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10-04-2007

Well- I rode the bike for 30 minutes last night after hubby went to bed. Haven't rode today..... once again in a funk. Vegetables are pissing me off. The shakes are okay but I really just want to eat something good. Pizza would be nice, or a chicken salad, or a shrimp stir fry. Okay I gotta stop!!!:confused: I'm discouraged today because for the past couple of days I've gotten on the scale and it hasn't gone down. It is at 279. Now it is my T.O.M. but that's almost over and I'm stressing out. I'm supposed to lose 25lbs by the 18th- probably the 16th because that's when my last appt. with the Doctor is befor the surgery. I've lost 16 but now I only have 14 days to lose 9 lbs. Doesn't seem quite likely. If my surgery date gets moved back I'm gonna be pissed. I have family coming into town (from another friggin' state) to help out with the baby. STRESS!!!! I'm gonna call the Doctors office on Monday to see if there is anything else I can or should do. Haven't rode the bike today.... yet. Consumed 1400 cals. Later.... okay I'm back. I've given myself an attitude adjustment. I rode the bike for 30 min. I also have refocused. I can do this. I need to focus on drinking the amount of water I'm supposed to each day- I haven't been very good about this up until now. Also I think I'm not going to eat squash anymore. It is pretty high cal for a veggie. I have come this far and I can't get complacent now. I must persevere!! There that's all I have to say until tomorrow!  

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10-5-2007

The scale still said 279 this morning. But I am in a better space about the whole thing. I am only doing liquids for the next two weeks. If I do feel like I'm gonna die then I will have some veggies..... fresh only. I should be able to drop the last nine pounds I need to lose by the 18th. I rode the bike already today. I'm just trying to stay focused. I just love being able to read about everyones success here. It is so inspiring and helps. Even the people who have struggles help. It reminds me that we are here to make a lifestyle change. That it won't be easy but that it is possible. I am so excited that I am here at this point in my life. I am excited to think that I won't have to be huge my whole life. That I can get healthy and be happy with my success. Anyway- I'll probably edit and add more later tonite. Good Luck to all of you. Take care.   later: Well it's 11pm. I have had nothing but liquids all day. It's just about as bad as the first day of the prescribed pre-op diet. I had my protien shake this a.m. then my three slimfasts throughout the day and two servings of lipton onion soup (35cals a serving). And I am hungery. I think I'm gonna have some chicken broth befor bed. My stomach keeps rummbling. We'll see how the scale responds to this abuse after a couple of days. Consumed 1000 cals today. Goodnight.

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10-6-2007

Today wasn't too bad as far as the diet. It wasn't exactly great either and it's not over yet. I can still have one more cup of broth. I am actually drinking 64 oz of water a day plus about another 80oz in the drinks I consume for nourishment. Needless to say I pee a lot. The scale was 1 lb less this morning. Hopefully it keeps going down. I was under the impression from the support group I went to that the doctor I am going to is a real stickler about losing the prescribed amount of weight he gives you to lose befor surgery. That's why I have been stressing so much about it. But this gal I talked to today who went to him was supposed to lose the same amount as me and only lost 9.9lbs. in the month prior to surgery. And he didn't move her date back. She weighed about 25lbs less than me though. So even though that makes me feel a little better I'd still rather be safe than sorry. My Grandma is coming up to help with the baby. Thank God for that. I didn't even think about that. I've been so busy jumping through all the hoops to get this done that it slipped my mind. Well- my ticker is at 279 today. I will update it tomorrow after I weigh in the morning. Hopefully it is less. I rode my bike 30 min today and consumed 1020 cals. Goodnight.:notagree    

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sleep study

I just sent off my information to the surgeon last week. The doctors office called today to let me know that I am definately a canidate for the surgury (you think?). They also told me that they sent me a packet telling me all of the pre-op things I need to do befor having an appointment with the surgeon. The gal let me ask some questions. And my first question was how long it takes to get the results from the sleep apnea test done, and she said that it can take a couple months to get an appointment and another possible month plus for the results!! She did recommend the hospital locally that usually has the quickest results. So when I see my doctor tomorrow to get the referral for the sleep test I'm going to ask that they refer me to that hospital. So my words of wisdom to those starting to complete the prerequirements for surgury..... get the sleep test taken care of first. She said my insurance usually approves the surgury quickly (less than a week) so that is exciting although probably still far off in the future. I am anxious about the sleep test and the amount of time it will take to do and get results from. I hope this happens by November. That is my little wish and I hope I am being realistic. Until Next time..... Good luck to all on their Journey~

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10-07-2007

Today was better on the all liquids. My body did get numb to the fact it's not receiving solid food. So it's day 19 of my pre-op diet. I got below the 279 I was stuck at for a few days. I've now lost 18lbs of the 25lbs I'm supposed to lose. I've only rode my bike for 15min. so far today. I might get the other 15 in later but if not that's okay. I usually relax a little one day a week. Tomorrow will mark the 10 day countdown until surgery. I just try not to think about it too much. Yet at night when I'm trying to fall asleep (and can't) it's all I think about. Hope everyone is doing good. Calories today: 1020    

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10-08-2007

Today was good. My hubby and I went and got some hay for the animals for the winter. That was my exercise for the day. Bucking hay is quite the task. They are 100lb bales. I've lost 20lbs now. 20 days 20lbs doesn't seem healthy but when the surgeon says lost 25lbs in 30days in order to get the surgery I try my damnedest. 10 more days until surgery!! yippee!! Take care all!! Oh- cals today 1020.  

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10-09-2007

Today was busy. I sold my older horse in preparation for two young mustangs we are getting tomorrow. They are beautiful but need a lot of training. Another challenge. I'm pretty much used to just liquids. It's day 21 of the pre-op diet. My tummy still complains every once in a while but after the first three days it did get better. I found a good list of things to get done and to purchase befor surgery. When I go to Boise for my last pre-op appointment next Tuesday I will be going shopping to make sure I'm all set up. I'm too tired today to be too excited or nervous. I rode my bike 30min. and consumed 1020 cals.   http://tickers.tickerfactory.com/ezt/d/4;41;93/st/20071018/e/surgery/dt/-2/k/68c5%3Cbr%20/%3E%3Ca%20href=http://www.tickerfactory.com/weight-loss/wwNunKT/%20target=_blank%3E

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5/4/2008

April was a very slow month for weight loss. I only lost three lbs. I have so much restriction. I just don't always eat that great. I don't eat real bad though either. I'm just wondering if my body is slowing down for a little while. I know my new job doesn't help. I now have an office job and just sit on my butt for 8 hours a day. Having the scale not reward me weekly is getting me motivated to take some serious action. I need to get moving again. The weather has finally started to get nice so I have been working outside a lot on the weekends and in the evenings. I'm not looking forward to my doctor appointment on the 8th. My doctor is so funny, if I lose 6 lbs and say I ate the way he wants me to eat (basicly atkins) then he compliments me and says I'm doing great.... that I'm "right on track". But one month I lost 8 lbs and was honest about sharing a milkshake with my hubby and eating a sandwhich or something like that and he gave me a bunch of crap. So this is the first month I haven't had pretty significant results and I'm not sure what to expect. I know sure as hell that no more fluid is going into this thing. I can't eat until almost noon as it is. And if I eat the wrong thing or accidentally swallow something before it is chewed to oblivion then I about die. Anyway, we'll see how it goes. I've still got a few days before my next appt. maybe I'll drop a lb or two. Until next time................

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I'm a dork

I must be one of the most computer illiterate people out there. Sure I figured out this journal thing but that wasn't too hard. To be honest I have had very little computer experience. I just use it for e-mail primarily and research second. So just a few minutes ago I was trying to check out some of the other things that lapbandtalk offers besides journals and I click on one little thing and all of a sudden I am in some chat room. I have never "chatted" befor. And I wasn't prepared to "chat". I couldn't figure out how to leave.... People started talking to me.... saying hello and all. I didn't have anything to say except that I really didn't mean to be there. I got nervous and started to panic- I didn't want anyone to think I was rude. So I typed hi and left by closing the entire lapbandtalk website sinse I couldn't figure out how to exit the chatroom. I'm sure there was probably a very large icon that said EXIT HERE but I could not find it. I don't know why I panicked but I did. Who would have ever guessed I would have chat room phobia. This is why I am a dork.:phanvan To give you an idea of how computer illiterate I am the first time I read that someone refered to their husband as DH. I thought it meant dumb husband because of the context in which it was used. My husband thought it stood for something a lot worse. I can't write that on here but it rhymes with sick bed.:speechles So I figure someone should get a chuckle out of my ignorance. So, does DH stand for dear husband??????

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10-10-2007

I called to doctors office today ask about how they thought my pre-op diet was going considering how much I've lost. The gal there said as long as I've lost at least 20 of the 25 pounds I'd be okay. I told her that I'd switched to just liquids and no more veggies a few days ago and that I was only consuming right at 1000 cals a day. She said that the diet is only supposed to give you around 800 cals a day. I told her that the three slimfasts alone were 690cals. Then the protein shake is 220 cals and with the skim milk it's 300 cals. So right there is 990 cals. The sheet that I got said to use 2 scoops of the protein shake mix and that must be wrong for the kind of shake mix I am using. If I only used one scoop then my cals per day would be 880 cals. Anyway- I guess I'm still just nervous that my weigh in will be messed up. I've heard (on Oprah) that a persons weight can fluctuate 5 lbs in a day. So what if my afternoon appointment my weight is 5lbs heavier than it is at home and my surgery date gets moved because of it. I'd be pissed. I have worked so hard these past 3 weeks. So today, since I had already had my 2 scoop protein shake by the time I called the office, I only had two slim fasts. So my calorie intake today was 790. I didn't ride my bike but I spent around 2 hours outside hauling wood around and building a fence for the horses we got today. My hip that hasn't bothered me in a while is really achy tonight. I'll be glad to be lighter so hopefully it won't bother as much anymore. It's the reason I ride a bike instead of walking. When it acts up I gimp around and look ridiculous. I'm so tired after today. My mind feels fried. I think it's from the lack of nutrition I'm getting. But I will do what it takes to get this done. I wanted to mention befor I forget (being that could happen at anytime) that since being on the pre-op diet I've noticed that I am at times very moody. I also get headaches. I was going to say one other thing but I really can't remember. There goes that absentmindedness again.:phanvan Well, goodnight all. Good luck on your journeys.:car:  

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12-03-2007

start weight: 295 surgery weight: 270 6 weeks post op: 258 Well, there is still slow weight loss. I actually haven't gotten on the scales since last weeks weigh in. I'm scared it's gone up because I haven't been very good about what's been going in my mouth. Tomorrow is my first fill. Thank God!!! I haven't felt like I have a band for the past few weeks. I want so bad to feel the restriction I felt right after surgery. I feel guilty about going to the doctor and not having lost but 1 or 2 lbs since my last appointment 3 weeks ago. I get tired of feeling the guilt. I want that way of thinking to change. Something for me to keep working on. I'm hoping I get re-motivated after getting a fill and talking with the doc. I haven't been very good about exercising. I need to get back on track with that. I've been averaging only three thirty minute workouts a week. I want to do at least five. Something else for me to work on. I also am not looking forward to getting poked for the fill. I always work myself up about things like this and then in the end think it wasn't that bad. I will give a report on how things went tomorrow. Hope everyone out there is doing good. Take care...

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2-27-2008

Just a quick little update. All is going well. I have my monthly appointment next week with the doctor to see how my weight loss is going. I've lost 7 lbs since I saw him three weeks ago. I don't think I need another fill. I can overeat if I want to (not like before but more than I should). I just try to stop when I am full. I seem to eat small snacks throughout the day mostly. I usually try to consume less than 2000 calories a day- but it's normally between 1200-1500 a day. I still don't exercise like I should. One of these days... right? Hope all of you out there are doing good on your band journey. Take care.  

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12-04-2007 / first fill

So I went ahead and weighed myself this morning for the first time since last Thursday. As I suspected I was up 2lbs. I went to the doctors and the scale was the same as it was 3 1/2 weeks ago. As I stated I was nervous about getting a fill. But it didn't even hurt. It's more sensitive now then it was with the needle in me. Right now if I bend over and my pants push on the area it hurts. Kind of a quick stabbing type pain. Hope it goes away quickly. Back to the fill part, I didn't feel the needle go in at all. He did have to "poke" around a bit to find the top of the port. That didn't even hurt. There was just a sensation of movement. He put two cc's in. He said my band can hold up to 14cc's. I'm not sure which type of band I have. I know it's one that was just approved. I think Johnson and Johnson makes it but I'm not sure on that. I was told to do liquids for the next two days and then return to my regular diet. I got talked to about bread not being one of the foods I should eat. And he said that if I didn't have any restriction after this fill to come in in two weeks and he would put in more. He is actually a real nice guy and seems to be a good doctor (I'm not the biggest fan of doctors). I'm not sure if I have any restriction yet. I can't tell any difference by just drinking so I'll wait and see. Until next time.....

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10-12-2007

I didn't write last night. By the time all was said and done for the day I was just too pooped to get on the computer. I am down to 273 this morning! That's good. I've lost 23 lbs in the last 24 days. As I said befor not the healthiest way to lose weight but it has to be done for the pre-op requirements my surgeon has. I am starting to relax about meeting the goal of 25 lbs. I have 4 days until my last pre-op appt. and I have to be within 5 lbs of the goal and I am sooo...:clap2: I'm starting to do some of the extra housework and planning for my surgery. I've got to kick out all the laundry I can today so that I only have a couple loads next week. My bedroom is the biggest challenge. Ever since I had my baby it has become kind of a storage area/bedroom. And Angelina is now 16 months old. I've done some of it but I want it to be a bedroom again. I also want my house in good arrangement for when my Grandmother comes up. She is the cleanest, most organized person I've ever met. Unfortunately I didn't inherit that from her. But I like to put on a half assed attempt when she comes to visit. I don't want her to feel all those chores and special cleaning techniques she taught me growing up went to waste. :car: She is really the best though. I love and appreciate her sooo much. I've got lots of shopping to do to prep. my cupboards for the surgery. We are doing some of it tomorrow and I'll do the rest when I go into Boise for my last pre-op appt. Cals consumed yesterday: 820 Rode bike 30 minutes. Today consumed 900 cals and rode bike 30 min.    

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8-14-2007

:eek:I am very frustrated that the darn hospital has yet to call me to schedule my sleep apnea test. I'm going to call them tomorrow to make sure they got the referal. I just like to keep things moving forward. It is a long enough process as it is. On a good note I see the dietician this Friday and then get all my bloodwork done on Monday. After that there is still the EKG/chest exray to schedule. Then I think I will have all the things that are required preop done. I still haven't changed my diet but am up to riding 2 1/4 miles a day on my excersize bike. And was down to 275 (down 2 lbs.)when I went to the Doc last week. Until next time..................

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10-13-2007

Only five more days to go. So hard to believe. I am excited. Sometimes it doesn't even seem like it's real. It's so hard to believe I'm actually taking this step in my life. I have for the first time so many hopes and thus am beginning to dream about the future. Before I just focused on the next meal or thing I could put in my mouth. My husband has never known me thin. The smallest I've been since we've been together is about 230. Which actually I feel pretty good at that weight. I still feel attractive for the most part. I quit feeling attractive a long time ago. It is going to be so much fun to watch the transformation take place. It has already begun. My hubby said today he could tell I've lost weight. Nice to hear. If I wasn't having surgery I'd probably start to sabotage myself since I'd received a compliment. That's what I've done in the past. Once people start to notice I start to feed myself a little more each day until the weight is back. But not this time. This time I have begun to visualize what I used to look like in high school and have begun picturing myself that size again. I want it. I have a lot of things that I planned to do in my life that have gotten put to the way side because of my weight. Horses is one of the major things. It's always been a dream. but now I have them but can't do anything with them because my butt is inhibiting my agility, movement and motivation to go out and do anything with them. But that is going to change. And in 5 days I am getting the tool to help me achieve this goal. How great it is! I've got to put the baby to bed. I haven't ridden the bike yet today. If hubby goes to bed early enough I will ride it then. I consumed 840 cals today. Take care of yourselves! :car:   http://tickers.tickerfactory.com/ezt/d/4;41;93/st/20071018/e/surgery/dt/-2/k/68c5%3Cbr%20/%3E%3Ca%20href=http://www.tickerfactory.com/weight-loss/wwNunKT/%20target=_blank%3E

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July 27, 2008

Well my appt last Thurs with my surgeon was good. I keep losing every week. I am down to 227 from 295. My surgery date was Oct 18,2007. My home scale must be brocken. It has said 230 lbs (give or take a pound or two) for over 3 months. Yet everytime I go to the doc. I've gone down. I usually am only losing a pound a week. The least I've lost in a month is three. The most is eight. I can't complain I guess. If I didn't have the band I know that I would be as big as I was if not bigger. Sometimes I want quicker results. But I don't do anything to acheive that... you know... like excersize. I do have that in my future plans though. I also drink a couple times a week, which makes it nearly impossible for me to lose any quantity of weight. But, as long as the scale keeps trickling downward then all is good. I should come on here and blog more often and be involved with the posts. It would do me good to take advantage of all the support offered here and yet I don't. I need a swift kick in the arse. Well, I hope all of you out there are doing well. Take care everyone!!

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10-14-2007

Four more days until bandland! Today my hubby and I spent cleaning up around the house. I got almost all of the laundry done, got my room cleaned, etc. I have to kick out the floors in the house tomorrow night. No problem. Yesturday we got all the shopping done for after the surgery. I did forget to get surgar free popcicles. I'll definately have to get some when I go to my doc. appt. on Tuesday. I have lost the 25lbs my doc wanted me to lose befor the surgery, at least according to what my scale says. So I definately should be within the 5lb range he requires befor surgery. I didn't ride my bike again today but did around 4 hours of busy housework. I consumed 840 cals.

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10-15-2007

I can't believe that my little countdown ticker says only three days to go. And really it's only two because today is about over and I have to be at the hospital by 8am on Thursday. A little bit ago I went through a big old case of the nerves. And all I wanted was pizza and to forget the whole thing. This breaking up with food is getting to me. But I've come this far and I'm not backing down now. I don't want to be morbidly obese which I am now. I want to be attractive and healthy. I want to tie my shoes without it feeling like yoga. I consumed 840 cals today and am going to ride my bike for 30 minutes after this entry. Good luck everyone!    

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10-16-2007

My pre-op appt went great! The doc's scales said the same as mine.... 25lbs gone!! Yippee! So I am going into surgery weighing 270. I was so proud of myself for losing all the weight that he asked me to. I go into surgery at 10:15am on Thursday. I have to be at the hospital at 7:30 am. That means we have to leave my house at 5:30 or a little after. Yuck! But it will be worth it. I had told myself that if I reached the 25lb mark I would let myself have something to eat. So I had a taco bell chalupa. It tasted good and filled me up so fast considering I haven't really eaten in just shy of a month. Then it made my tummy hurt. Kinda ticked me off... I just wanted to enjoy it. I skipped my last slimfast. I haven't calculated my caloric intake yet with the chalupa in it. Probably still under 1500 cals. I didn't ride my bike today as I was gone from 11 this morning until 8 pm tonight. Now I have some last minute cleaning to do befor Grandma arrives in the morning. It is impossible to describe the emotions I am going through. I've only gotten really nervous once... so far. I was happy to hear that they give an anti-anxiety pill at the hospital befor to long after you get there if you want. I want. Give me happy pills!! I know that this is the best thing I could do for myself but it still freaks me out a bit as the time gets closer and closer. I will post a detailed entry of my experience after the surgery. I will also remeasure myself tomorrow to show the loss I've had thus far in inches. I hope everyone is doing great. Good luck on your journeys!

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8-20-2007

I haven't been able to write due to getting my butt kicked by some nasty stomach bug. It knocked me out for two days. In two days I slept almost as much as I do in a week. I am so glad to be feeling normal again. I called the hospital that does the sleep test and they had not recieved the referal. So then I made the appropriate calls and by Friday of last week I was scheduled for this Tues night for my sleep study. Now today they called me saying they are having trouble getting insurance approval. I had to have some questionere faxed to the clinic where I live, fill it out, then fax it back. A lot of these things would be easier to deal with but I live about 70 miles from the city were I have to go for all these tests and for the operation itself. So thank God for fax machines or else I'd of had to drive for three hours round trip to get the papers filled out. I had my meeting with the dietician. It went well. She just went over the pre and post-op diet. The pre-op diet is what freaks me out more because the doctor I am going to wants all his patients (this is what the dietician and the surgeons receptionist both told me) to lose 10% of their body weight. And they want this weight lost in 4-6weeks prior to surgury. And I can't start it until after my first consultation with the surgeon. Anyway the lovely pre-op diet is: breakfast: non-fat milk with whey protien lunch and dinner: as many vegetables as you want (minus potatoes and corn) and three slim-fast shakes a day. It sounds like a very exciting menu. Actually I don't mind to much. I want this so bad and it is worth it. The dietician said that if you follow this to the tee people lose between 5-7lbs a week. We'll see how it goes- maybe I'll be luckey and he'll only want me to do it for two or three weeks. Today I got all my blood work done. So the next things I have to do are: Tomorrow: sleep study Friday: Appt. to get referal for EKG/Chest Xray Monday: Support group meeting Then after the EKG I'll have all my pre-op stuff done!! Until next time....

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10-17-2007

Well, tomorrow morning is the big day. I can't believe that it is finally here. I haven't been very nervous today. My Grandma being here probably helped with that. She is very supportive. I have packed my bag for the hospital. I have to get up at 5:15 in the morning. We have to leave here by 6a.m. just in case of traffic or any other delays to be to the hospital by 7:30. I don't know much of what to say... I'm kinda speechless. I think I am in denial about what is really happening. It must be some sort of defense mechanism so I don't freak out. Either that or I've just accepted what is happening and that's that. Either way the next time I post I will have joined the band wagon! Take care everyone!:car:   Here are my measurements: 9-18-2007 10-18-2007 weight: 295 BMI: 46 w: 270 BMI: 43 bust: 53 1/2 in bust: 51 1/2in waist: 55 in waist: 50 in hips: 57 in hips: 56 in thigh: 35 in thigh: 33 in calves: 21 in calves: 20 in arms: 17 in arms: 16 1/2in   I'll have to figure out next time how to post this so it shows up in columns. Oh well:phanvan

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12-10-2007

It is nice to be losing again. I am down 4lbs since last Tuesday. I'm still not sure if I have a lot of restriction. It is better than it was before. I get full a bit faster and stay full longer. I still can eat whatever I want. Although I haven't been eating carbs except sometimes with breakfast. My doctor draws a diagram of a small plate. Then he draws a line down the center of the plate to cut it in half. On one side he draws a triangle the size of a deck of cards- this is the amount of meat/protein I'm to have at each meal. The other half of the plate is for a vegetable. That is how he wants me to eat everyday. I'm being pretty strict about it now. I haven't been good about exercise. Gotta work on that. I just wanted to make a note that although getting my first fill didn't hurt at all the port area hurt pretty darn bad the next couple of days. When I would turn or move certain ways it really hurt. It's better now. I was worried for a while there about my port flipping or something bad like that. Until next time.........

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12-12-2007

I called and scheduled an appt. for next week to get a second fill. Although I have been losing weight I am still eating about 6 times a day. Consuming between 1500-2000 calories. I would like that number to be between 1200-1500. So next Thursday I go in and get poked again. I have been doing a lot of baking for the holidays. I love to bake. I have had a couple of cookies but have not had 4 or 5 like I used to. My little platters I make for friends and family are really pretty this year. I also always make and give gift baskets to family instead of one gift for each person. It really saves on how much we spend during the holidays. Although it takes a lot of time and energy to make them all. Tomorrow is my weekly weigh in. I will update my stats then.

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8-23-2007

Well, my sleep study test got moved to Friday night due to insurance taking forever to approve it. So hopefully by tomorrow they will have recieved approval and I can get this part over with. In the pamphlet they sent me with the paperwork they say it takes two to three weeks for the results. So.... we wait.....anxiously.

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