I have calmed down alot now, had a talk on the phone to a friend and had a nice warm shower.

I woke this morning after a terrible nights sleep, had to start early, was in a good mood feeling motivated.

Then not long after i begin work things start falling apart, first the 2ic has a go at me over a job which i assumed was done but wasn't so i got the rap for it, partly my fault i suppose. That annoyed me as it does getting in trouble, then a staff complaint, then i had to listen to the 2ic talk about herself on and on as she does and she is sooooo opinionated, if you have done it she has done it better, if you got something she has one better, oh golly she makes me made, i can't stand ppl like that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Then maybe only something a overweight person could understand, a girl at work recently got engaged and she is getting married in Feb next year a week before my banding, that's not going to go down well with my boss as the two of us will be off at the same time, oh well stiff shit!!!

Anywayz i too am in engaged and have been for a year now, we were supposed to get married in Oct this year, but when i began looking into lap banding it couldn't be done until Feb 2010, therefore we have put the wedding off until Nov 2010, anyway to get to my point i must say i am a little jealous if i wasn't so fat then we could be about to get married, but NO because i am so fat we have to wait!!!!!! She is thin and athletic and will probaly be able to wear any dress she likes, i just feel like a failure. :sad: