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10-1-2007

Well I'm very excited, today I got approved by my insurance. :clap2: No help from the gal who was supposed to get me my 2004 medical records. The surgeons office sent in 2005-2007 hoping they would approve it and they did. If I was nice I would call the gal from my previous Dr's office to tell her not to worry about the 2004 records but I'm not. Actually I am nice and almost called her but figured it would be good to have them just in case. I just like to pretend I'm a mean vengful person once in a while. :heh: I have two pre-op appointments on the 16th. One is with the surgeon and the other is with the hospital. Fun! Fun! At times I just can't believe this is really happening. I rode my 30 minutes today (I upped the difficulty on the bike). Cals today 1330. Take care all!  

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8-25-2007

Sooooo..... after Monday nights support group all my pre-op requirements will have been met!!:clap2: The sleep study was interesting. For those of you who may have to have one in the future. You get wires stuck on your legs. So if your like me and haven't shaved forever because no one usually sees my legs anyway I would suggest shaving. I'm not super hairy or anything but it still hurt like heck when they pulled them off in the morning. Then you get wires on your face and chest. Oh- don't forget the microphone taped onto your neck. Then they glue 7 wires into your hair. Yep, I said glue. :omg: After an hour or two when your ready to go to sleep they come into plug in all of the wires that are attached to you in for the night. They then at that time put a thing on you like an oxygen canula that also has a plastic tip that rests on your upper lip. Then the last thing they do is tape a pulse sensor onto your index finger. Then it's nightie-night time. :tired I personally slept pretty terrible, just because of the thing up my nose. Then at 530A they came in and started ripping off off of the wires that were previously adhered to my body. The glue remover for my hair smelled awful. I was left sitting wondering what the hell just happened to me. To my biggest horror when I went to the mirror in the bathroom there were marks from the tape still on my face and neck. At this point tonight, the ones on my face are about gone but the one on my neck is very obvious. I am also still picking glue out of my hair although one more wash and I'm sure that will be gone. Overall it was a survivable experience but not one I'd want to repeat if it could at all be helped. Until next time....

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11-11-2007 pm

Just wanted to thank those of you who've given me some nice comments. It's really appreciated. It's amazing that just last week I was kind of in a funk and thinking that somehow this (the lap band) wouldn't work for me, and now I am totally re-inspired. If I didn't have the band I would have started the eating funk that got me up to 295lbs. But the band makes it to where I just can't eat what I used to. I get full very quickly. And since I really don't want to PB (productive burp) I stop eating when I feel full. I did have some chocolate cake last week. I started to beat myself up over it but that line of thinking has just got to change. We can't eat perfect all of the time. As long as I'm not eating cake or other high calorie/high fat foods everyday. Luckily I'm not a big sweet person. Once every couple of months usually does me good. I thought that I'd post what I ate today to give an idea of how my diet has changed since started the soft food stage. 8am 1/4 c. oatmeal 2 oz nonfat milk 2 Tbs sugar free maple syrup 10am 3oz of light tuna w/ 1 Tbs mayo 1pm 1 scoop whey protein powder 4 oz nonfat milk 5pm 3oz hamburger pattie (pureed) 2 Tbs brown gravy 2 mushrooms (all of this blended together) 2 Tbs. mashed potatoes I at half of this at 5 and the other half around 7pm 9pm sugar free fudge bar   So my total caloric intake was 850 calories and 83 grams of protein. It's so amazing that I am full on this amount of food. Oh- and I did ride my bike today for 30 minutes. Goodnight everyone! Take care.  

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9-28-2007

My pre-op diet sucks. I don't feel that way every minute of every day but there is that very strong underlying feeling.:tired It's not that I'm that hungry. It's more that there are just times that I've used food and I'm not supposed to use it now during those times. When my mood gets in a negative funk I like to feed it. I had a real hard time today. It is day 10 of my 30 day pre-op diet. And today I wanted to eat everything. Once again I did cheat. I ate a chicken strip. But once again I didn't have my last slim fast to help balance it out. I wanted to eat a hell of a lot more. One good thing is we don't really have any goodie foods or foods that are real easy in our house. At least not things that I like. Tomorrow has got to go smoother! The weight records I need still havn't been faxed to the surgeon. I called and requested the others I mentioned from the Primary Health. They said it would take at least a week. At least I've covered my bases as well as I can. The surgeons office faxed the info they had to BCBS to see if they would approve me without 2004's records. I doubt it but they thought it was worth a shot. Total cals today was 1550. and I rode my bike the 30 prescribed minutes. Good luck to all!

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12-20-2007

So today I went for my second fill. It was quite the experience. The doctor reviewed my diet. He told me (of course) that I was eating things that I shouldn't. He wants me on basically the Atkins diet until I get smaller then I can start having carbs again. He also said that by looking at my diet journal that I obviously was not experiencing restriction. So he put 2 more cc's in my band for a total of 4 cc's. After the fill I sat up took a drink of water and everything seemed fine for about one minute. Then I could really feel the fluid in my throat. He could see my discomfort and asked about it. He decided to take one cc out of the band. So I now have 3 cc's in my band. I am still on only liquids until Sunday so I don't know about restriction as far as food goes. At this point I cannot drink as fast as I used to. I'm hoping this last fill will get things really going for me. I definitely haven't been hungry since I got it. I will keep updating on how things go. Hope everyone has a happy holiday! Take care..

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10-10-2007

I called to doctors office today ask about how they thought my pre-op diet was going considering how much I've lost. The gal there said as long as I've lost at least 20 of the 25 pounds I'd be okay. I told her that I'd switched to just liquids and no more veggies a few days ago and that I was only consuming right at 1000 cals a day. She said that the diet is only supposed to give you around 800 cals a day. I told her that the three slimfasts alone were 690cals. Then the protein shake is 220 cals and with the skim milk it's 300 cals. So right there is 990 cals. The sheet that I got said to use 2 scoops of the protein shake mix and that must be wrong for the kind of shake mix I am using. If I only used one scoop then my cals per day would be 880 cals. Anyway- I guess I'm still just nervous that my weigh in will be messed up. I've heard (on Oprah) that a persons weight can fluctuate 5 lbs in a day. So what if my afternoon appointment my weight is 5lbs heavier than it is at home and my surgery date gets moved because of it. I'd be pissed. I have worked so hard these past 3 weeks. So today, since I had already had my 2 scoop protein shake by the time I called the office, I only had two slim fasts. So my calorie intake today was 790. I didn't ride my bike but I spent around 2 hours outside hauling wood around and building a fence for the horses we got today. My hip that hasn't bothered me in a while is really achy tonight. I'll be glad to be lighter so hopefully it won't bother as much anymore. It's the reason I ride a bike instead of walking. When it acts up I gimp around and look ridiculous. I'm so tired after today. My mind feels fried. I think it's from the lack of nutrition I'm getting. But I will do what it takes to get this done. I wanted to mention befor I forget (being that could happen at anytime) that since being on the pre-op diet I've noticed that I am at times very moody. I also get headaches. I was going to say one other thing but I really can't remember. There goes that absentmindedness again.:phanvan Well, goodnight all. Good luck on your journeys.:car:  

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12-10-2007

It is nice to be losing again. I am down 4lbs since last Tuesday. I'm still not sure if I have a lot of restriction. It is better than it was before. I get full a bit faster and stay full longer. I still can eat whatever I want. Although I haven't been eating carbs except sometimes with breakfast. My doctor draws a diagram of a small plate. Then he draws a line down the center of the plate to cut it in half. On one side he draws a triangle the size of a deck of cards- this is the amount of meat/protein I'm to have at each meal. The other half of the plate is for a vegetable. That is how he wants me to eat everyday. I'm being pretty strict about it now. I haven't been good about exercise. Gotta work on that. I just wanted to make a note that although getting my first fill didn't hurt at all the port area hurt pretty darn bad the next couple of days. When I would turn or move certain ways it really hurt. It's better now. I was worried for a while there about my port flipping or something bad like that. Until next time.........

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9-23-2007

Day 5 of pre-op diet. 25 more to go. I am so envious of all of you who didn't have to or won't have to do the pre-op for so long. But my surgeon is pretty strict about losing close to 10% total body weight. He said 25lbs for me. It's hard sometimes when my husband eats in front of me. It's also amazing now that I realize how many times a day I would just pop something in my mouth. Like when I am fixing my 15 month olds meals I usually take a bite here and there to make sure it's not too hot or that whatever it is tastes good. I also do that with cooking, putting away food, anytime I handle food. But I've stopped the misc bites and finger licking. Watching commercials can be difficult. I never realized just how many food commercials there are or how good they really make that food look. I've been trying to DVR everything I watch so I can skip the darn food commercials. I've started tracking the calories and protein I eat in a day. I first tried the website: mypyramid.gov but was unhappy with it. I found that slimfast's website has a free diet/nutrition tracker. I just have to delete the menu they come up with for me and put in what I actually eat. And if they don't have something you've eaten in their system you can add it and it will remember it (like the protein shake that I drink). They also have exercise trackers and a lot of other helpful tools all for free. Today I ate 1270 cals and rode my bike for 30min. Goodnight and goodluck to all.:mad:

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11-11-2007

I am in the 250s today. I weighed this a.m. and weighed 259. I am down 11 lbs since the surgery 3 1/2 weeks ago and 36lbs total. I have been exercising daily. Only for a 1/2 hour on the stationary bike but it is a workout. Anyway things are good. Until next time....

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9-20-2007

So this was my first day of the pre-op diet. Right now I could definitely eat but it's not terrible. I bought my husband a bunch of frozen/easy foods for him to fix for himself while I'm on this liquid/vegetable diet. He just won't cook, at least not regularly and I'm not quite ready to torture my self yet. I'm having a hard time contemplating drinking slimfast and eating vegetables only for another 29 days. Yet I know it is what must be done. I rode my bike for the 30 minutes of exercise the doctor wants done daily. As I sit here my stomach feels like a pit. I might have to go eat some broccoli. Just so it's noted I will post my starting weight and current weight weekly. My measurements I will do monthly. Those posts will always be done in green for those of you who want to see what kind of progress I've made (none as of yet- but a week from now there'll be some changes;)). Good luck to all. Goodnight.

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9-25-2007

Well I'm grossed out. I was drinking my morning protien shake and it took until about half of it was gone befor I started to think it tasted a little funnier than usual. The milk in my fridge had soured slightly. YUCK! The date on the milk says it's still good for a week but not for me it's not. :mad: On a good note I lost 10lbs this first week on my pre-op diet. I know that number won't repeat itself but feel it is a good start. Still can't believe that I have three more weeks of this... I guess I'm a quarter of the way there. I'm trying to be optimistic but that sounds like a looooong time right now. Hope everyone's journey is going well! Until next time:). rode bike 30 min.

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12-19-2007

Tomorrow is my second fill. I haven't been following the diet I am supposed to. I have been quite naughty. All the baking I do for my gift baskets is breaking my will power. I make a mean cookie. I have also eaten around 3 cookies a day since starting this baking adventure. I've gotten rid of most of the goodies already by delivering the gift baskets. Next year I will have to not do the baking thing and find other gifts to give. I should have thought about that this year. Unfortunately I have more time (to bake) than money to spend on other gifts. I am looking forward to having more restriction. I think I have a little bit but not much at all. I can eat whatever I want and fullness doesn't last too long. I will update after tomorrow. On a good note the two days of liquids will get me to drop another pound or two. Until next time......

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8-24-2006

So I had my EKG and chest xray done today and will be leaving to go to my sleep study test in about 45min. After that all I have is my support group meeting on Monday to meet all the pre-op requirements. The sleep test as I've mentioned befor takes the longest to get the results back on. But by mid- Sept if I haven't heard from the surgeon by then I will have to call and see what test results he hasn't gotten yet. It's happening slowly yet is so exciting. Bad news though I've gained a couple of pounds. I haven't been excersizing like I was. My husband is working days and is always home during the time of day I usually excersize. And I am a dork and won't do it in front of him. Not yet anyway. There will come a time where it's just gonna hafta happen. I always love reading all of your journals. Good luck to all.

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-10-30-2007

Today was a better day. The morning ritual of getting on the scale had better results. I won't post what they were until Thursday, which is my weigh-in day. But it makes me feel better. I am ready to be off of liquids. 8 more days to go. Then I'm on mushies for at least three weeks. My caloric intake can go up a bit then. I'm pretty sure my body is freaking out a bit from the lack of calories for the past 6 weeks. I've tried to up my intake to closer to 800 a day. I'm not hungry. I miss eating though. Oh- I made my hubby chicken fried steak tonight with country gravy and had a couple of spoonfuls of the gravy. YUM!! I make a mean homemade country gravy. Good thing I only make any kind of gravy every couple of months. It could be addicting. I am so greatful to have the band. I am also greatful that I am in the mind space to work with it. As I've stated befor I don't ever expect to be super skinny but I will be healthy again. Sometimes I feel impatient and wish it was instantanious. But getting my butt this big didn't happen overnight so I must be patient. I'm still having trouble drinking the amount of water I'm suposed to. I've drank around 30oz so far tonight and am gonna try to get another 12-16oz down befor I go to bed. I consumed 760 calories today. Goodnight!

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10-09-2007

Today was busy. I sold my older horse in preparation for two young mustangs we are getting tomorrow. They are beautiful but need a lot of training. Another challenge. I'm pretty much used to just liquids. It's day 21 of the pre-op diet. My tummy still complains every once in a while but after the first three days it did get better. I found a good list of things to get done and to purchase befor surgery. When I go to Boise for my last pre-op appointment next Tuesday I will be going shopping to make sure I'm all set up. I'm too tired today to be too excited or nervous. I rode my bike 30min. and consumed 1020 cals.   http://tickers.tickerfactory.com/ezt/d/4;41;93/st/20071018/e/surgery/dt/-2/k/68c5%3Cbr%20/%3E%3Ca%20href=http://www.tickerfactory.com/weight-loss/wwNunKT/%20target=_blank%3E

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sleep study

I just sent off my information to the surgeon last week. The doctors office called today to let me know that I am definately a canidate for the surgury (you think?). They also told me that they sent me a packet telling me all of the pre-op things I need to do befor having an appointment with the surgeon. The gal let me ask some questions. And my first question was how long it takes to get the results from the sleep apnea test done, and she said that it can take a couple months to get an appointment and another possible month plus for the results!! She did recommend the hospital locally that usually has the quickest results. So when I see my doctor tomorrow to get the referral for the sleep test I'm going to ask that they refer me to that hospital. So my words of wisdom to those starting to complete the prerequirements for surgury..... get the sleep test taken care of first. She said my insurance usually approves the surgury quickly (less than a week) so that is exciting although probably still far off in the future. I am anxious about the sleep test and the amount of time it will take to do and get results from. I hope this happens by November. That is my little wish and I hope I am being realistic. Until Next time..... Good luck to all on their Journey~

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10-21-2007

It is day three since being banded. Today I only took one pain pill when I got up and then just took one because I am getting ready for bed. I have still been a little tired throughout the day. I still have my butterfly type bandages on my bigger incision. The others have the band aids I put on them yesterday. I have drank a little over 700cals today. Sometimes I think I could eat but I am not starving. I am not near as hungry as I was on the pre-op diet. So I guess things are good. I finally had a bowel movement for the first time in over four days. It was a little odd looking. I won't go into any more detail I'm just glad to know things are moving again. Although I did get on the scale today I'm not going to pay very much attention to it accept for on Thursdays which will be my weigh day for my ticker. They might switch to Sundays after that because that's when I weigh in for another log that I keep. We'll see. I can feel something in my lower/mid chest at times. I guess it's the band. I don't think what I'm feeling is restriction. Maybe it is. It's hard to tell. I'm still trying to figure out this new part of me. But I'm very happy to be where I am right now. I'm very content and very excited at the same time. Well- Good luck All!!!

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9-30-2007

I talked to my Grandma today. She is going to try and come down to help with the baby and to visit when I have my surgery. She was much more supportive when I talked to her today. She even said she was proud of the choice I was making. Which was nice to hear. It's not the easiest choice. Somedays it seems like a easy answer. Other days I see it for what it is. It is a huge dramatic change to my life as I have known it. I got a little freaked out last night reading about different peoples experiences of erosion. I think that's the one thing that concerns me the most. I just worry that if I were to have it I wouldn't have symptoms until it caused some kind of bad damage. I guess everyone worries about things the closer their surgery date gets. On a good note day 12 was pretty good. I didn't ride my bike today. Kept my cals right at 1300. Goodnight and good luck with your journies~:notagree  

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10-13-2007

Only five more days to go. So hard to believe. I am excited. Sometimes it doesn't even seem like it's real. It's so hard to believe I'm actually taking this step in my life. I have for the first time so many hopes and thus am beginning to dream about the future. Before I just focused on the next meal or thing I could put in my mouth. My husband has never known me thin. The smallest I've been since we've been together is about 230. Which actually I feel pretty good at that weight. I still feel attractive for the most part. I quit feeling attractive a long time ago. It is going to be so much fun to watch the transformation take place. It has already begun. My hubby said today he could tell I've lost weight. Nice to hear. If I wasn't having surgery I'd probably start to sabotage myself since I'd received a compliment. That's what I've done in the past. Once people start to notice I start to feed myself a little more each day until the weight is back. But not this time. This time I have begun to visualize what I used to look like in high school and have begun picturing myself that size again. I want it. I have a lot of things that I planned to do in my life that have gotten put to the way side because of my weight. Horses is one of the major things. It's always been a dream. but now I have them but can't do anything with them because my butt is inhibiting my agility, movement and motivation to go out and do anything with them. But that is going to change. And in 5 days I am getting the tool to help me achieve this goal. How great it is! I've got to put the baby to bed. I haven't ridden the bike yet today. If hubby goes to bed early enough I will ride it then. I consumed 840 cals today. Take care of yourselves! :car:   http://tickers.tickerfactory.com/ezt/d/4;41;93/st/20071018/e/surgery/dt/-2/k/68c5%3Cbr%20/%3E%3Ca%20href=http://www.tickerfactory.com/weight-loss/wwNunKT/%20target=_blank%3E

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9-27-2007

Yesturday was rough. I had to go to the city (an hour a way). I ended up only having my protien shake and one slimfast from 6am until around 4pm. My system was whacked out! Finally today I feel normal, but last night no matter what vegi's I ate and the shake I had I couldn't shake that off feeling. I had to go to Boise to sign a medical release for my weight records from my old PCP from when I lived there. The gal still hasn't gotten them for me. It's been almoste a week. I just need my weights from 2004. The gal also told me they don't have any records from befor then..... Is that possible??? I started seeing this doctor in 2002. They should have all my records shouldn't they?? Anyway. I'm giving them until Friday and then after racking my brains I remebered having to go to a Primary Health center once when I was sick in 2002 or 2003. They should have my weight. I would be so pissed if this messes up my insurance approval process. I've already pre-registered for surgery and everything, This really is quite the process. It's not like with- oh I don't know- gallstones, to where you need surgery and you get it. This is a pain in the ass at times. I guess it proves if you really want it. And I do so through another hoop I will now jump. I'm gonna go call the primary health now to see how long it will take to get my weights. Until later~ :mad: [/url] ickerfactory.com/weight-loss/wwNunKT/"]

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9-9-2007

My first pre-op appointment isn't until next Tuesday and for the first time I am feeling a real lag in this process. I'm also feeling apprehension for the first time. I went out and bought the chewable vitamins, calcium and whey protein. I'm still finding that I am making terrible food choices sinse I've decided to take this journey. It's like I'm having my last meal every meal for the last month! I will readjust my start weight once I get weighed at the doctors office. I'm sure my new journal name will be more like Tina- 290. I will also update all my start measurements at that time. If I keep going at this rate I might need a larger tape measure. I went to a support group meeting at the end of September. It is a pre-op requirement. One of the things dicussed that I found really interesting is different peoples experience with telling people about being banded. A lot of the people there who'd been banded had been really open and told everyone about getting banded. Everyone of them wished they hadn't been so open. I guess alot of them experienced people who would watch and comment on everything they ate. Sometimes people would bring up their weight loss and banding to total strangers and then the banded person would feel cornered into talking about weight loss surgery. Some people were told they took the easy way out or that they had it easy because of the surgery- and everyone has made it pretty clear that it isn't easy- it's still work even with the band. So I'm a little concerned because there is a group of us ladies at work who are all fat and we've all dieted together and gained together and discussed weight loss surgery together. Only one of the gals knows that I am actually going through with this process. I've asked her not to offer any information to our co-workers but I know at a certain point it will come out (most likely from the office manager when I put in for my FMLA) and everyone will know. Because we all know how news spreads at work and I just worry about what I'm going to have to deal with. I guess I'll just deal with things as they come along. Until next time............

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10-29-2007

Today was kind of a bummer day. Three days in a row and the scale hasn't moved. I know I shouldn't weigh everyday but I am a slave to the scale. It just seems that if I'm only drinking 700 calories or less a day that I should lose weight even if my body is in some sort of starvation mode. I am getting my protein. Usually I get right around 70grams of protein a day. I could drink more water. I guess I'll make that my goal for now. To get at least 48oz preferably 64oz of water a day. I think I strained something in my tummy yesterday. We were trying to load a couple of our steers up to go to the butcher and I yanked on this gate that was stuck in some mud a couple of times befor I realized it probably wasn't a good idea. Today I have pain on the center left side of my upper abdomen. I haven't taken any pain for it. I want to be able to feel exactly what's going on in case it gets worse and needs some kind of attention. I need to remember to take it easy. So needless to say I didn't ride my bike today. I think I'm gonna wait one more week or so. I had started riding really slow and only for 10 minutes at a time. Now I want to wait until this new pain goes away. Calories today: 645 but I'll probably have some broth befor bed. Take care all!

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9-20-2007

Day 2 of pre-op diet. It really sucks. The doc did say after 3-5 days your body adjusts to it. God I hope so. I can do it but it's not pleasant. 28 more days to go. That sounds like a long frickin' time!:straight But at least I am on my way:p. rode bike 30 minutes

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10-04-2007

Well- I rode the bike for 30 minutes last night after hubby went to bed. Haven't rode today..... once again in a funk. Vegetables are pissing me off. The shakes are okay but I really just want to eat something good. Pizza would be nice, or a chicken salad, or a shrimp stir fry. Okay I gotta stop!!!:confused: I'm discouraged today because for the past couple of days I've gotten on the scale and it hasn't gone down. It is at 279. Now it is my T.O.M. but that's almost over and I'm stressing out. I'm supposed to lose 25lbs by the 18th- probably the 16th because that's when my last appt. with the Doctor is befor the surgery. I've lost 16 but now I only have 14 days to lose 9 lbs. Doesn't seem quite likely. If my surgery date gets moved back I'm gonna be pissed. I have family coming into town (from another friggin' state) to help out with the baby. STRESS!!!! I'm gonna call the Doctors office on Monday to see if there is anything else I can or should do. Haven't rode the bike today.... yet. Consumed 1400 cals. Later.... okay I'm back. I've given myself an attitude adjustment. I rode the bike for 30 min. I also have refocused. I can do this. I need to focus on drinking the amount of water I'm supposed to each day- I haven't been very good about this up until now. Also I think I'm not going to eat squash anymore. It is pretty high cal for a veggie. I have come this far and I can't get complacent now. I must persevere!! There that's all I have to say until tomorrow!  

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10-27-2007

Well it is the 28th and not the 27th as I posted but this is my journal entry for yesterday. I could not get logged onto LBT. I assume from the lack of journal entries I wasn't the only one? Anyway, yesterday was probably my hardest day since the surgery. I really wanted food. I haven't eaten for close to a month now with the exception of the chalupa I had after losing my 25 lbs 2 days befor surgery. And I just wanted something, anything. But I made it through the day. I didn't get any exercise in. I was just lazy I guess. I didn't make it a priority. I consumed 600 calories. I am ready for November 8th to be here. That is my first post-op appt and when I'll be allowed to go on mushies. I would just LOVE a scrambled egg! I will write today's entry later. Until then..........

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