I must admit, I'm a "closet" sleever.
No family or friends know what I'm about to do because I choose not to share. i feel ashamed that i cannot lose the weight on my own. I've been trying for years only to regain the loss weight & then some.
My mother has been petite & tiny all of her life, so shes never understood my plight. If she knew, oh would I hear it... Yup, even at the age of 49, she still tries to be controlling. Our phone discussions are never about life events initially, the 2nd-4th question from her is, "HOW IS YOUR WEIGHT?". {I cringe at this question}
My friends are all shapes & sizes. My smaller friends call WLS a cop out. My overweight and obese friends say they're ok with their weight, but they're always on a "diet".
Instead of acceptance & encouragement, I'm sure I would receive critcism & hateration...{Hateration= a form of jealously and negative emotion about your situation or circumstance, b/c individual isn't able to obtain/acheive the same success}
The "excuse" I plan to use with all (including coworkers) is, I had my gallbladder removed & I'm now watching what I eat with a high protien & low carb diet with excercise incorporated within.
Yes....... this is my story & my truth. MY truth shall set me free.
Thanks for stopping by...I now feel a little lighter, less burdened.
This was the loooooooongest holiday weekend E-V-E-R!!!
I felt like a kid near Christmas, having to walk past the Christmas tree with ALL of those beautifully wrapped presents underneath, with MY name on them..{and not being able to unwrap any until Christmas Day}.
I called this morning & scheduled my date..... 7/30/2013... You guys can't see me, but I'm doing the Happy Sleeve Day dance!!
Wow & to think....I will be "born again" {not bring disrespectful} for the 3rd time!! Woo hoo!!!!
My True Date of Birth 3/16/1964
My Born Again Birthday 1/1/1984
My Sleeve "new beginning" Birthdate 7/30/2013
Can I tell you ......This is somekinda AWESOME!!!!
I think Hallmark should create a card for such a beginning...lol..{There's an idea!}
Bougie {boo-ghee}
I grew up understanding the word "Bougie" meant you were acting/being uppity. But today this word has new meaning. A bougie is a guide that the surgeon uses to butt the stapler up against, when forming your Sleeve & they come in several sizes.
Does size matter?
Why are there so many to choose from & what makes the surgeon select which size is best for you?
Can you request which size bougie you'd like?
I'm learning my way, so I apologize in advance for the repition. This was posted yesterday
I've been struggling with my weight since I was a child...Always gaining and never losing.
Excercising, watching what I ate. Green Juicing & organic eating. Cutting back the salt, decreasing the sugar, omiting the bread, bagels & donuts. Stoping the fast food quick trips, increasing the steamed veggies, and loving fish & fowl.
Drinking water, carrying water. Drowning in water. I have water in my car, my desk drawer, a bottle in my purse...It became my newest accessory.
I've done Nutri System, Jenny Craig, Weight Watchers, and starving. I've used videos, joined classes at the gym, water aerobics, kick boxing, walking & jumping rope around the track. With minimal results, I started crying, lost hope & then binge eating.
I have high blood pressure, sore knee joints, an achy back, & a sad spirit. Yet I continue to smile on the outside, because fluffy people are supposed to be happy & jovial.
I'm a 49 y/o female that needed help.
I started my journey January 2013 by attending a Bariatric Center of Excellence Seminar in the area. It motivated me & I realized this was the help I needed. I immediately signed up and went to my 1st appointment in Feb 2013.
I followed the instructions of my insurance carrier, jumped through all of their hoops, crossed my T's, dotted my I's and was still declined the sleeve in May 2013. I questioned, how can that be when I'm in such bad shape?
The Bariatric Center of Excellence filed an appeal on my behalf June 2013.
I received a call yesterday.
My appeal was approved, YAY!
Anxiously awaiting 2mrrw to schedule my Sleeve Day. I'm grinning from the inside out!!
Please be my support.... Thank you for allowing me to share.
I'm a closet sleever whose doing this alone. Today was my last day at work because my procedure is scheduled for Tuesday. While updating my out of office for work email & updating my voice mail, it hit me.
As I would tell my girlfriends......"This *ish is REAL!!" The waiting is over!
From 1/2013 to 7/2013, I'm finally here.
I've been to the required support groups,
the consultations,
the psych evals,
the 3 months with the Nut,
the EGD,
the H Pylori meds, (ugh)
the tears from being denied the 1st time around,
the excitement of being approved from the appeal,
the scheduled date FINALLY!! (the longest holiday weekend of my LIFE!)
the PreOp class,
My RX & "how to" on how to administer the blood thinner injections, once I get home. (and I'm TERRIFIED of needles)
Telling my coworkers I'm going out for gall bladder surgery
to this very moment.
I don't know how I should feel. I've read many books & I've scanned many blogs. I'm stocked up on food & prayers!!
I have enough chicken broth, beef broth, vegetable broth, seafood broth, jello, pudding, protien powders, syntrax nectar powders, isopure RTD, liquid whey protein tubes, chewable vitamins, chewable iron, applesauce, sugar free drink packets & bottled water to last me through to December!! lol.....No...seriously!
Thank you all for your support, your guidance & for emails I've received. We are all in this together & I'm looking forward to crossing over into my new beginning very shortly.
Good Afternoon,
After 4 phone calls made today @ 9:15am, 11:15am, 1:15am & 3:15pm, I was politely informed on the last call, that the Scheduler was off today. One would think that they'd advise me of that from the initial call @ 9:15am.. {Say WHAT?!?!?}
All is well. I will tenaciously try to schedule my Sleeve date on Monday... :tongue2:
Have a wonderful weeked everyone!