. I got up this morning and it was early and I just got to thinking, writing and NOT eating. Goods things will happen everyday now. We will shine like stars. imaluckydog Kathy

You two are SHOOTING STARS! Great blog!!! Counting down with you...BG