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My trip from Morbid obesity to Normal

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This Is Unreal!

This is Unbelievable   So, surgery was October 9th, its hard to believe that just 2 short months ago I weighed 343.4 pounds, not the biggest I have ever been but pretty close. I look at that weight and think to myself WOW, what is God’s name was I doing. What in God’s name was I thinking. How was I living at 343 pounds, how didn’t my legs collapse under the weight, how did I manage to get down on one knee time and time again as I flung my 15 pound bowling ball. Time and time again. I can’t help but wonder how my body managed to keep up without having the sever amount of pain that should come from living with that kinda weight. Now, I’m down to 280.6. 280.6!!!!!! I can’t tell you how amazing this feels, I’m back bowling and I cannot tell you how much better my legs feel during my approach how much easier it is to keep my balance at the foul line. How much easier it is to get up out of my shot and that is just my bowling. None of my cloths fit anymore. NONE of them, I swear that my sneakers and work shoes feel looser. OMG I bent over and tied my shoes under my knee. Meaning for the first time in years I didn’t have to lay my foot on the side to tie my shoe. What a great feeling to have. Yesterday at bowling I had this white tee shirt on, and a fellow bowler had to do a double take at me as I was walking up to him, his face was priceless, he walks up to me and says holy shyt, where is the heck is the other half? My first response was right there as I pointed at my girl but then I realized that he was talking about the weight I lost. I can’t explain the happiness that bought to my life. To hear people I bowl with talking about how great I look as I walk past them is amazing. I can’t wait to go shopping, super excited right now. And the great part is there is at least another 60 pounds to come off. I’m already looking forward to it. #OverInspired
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So nervous...

Ok, so let me tell you how I was SUPER nervous this weekend. So if you dont know anything about me (and i dont think you do) I love rollercoasters, love, love, love them, and it has been a very depressing past couple of years for me becuase I have been too big to ride them.... which mind you is the worse feeling in the world. I mean standing in line for an hour laughing and joking with your frineds to finally get to the coaster and not be able to close the harness.... its deflating, then whats even worse is to have to get off the coaster turn around and look at not only the 40 people on the coaster waiting to take off but the hundreds that are in line looking at you looking at them.... oh man its terrible.   anyway this weekend we went to six flags and while bobbing around in the lazy river.... super cool if you dont have one, its this 1/2 mile long river that runs around the water park, but its got jets and sprinklers and all kind of stuff in it... amazing, but anyway in bobbing around in the river my girl and I are talking and she tells me that she has been avioding going to six flags because she wants to ride the rides with me and a lot of them i cant fit on..... i'm not sure what hurt worse getting off the ride in front of all of those people, or knowing that I am the reason that someone else I love is not doing something that they want to do. Anyway I try to shake off any bad feelings becuase i dont want to ruin the day anymore. So internally i'm having a fight with myself, do i run the risk of the embarrassment of getting asked to leave the ride or do i just deal with the hurt of knowing that i am keeping my love from doing what she love because of my size?   What would you do?   I end up saying to myself my embarrassment is nothing compared to the hurt and shame i feel because i how i'ver held her back and decided i am going to try and get on the coaster. Well, we head over to the theme park and find a ride, get in line for about 15 minutes and don't you know it started to rain and thunder really bad, so of course they shut the coasters down, we found a bench and waited 45 mintues to see if it would pass, when it didnt we decided we needed to go home and would try again another day.   I would love to say that this story ended in a happy ending plummeting 200 feet to the earth at 60 MPH but the truth is it didn't. It didnt end the way we wanted it to, but what it did do was inspire, motivate, bring to light the darkness that was hiding within. what it did do was make me realize how this weight that i have been carrying is not only affecting me, but affecting the people i love, I promise you this, once this suregery comes I will NEVER see this weight again.   Thanks for listening have a great day.   #SuperHighlyMotivated
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$400 Million Dollars?

It’s been quite a while since I put a good entry in here and being as I got a few moments I figured now is the time to do it……   So, what’s on my mind…. First off I went to the doctors on Sunday and afterwards she said she didn’t need to see for again until 6 weeks after the surgery??? Normally people would be rejoicing in the fact that they don’t have to go back to the doctors, but I’m thinking…. 6 weeks, isn’t that a little long for someone who went through MAJOR surgery? I’m actually feeling like maybe she is just pushing me off, not rally a good feeling to have about a new doctor….. Maybe it’s just me taking it wrong. I can wait to get this surgery done, I keep looking to see if there is anything I can do to speed the process up but I know at this point it’s just a waiting game. The endoscopy is scheduled for September 9th. Which is over a month away, I now it will fly by but still I want to do it now…. And then to think I have to wait another month due to the insurance needing there time to review/approve the package… and then on top of all of this my job is slowing down to a dangerous level. Now do get me wrong my God is a amazing God and I know that no harm can come of me as long as I continue to serve Him, but just seeing it slow down is worry some.     I talked to my girl about this whole thing and while you can see she is trying her best to stay calm on the outside, she is terrified on the inside, you can see it in her eyes whenever we talk about it… and because I see this it makes me not want to talk to her about it because I don’t want to see her worry. Not sure what to do with that.     Oh and how about the lottery??? I don’t know if you have the lottery where you are but in this area the Powerball payout is up to $400 million. Yes you read that right 400,000,000.00 dollars. I guess if I hit it alone after taxes I should bring in about 265 or 270 Million… Whew what to do with the money, well being as I always play with the annuity option that would mean that I would make around 8.5 or 9 million dollars a year for the next 30 years… more than enough to set myself up for life. I would buy a house outright, and set up a separate account for property taxes alone, I would $750 thousand aside for each child that they wouldn’t even know about until the turned 25 and completely pay off all of my debt, buy two newer… not new but newer cars and probably take a few trips. Once it was all said and done, I would bank the rest and live off the interest. Man how easy would it be?     Well now that I have been brought back to reality by my work phone I guess I can wrap this up for now.   While I thank you for reading I pose the question to you, if you ended up making 9 million dollars a year for the next 30 years what would you do with it?
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More than a little hot right now

Nothing make me madder then when i am busting my hump to get stuff done in a timely manner and one issue throws the whole thing out of wack. So i talked to the registar on the 3rd of July, she ask me, do you think you can get the testing done by 7/19, im like heck yeah, well here it is now 7/11 and still no scripts, so i start calling around looking to see where they are, come to find out she never sent them? REALLY????? REALLY????? then i also find out on my call that the docter is scheduled for a conference the day of my appointment, he has been scheduled for that conference for three months..... WHAT WAS THIS LADY DOING???? So the new nurse says to me, we will let you meet with the doctor 7/16 instead of waiting until 7/19, well that would be great if the stupid lady would have sent out my scripts for the test back on the third when she was suppose to. I have spent the last three hours trying to see if i could find a place to get the test done prior to 7/16 to no avail.   so i call the hospital back and the lady is like well the next appointment we have the the doctor is 8/2. August 2nd? are you f***ing kidding me? 8/2???? i am so mad right now. Here i am thinking that im moving along at a great pace and this one lady throws everything into a tail spin. So now not only am i back to waiting but i need to take an additional day away from work to get this satisfied.   Well as it currently stands   7/16 i go in to get all 6 test done 7/30 i have the meeting with the nutritionist 8/2 i meet with the surgeon.   Oh and to beat the doctor goes on vacation for three weeks on 8/4 so i wont be looking for a date until september, this is really starting to boil my blood. and i wanted to have it done by mid august, oh well, there that idea goes..... still kinda PO   All of this could have been avoided, the the original lady would have just looked at the schedule correct.........GRRRRRRRR.........
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My 1st Entry

June 25th 2013 Surgery Date: Not Set Surgery Type: VSG   Ok, I have decided to do this to keep track or to keep a time line of what is going on in my mind. I dont know if anyone will read this or not but if you do hopefully it will help you along the way.   Today has been a littlebit of a different one, im not in the same boat as a lot of people on here are, or at least i dont think i am. I have picked my surgeon, there were only two to choose from in my approved hospital, I have completed my Psch Eval 6/19 and completed my seminar 6/20. I have a telelphone appointment with the surgeons office on 7/3 at 1pm, that i am kind of nervous about becuase i dont know what to expect. they said it can take anywhere between an 45 minutes and a hour. I am the kind of person who wants to get this done now, I kinda wish they would tell me ahead of time what kinda test i need to get done so i can be setting them up and knocking them down rather than sitting here waiting. But i guess i just have to wait.   I just read another blog and all the person talked about is how they could wait until the no solid food period was over because they just wanted a taco, or they just want this or that. I couldnt help but think to myself, here is someone that most likely will fail. Now, dont get me wrong im not wishing failure on anyone, but once you make up your mind and follow through with something as serious as weight loss surgery i think a taco should be the farthest thing from your mind.   Anyway that is the kind of thing that scares me, am i going to be that kind of person, that only thinks about the stuff that i can't or shouldn't eat versus, taking this oppertunity, taking this chance to make a whole new life for myself and run with it.   I'm already making palns, for example, i want to get involved in adult sports, ie the coed basketball team, at glory days sports, volleyball doesnt sound to bad either. there is just so much that i want to do that i cant because of how i allowed myself to get.   Another thing that is on my mind, i heard a doctor say when giving a seminar that it was not the patients fault that they were overweight, that bothers me, it bothers me because it is taking the response ability of someone actions off of them. Now dont get me wrong i know that there are true medically nessary reasons where a person cant lose weight, however (and i'm including myself in this catagory) some of us where just making bad choices with our life, and that choice got us where we are, now we need help to get back where we want and need to be to live healthy.   I dont know what is all going on with me mentally right now but i do know that i am ready to get this show moving. i am ready to be thinner, smaller, healthier, and all in all ready to be around a lot longer. If you found this to be the slightest bit interesting, feel free to follow my blog, there will be more to come.   Have a great day and God Bless!
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Testing Complete

Ok, If you read my last entry you will know that on the 11th I was crazy Mad because the surgeons office called and wanted to reschedule my appointment from 7/19 to 7/16 becuase the surgeon was doing a conference on the 19th and the person doing the schedule made a mistake. I was mad not becuase they wanted to move it up but because they wanted me to have 6 sets of test done prior to sitting with the surgeon and they still hadnt given me the scripts to get them done. Needless to say i thought it was impossible and ended up setting a tenative appointment for 8/2. Well i decided that on Saturday the 13th i was going to get whatever work done i could get done being as i didnt have anything else to do. I went to LabCorp to get the bllod drawn and come to find out the needed to take 8 vials of blood. after that i decided to go to the hospital and have the xrays done. Once i got there the lady who registered me decided she was going to make a call and see if i could make an appointment to come back next week and have the other test done. Well when she came back in the room she said everyone was able to do the test saturday. So I got ALL of my work done on a Saturday and was able to sit with my surgeon yesterday!!!!!!!!   So, yesterday i'm with the surgeon and we are going over all of the test results and i find out there is 1 thing i need to get corrected before scheduling the surgery, apperently i tested positive for H. Palri, or how ever you spell it lol. So i have to take antibaotics prior to surgery. I also found out I need to have an endoscopy completed, so i sit down to schedule my endoscopy and the next open date is 9/9, yup, 9/9. My surgeon only does endoscopys on the 1st and 2nd monday of the month and he is off on vacation the first two weeks of august, oh and the first monday in september is Labor day, so after all the back breaking and blessings and all that other stuff i still have to wait until september.   Now, I can laugh at it seeing how silly i was to try and rush things along, now i'm just trying to get myself together mentally for the life long journey that comes. I probable wont be back here until there is another update but just know that it is coming as soon.
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About 6 Weeks Out

Well here we are about 4 weeks out of surgery, I have lost almost 50 pounds and I can tell you I am loing this surgery. I feel bad becuase i have not been on this site to update in a bit. as a matter of fact last time i was here it was still verticle sleeve talk. lol. no wonder my app wont work. Well Anyway, let me tell you this is great. if you are reading this prior to surgery, let me tell you IT IS WORTH IT. i am not going to lie to you, when i woke up from the operating table i hurt.... bad... but thankfully i was allowed to go back to sleep and, when I woke up it wasnt so bad. Here I am 4 weeks out from surgery and have no pain what so ever. I feel amazing, and i can tell you to be able to sit in a chair and not have my legs rubbing against the arm rest is a amazing feeling. I have been going out to eat with my wifey and of course while she get what she wants i have a soup or something and nurse the heck out of it, but i've noticed that i actually have space between my body and the booth table. Oh man!   This is just a wonderful all around experience, I praise god for allowing me to have it, and am over joyed to be at the place i am. I just bought myself some new cloths and out of habit i headed to the big and tall section of the store well, i ended up trying on the smallest thing i could fit in the big a tall section and it was too big, i started to celebrate. I very confidently wondered over to the "normal" people sizes and found me this nice pair of jeans.... whoo let me tell you, one of the best feelings in the world right there.   This has been an amazing ride so far, i've finally been able to go to the gym and have done so the last two day, and even that was eaiser. I am just so excited. yes this has its down falls as does everything in life, but i'll tell you what. if you even have the smallest of doubts about this surgery, email me or message me your questions and i'll be straight to the point with you...     KEEP UP THE GREAT WORK>>>>>>>> LETS KNOCK ANOTHER 50 OFF!
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Done with the food visit! Prelim Date Set!

Just another update!   Sat with the Nutritionist yesterday, She was a very nice lady, we reviewed my three day food diary, what type of protein shakes they thought were best for this type of surgery. All of the food groups and my caloric intake, what I should be watching out for and what I am ok to eat and not eat. We also discussed what to expect for the weeks before surgery and after surgery. I thought it was a great visit. I also had the pleasure of setting a preliminary surgery date 10/9!!!!! Woot Woot! I am very happy to know that we are getting close, I still need to have my endoscopy done but I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I’m getting very excited. Anyway I have to go to a conference call but I’ll write again soon!
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Endoscopy Today

Ok, so I had my endoscopy today, which means my file will be submitted to the insurance for approval tomorrow.... I hope that goes well. The Endoscopy was neat, I have never been under any type of sedation before. I feel good overall, except for this headache I've had all day but I think its because my body wants to go back to sleep and I haven't let it. I left the hospital at 12:30 and have been up ever since, everyone says I should be sleep, so I guess I'm going to turn in shortly as its 607 in the evening. Well I just wanted to say, I had the endoscopy yesterday and the 15 day count down begin tomorrow. Wish me luck everyone!!!!!
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Finally Spoke to my "intake worker".

Hi guys, Ok so here is what happened. The telephone interview that was suppose to take 45 minutes to an hour actually only took twenty minutes and here are the tests and dates and times;   Psch Eval:Completed 6/20 Face to Face with surgeon: 7/19 Nutritionist: 7/30 Chest Xray:Not set Abdomin Xray:Not Set EKG:Not Set Complete Set Of Blood Work:Not Set Blood Gas Test:Not Set Stool Sample:Not Set   So there are 6 test that have dates of not set because I have to wait to get the scripts in the mail before i can call and schedule the test. Now according to my intake interveiw all 6 of those test need to be complete prior to my face to face with the surgeon. I'm sure that you are thinking... geez isnt that kinda close, and the answer is yup.... but i want this surgery, worse than anything i've wanted in a LONG time. so i will find a way to make it happen. I gotta keep this entry short becuase i am at wrok, but I will say this, I feel like i'm right around the corner now and hope that in i can get a date like the first or second week of august.   I am a big thrill seeker so this is my goal....... surgery no later than August 15th, healing up and taking real good care of my self from august 16-october 24th. My birthday is October 23rd so maybe i can go to six flags on the weekend of October 25th and ride my first roller coaster in 10 years. that will be 10 weeks post op, i think i should be fine for a good thrill dont you?   Alright i really got to go for now, i will be back once i get the dates set for the other appointments;   Oh also if anyone is reading this, i noticed a cople people with the dates of there appointments down under there weight loss ticker, How do you do that?   Thanks guys!
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AND THE COUNT DOWN BEGINS

Well I found out yesterday that the doctor’s office finally opened up the claim with my insurance, that mean my insurance countdown begins…. 15 days… well actually its 14 business days until they have to make a decision on my application for surgery. I have to admit I’m kinda nervous, but its only because I want this so bad. All the weeks of prodding and poking and procedures all lead to this moment, to these final days. I can already see the light at the end of the tunnel and guess where it leads….. to a beach walking around without a shirt and being proud about it. it leads to shopping at normal people stores, it leads to roller coasters and comfortable plane rides. It leads to a healthy and brand new life. I am 14 days away from losing the weight and seeing my kids graduate, meeting and enjoying my grandchildren, and loving my life in a way I haven’t been able to in a long time. I am 14 days away from a new chapter, if you can’t tell I’m really excited for this. I ready for this.
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1st Doctors Visit

So this past sunday was the first time i've been to the doctors in 16 years, yeah i know, that;s pretty bad, but the truth is besides being fat i'm a pretty healthy dude. I dont take any medicine, i dont have a problem sleeping, no asmah, the only problem i really have is elevated blood pressure.... So as i said i went to the Dr. Office Sunday and had my "check up" she said everything was fine, my blood prossure was high, 151/91, which is right in line with the last few times i was at the P. Center to donate, but she said she wasn't going to put me on meds cause i am in the weight loss process. She said that i would quilify for the procedure on my BMI alone, according to the web is 42.6 (6'1" weight 325) so that made me feel a little better. The Nurse was really nice, she took a few minutes to explain what she was doing and why she was doing it, she looked at the thing on my stomach and confrimed that it came from the belt rubbing the bottom of my stomach from sitting so much and that it would heal as the stoach went down but could confrim that it would ever look the same which was kinda depressing. She told me that i have to continue to have my pressure checked every week and if the bottom goes over 100 or the top goes over 160 i need to come back to her office right away, i guess that is heart attack range, but i didnt ask. I still did not get the information from the the hospital yet to get the blood work and other stuff done, i keep forgetting that there is no mail movement on the 4th of July so that makes everything slower. Well i'm really excited to get this thing moving. and am actually kinda antsy. Well I got to get back to work but just wanted to let you know about the doctors appointment.   Ill talk to you soon!
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