It's been two months since I got my lap band. Tomorrow I'm getting my second fill. So far I've lost 37 pounds, 15 during the pre-op diet, and 22 since my lap band surgery. I've been to parties, and dined out at restaurants and I'm still losing. When I went out with friends last week, I brought my own take home container with me, and packed up half my dinner before I started eating it! I've changed the foods that I eat, but generally I don't feel like I'm on a diet. That's why I'm so surprised that I'm still losing weight. In the past, when I tried to eat like a normal person and not diet, I would always end up bingeing and gaining weight. Maybe it's because I've cut out my trigger foods from my diet. I don't feel deprived, though. I eat a lot of protein, and no junk food. I am hungry a lot, but I know that it's going to take a while before my band is in the green zone. I also know that I have long way to go, and a lot of weight to lose. I'm trying to focus on small goals not the the big picture.
Wow! It's been almost a week since I got my band. I'm still quite bruised up and sore, especially in the center of my stomach, and my left side and shoulder, but I have a lot of mobility. Tomorrow will be the first day since surgery that I've driven the car. I'm glad I was able to take it easy the last week. There is no reason to rush things if I don't have to.
So far I don't feel any different with this band. It's hard to believe that it's even inside of me. I do wish I could feel something when I drink and swallow. It's deceiving.
Wow, I can't believe I'm almost done with the pre-op diet. I never thought I would be able to do it, but I did! My husband told me tonight that what I've been doing is a hard thing, and I should be proud of myself. I was on the phone part of the day with a nurse at the clinic going over everything for Thursday. Instead of being nervous I'm pretty excited! I am ready to get on with this, and start my new life.
The thing is that I haven't told anyone about this. Even my friend, who will be watching my son for me on Thursday, has no idea what I'm doing. I told her that I have to have a "procedure" done. I'm definitely not sharing this with my mom. She wouldn't be happy about it, and all she'd do is worry non-stop. Maybe I'll share everything with my family after I've lost a lot of weight, or maybe I won't. One thing about this whole thing is that it's all about me and no one else. I want this, and no one is going to stop me or bring me down!
I'm less than three days away from being banded. I have been feeling hungry since last night. This is real hunger with a growling stomach. It's getting difficult to choke the shakes down. I've been online today looking for some better ones that don't cost a fortune to ship to Canada. If anyone has any recommendations let me know.
Thursday cannot come too soon!
A week from today, I will have been banded for two days. To say that I am excited would be an understatement. I cannot wait!
I've adjusted to the diet I'm on. I still dislike the taste and texture of the shakes, but I'm drinking them. The past few days I've only been able to get in two a day instead of three. My stomach has been bad, partly due to the new Metformin my doctor prescribed me last week. My blood sugar was very high at my pre-op checkup. Luckily, it's gone back down, but she wants me to stay on the pills for a while. Whatever I eat, shakes or veggies, causes my stomach to get upset. It's crazy. I've barely eaten anything in over a week. What's even left in there?
Overall, I'm feeling really good since I've been on the shakes. I'm estimating that I've lost between 12-15 pounds already, which is great. For the first time in many years, I'm just feeling positive about my future!
Today is my 6th day on my pre-op diet, and it has been the easiest so far. While I still find the shakes and vegetable concoctions in my recipe book nauseating, mentally I am finding it easier to get through it. I have no more sugar cravings or cravings for any junk food, which to me is a miracle. I never thought I could stop eating sweets so quickly. I am craving food, but mostly protein, like chicken and hard boiled eggs, and I would kill for some chicken broth!
I'm not saying it's easy now. I'm still counting the hours until my surgery. Today I feel the best mentally that I have in months. My head feels clear. I'm not in a fog. I wonder if it also has something to do with cutting out the diet soda. I am using sugar free syrups in my shakes, but that's nowhere near the amount of artificial sweetener I consumed drinking 3 or 4 cans of diet soda every day.
I know why I'm doing this. I have my goals in the forefront of my mind. Eight more days of revolting shakes and nothing else...I can do it!
Today is Day 5 of my pre-op shake diet. I'm really growing to dread "meal time". I guess it doesn't help that I've also been sick the past few days. All I want is a little soup. I've been eating my vegetables for dinner. I never thought I'd ever be looking forward to eating asparagus and cauliflower!
I'm doing this for a reason. It will all be worth it when I start dropping pounds. This is the first time in years that I actually have a chance to get down to a reasonable size. Right now my first goal isn't even getting out of plus size clothes sizes. I've been shopping in plus size stores for so long! It really doesn't bother me. My first goal is to be able to shop in the regular section of stores that sell XXL like Old Navy or Target. I guess that would make my first goal a size 18. From here at 4X, that seems like a long way off, but I know I can do it!
So today I began my shakes in preparation for lapband surgery on Jan. 30th. I'm allowed 3 shakes and 250 calories worth of certain vegetables. It's been a challenging day! I think the hardest part is that I still have to make meals for my husband and son. I wish I could avoid all exposure to food! Lol