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Feast or Fuel...

:whoo:I've almost made it through the first week of preop diet. It didn't start to get tough until yesterday. I especially feel a little more tired that usual. I think it is the change in diet, and the shakes are getting a little boring already. I hope to get another flavor so I can mix things up a bit. I am trying right now to keep focused in the moment. If I allow myself to drift into the future, especially all the way to surgery day, then I seem to get anxious. It seems so far away, and I wish it was sooner. I have a very busy schedule all next week, thank goodness, and maybe that will keep me occupied, and my mind will be busy. I have been sleeping more due to the fact that I go to bed earlier to keep from wanting to get my usual middle-of-the-night snack. Only thing is that I wake up earlier and then I want a big breakfast like I used to do. It seems to be just a habit and not so much that I am all that hungry. Eating is such a 'friend' that it is hard to let go of that ritual. I find myself thinking that I will never enjoy a meal again, that I will lose that social time that is spent with family and friends, and that I will not be able to think of food as a 'friend' again; but I know in my mind that I will enjoy food, just in a better, safer way. It is kind of like letting go of a close friend that has died. It is amazing that I could place so much importance on a thing. After all, food is really just fuel. If we all looked at it this way, maybe we wouldn't have been so enclosed by this thought that I have to have a 3-course feast to be happy. My body can survive very nicely on much less, and I can enjoy or should I say savor the flavors without gorging out. I am curious how others have managed holidays and family gatherings. Hopefully, someone will drop a few lines on the subject. :eek:

2bfreeagain

2bfreeagain

 

First Step Accomplished

:clap2: Surgery was on 8/28, and I am feeling better and better. I am still having a little referred pain in the shoulder...really hate that , but it is getting better. All the pain medicine does is make me sleepy, but the lady from the surgery center said that is what it is supposed to do...help you sleep it off. I have not had that much trouble with eating except for my pet peeve...too much sweet stuff. Everything that is on the list is sweet...protein shakes, jello, baby food fruit, pudding, popcycles, apple juice, yogurt, etc. I have found that I can put a spoon of potato flakes in my beef or chicken broth which makes it a little less dull. I am really having a lot of trouble with the protein shakes...YUK :help:All suggestions are welcome. I know I have to drink them for the protein, but man are they bad. I did really great with the pre-op (see below), but I was already tired of the sweet so it is hard. I asked if I could have V-8, but they said it might be too much acid right now. I can't wait till the 3rd-4th week to get some soft foods in. That is when I can get away from so much sweet stuff. I always knew that I was not a sweet tooth, but it has really come out more now that I have been on this diet. I'm getting tired so I will sign off and get some sleep. I still can't believe that I have finally done this. I have wanted it for so long. I am so happy!:eek:

2bfreeagain

2bfreeagain

 

Coming Soon...Mini-Me...

:clap2: How many times have I said the tired old "Today is the first day, etc., etc." and then it turned out to be just another day in the life of this tired body. I am so confident that on August 28th it will truly be the first day of the rest of my life. I have dreamed, prayed, hoped, wished, and begged that I would be able to someday have this surgery. It has been elusive up until 2 weeks ago. I know there is nothing lucky about this. I have been blessed, and I am so greatful. I love the thought of finally actually losing weight while eating less. It has been a lifelong battle for me. I weighed only 5 pounds when I was born and then it was a constant growth from that day on. I cannot remember any time...take that back...I can remember losing down enough to be selected for drill team. I worked very hard and then my parents got divorced and we moved...never did get to perform. :cry Anyway, I know that this is going to be the change of my life and I am looking forward to it so much. I am truly inspired by all of you guys. :love:

2bfreeagain

2bfreeagain

 

Waiting....hummm...

:bored It is a bit unnerving to be waiting for the big day. I realize that some folks are waiting for a really long time to get to the big day, but I have wanted this for so long. The right time just happened to come along...finally. Anyway, I have 16 more days to go. Monday I start my preop diet. My birthday is in 6 days, so my family wants to take me out to eat before I start on the diet. They thought I might want a last meal or something...can't seem to get it across that I am definitely NOT 'Dead girl walking' here. I know that it will be a big change but one that I am ready for. So, Murphy's Law struck yesterday. My DH is in the hospital. :cry He had another bleed in his stomach and had to have MORE blood infused. He will be fine and I hope they have finally found the problem. He has had 16 units since April. Very, very frustrating, but thank goodness for Medicare cause we could NEVER afford the blood otherwise. :ohwell: So, I'm home alone again tonight. Hope there is something good on the tube. :wave:

2bfreeagain

2bfreeagain

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