A very philosophical title for a very nonphilosophical post. Sometimes it seems as if I finally have a good fill. But then this evening I ate a whole chicken pot pie. If I had a good fill I shouldn't be able to do that...RIGHT?!? And then suddenly about an hour later my stomach feels tighter again. It's so frustrating. Then you have the question of how much do I eat. My Dr. says to do a 7 day liquid diet. Which sucks but okay say I do it. HOW ARE YOU SUPPOSED TO GET ENOUGH CALORIES ON LIQUIDS?!? So then comes the question of will I lose weight if I don't get enough calories in? Yada yada yada. I really think I need to stop worrying about it and let happen what will happen. That's what I shall endevor to do tomorrow...

Today I ate:

1 protein shake for breakfast

1 cup of soup for lunch (split up by a few hours)

1 chicken pot pie (chewed up and spit out chicken and veggies but ended up eating the crust) <----not a good food choice and I shouldn't have had the crust.

On the upside I did work out on the eliptical for 15 minutes and then went swimming. I fear i'll be a paranoid old lady in a few years. I am so worried if the pool is clean...almost like dirty water is beginning to be a phobia. I hope not. One day when I have kids (which would mean I would have to be in a relationship...which right now seems like such a long ways off.) I would like to be the kind that takes them swimming and has fun with them.

Thought of the day:

When I am in a good mood, the children in my class behave better and I have a better day. It's amazing how much your mood controls your life.

P.S. I woke up feeling fine and haven't been sick all day. Odd huh?