Today I ordered my last Iced GRANDE Upside-Down Caramel Machiatto. Tomorrow will be a TALL....and down to one shot of espresso/day.

Just got a call from my PCP alarmed about my TSH test results. My TSH was less than 0.05....and signified possible hyperthyroidism. I am not at all suprized by this. I am seeing a "alternative" medicine thyroid guru lady. I thought that all my problems (weight...etc) would be solved by getting some synthroid. Nothing has changed--except a little more energy--my nails have hardened up and been easier to grow--my ovarian cysts have cleared up. So some good has come out of it...but I gained 10 pounds on the stuff. GOT RAVENOUSLY hungry. Everyone said that it was b/c my metabolism was going up---fine..but I have never been able to navigate HUNGER very well...One way to look at it is that it helped me get approved for the band!! ) Certainly NOT what I expected it to do!!

I POURED over my book last night! I am SOOO grateful for my surgeon's and the nurse and the PA that puts the fills in. I may be biased, but I feel like I have the best team in the whole nation, the information they've given seems SOOO balanced, logical, and SO much information.

I'm still fighting the urge to find "loopholes"...how much can I eat and NOT hurt the band kind of thought process. I am going to really purpose in the next two weeks to try to find that RESOLVE within me that wants to fight. That can find the advantage in adversity and rises to meet it, not skulk around it.

This is where I'm going to have to DIG DEEP.

I found a short-term contract job too for some extra hours that I applied for back in December. The guy called me last night. I AM SOOO excited about it on many levels. It should be fairly easy for me to do, but will consume about 30 hours in the next couple of weeks. THIS IS A VERY GOOD THING!!! My daughter will be gone in 7 days and I am looking SOOO forward to spending some alone time with my husband!!! But I need some distraction to get thru the liquid diet and this extra job would be GREAT DISTRACTION not to mention extra $$$.

I've hung up my size 6 low-rider khaki pants from The Limited on my closet. These used to be my favorite pants...and are my inspiration. I'm also getting pictures/clips/momentos to make my vision board.

Two weeks goes pretty fast! I found the preop diet pretty miserable for two days (hungry and headache) but after that it was a piece of cake...I was pretty motivated and really wanted to lose some weight I probably wouldn't gain back, and shrink my liver to be a good patient!Well, the countdown begins for you....