I am sitting here drinking my clear liquids and a million things are running through my head. What will the pain be like? Will this surgery work for me? Will people think I am taking the easy route out? No matter what the answers to these questions I will still be getting my sleeve surgery tomorrow at 7 am. I am nervous, but very excited. My journey started almost a year ago. I sat in the kitchen with a friend in my bathing suit, and we complained to each other that we needed to do something. We both signed up for the informational class and I went, and she did not. From there I found out the doctor I wanted performed the surgery at a hospital that my insurance did not take. I cried. (I cried a lot through this process!). I switched doctors and began the process again. I was super set. I started my nutrition appointments; however, I was very unsuccessful with losing. The day before my third nutrition appointment Hurricane Sandy set me back an entire month! Then after I finally finished the process (which I never thought could happen) I was denied by my insurance. They asked for a two year weight history, and based my denial on my previous year's weight not being high enough. I appealed, and this was also a very long process. I finally won! I was so happy and realized that this moment was going to change my life. I am still struggling with the pre-surgery diet, and am still feeling like when I get there tomorrow they are going to say no! I am so anxious that I am never going to be able to sleep tonight. When I go to bed tonight I am going to think of my family, and how happy they will be to see me happy.
I am not even going to sugarcoat this. I hated EVERYTHING about this surgery. I don't know if maybe I had a bad reaction to the meds, but I was VERY sick. I had to spend an extra night in the hospital, because I could not stop vomiting. How happy was I when the nurse FINALLY came in and stuck a suppository up my you know what! Each day I do start to feel better; however until I see the results I can't find the worth yet.
