It's been 5 days since I've started the liquid diet and it's going better than I expected. I've found I'm still getting hungry and that's annoying. Sugar Free Peppermints and Hot Tea seem to help.
I'm getting a bit nervous and wondering if I'm doing the right thing. I'm worried about going for my pre-op meet with the Surgeon and him saying No, we're not going to do the surgery for any one reason or another. I really just want to get it done with already and get on with the next stage of it all.
I have an incredible support system and I know I can rely on each and every one of these wonderful people. I don't want to speak my fears to anyone except my husband. And even then, I don't get too involved with it.
And then I think about the goals I have set for myself. Both on the scale and not on the scale. I think about how much fun it will be to have the ability to shop at any store and buy cute clothes. I think about being healthy and getting off a lot of my medications. I think about living to see my grandchildren being born and being able to get on the floor and play with them.
Then the fear goes away and I know I'm doing the right thing. The wait and the prep work will be well worth it and I'm guessing forgotten once it's all said and done. I'm looking forward to living the rest of my life and not just being being alive.
