This is my first blog! I wish I would have found this website sooner! I have found so much useful information from many on here! My surgery date is set for January 6th, 2015 at 11:15am. I am finding my emotions to be swinging widely between terrified and exstatic! I have been on my two week pre-op diet and in hindsight, it hasn't been all that bad. The first few days were the worst until I called the doc's office to find that I was starving myself and I needed to add some caloric value to my straight protien diet. I was more than grateful to hear those words. I chose to do the pre-op diet through the holidays and that was a challange! I made it though and if I can resist Christmas festives as well as NYE, I think I got this in the bag! I am NOT going to lie, I have been tempted and I threw a few fits but I came out a winner! I have two full days of more waiting and then I will move from pre-op to OP! I have struggled with trying to keep myself overly busy so not to think of FOOD all day and how I chose NOT to wait for a later date which meant .... NO HUGE Christmas DINNER, leftovers or NYE party trays. I think a hurdle for me is the girls I work with. We have always been EATERS together and this year they would have to eat without me. I have to say ... I MADE IT THROUGH THAT TOOO!!! My husband and I just told two of my four children (younger), the older one's were told when I was given my date! It was so hard to explain why I needed to have this surgery. I take handfull of meds for this obesity related illness and I want to live long enough to know my great great grandchildren and the life I am living now, I will not see the beginnings of my first granchild if I do not do this. I am ready to be free of diabetes, sleep apenea, high blood pressure, migrains, and the fact that I have to literally help myself up from a chair because my legs are getting to weak to hold my weight anymore. My youngest says, "Momma, I think you are beautiful just the way you are"! ::TEARS:: I have fought this long enough and I believe they will love me when I am able to run marathons with them and play ball with them!! For now, I sit patiently and wait for my surgery date, drinking protien and reading blogs to make the time go by! I hope to hear many success stories if I don't blog again before my date!
