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1-3-2007

Three days and no smoking. Yeah! I have been being a good bandee. I still eat between 1200-1300 calories a day. I will see on the eighth if the doc wants to fill me up some more. I had a hard time with some turkey today. It was kinda stringy and I thought that I chewed it enough but apparently not. I think I experience a small amount of slimming although and didn't (and have never) PB'ed. It hurt hella bad and took a good 10-15 minutes to pass. I've been riding my bike and have also incorporated sit ups and stretching into my daily regiment. Tomorrow's my weigh day. We'll see if 3 days of being good will show up there. If not I know by next week I will see some results. Until next time.
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9-18-2007

O-kay so I got weighed officially at the surgeons office. And as I had suspected I had gained a lot (17lbs). So I changed my journal name to Tina 295 to reflect my starting weight. It's amazing how self destructive I can be. On a positive note I start the pre-op diet tomorrow. The diet consists of one protien shake in the morning. Three cans of slim fast a day. And vegetables (no corn or potato) for lunch and dinner. I get to do this for a month. I am suposed to lose 25lbs by then. The Doctor said that most people lose between 5 and 8 lbs a week on this diet so this should definately be doable. All of my paperwork, etc. is being sent to insurance for approval. The gals at the doc's office said that Blue Cross usually responds quickly. Assuming insurance approval goes smoothly and my weight loss goes smoothly they set a tenative surgery date for Oct. 18th. I am in awe. None of this seems real. I just feel like I'm jumping through another hoop to get to this far off dream that I have. But it is becoming a reality. I'm sure it will seem real when I'm sick of slimfast shakes and vegetables 4 weeks from now. I have told a few more people. I told my grandmother who raised me today and I told a close friend in town. The friend was very supportive. My Grandmother had a couple comments that kind of rubbed me wrong but I know she means well. She just has a hard time that I can't do it myself. She's talking about coming out when I have the surgery to help with the baby. Maybe I can explain it better to her then. I am still torn on when to tell other people. My husband thinks I should just be honest when asked, but that I don't need to volenteer any information. I think I agree with him. All I know is how tired I am of being fat and depressed about it. I'm tired of the self destructive behavior I indulge in. I am ready for the change. And it starts tomorrow. Here are my current stats: height: 5' 7" weight: 295 BMI: 46 bust: 53 1/2 in waist: 55 in hips: 57 in thigh: 35 in calves: 21 in arms: 17 in OMG!! I'm almost as round as I am tall!!!! but not for much longer!!:car: Good luck to all of you on your journey's.
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11-11-2007 pm

Just wanted to thank those of you who've given me some nice comments. It's really appreciated. It's amazing that just last week I was kind of in a funk and thinking that somehow this (the lap band) wouldn't work for me, and now I am totally re-inspired. If I didn't have the band I would have started the eating funk that got me up to 295lbs. But the band makes it to where I just can't eat what I used to. I get full very quickly. And since I really don't want to PB (productive burp) I stop eating when I feel full. I did have some chocolate cake last week. I started to beat myself up over it but that line of thinking has just got to change. We can't eat perfect all of the time. As long as I'm not eating cake or other high calorie/high fat foods everyday. Luckily I'm not a big sweet person. Once every couple of months usually does me good. I thought that I'd post what I ate today to give an idea of how my diet has changed since started the soft food stage. 8am 1/4 c. oatmeal 2 oz nonfat milk 2 Tbs sugar free maple syrup 10am 3oz of light tuna w/ 1 Tbs mayo 1pm 1 scoop whey protein powder 4 oz nonfat milk 5pm 3oz hamburger pattie (pureed) 2 Tbs brown gravy 2 mushrooms (all of this blended together) 2 Tbs. mashed potatoes I at half of this at 5 and the other half around 7pm 9pm sugar free fudge bar   So my total caloric intake was 850 calories and 83 grams of protein. It's so amazing that I am full on this amount of food. Oh- and I did ride my bike today for 30 minutes. Goodnight everyone! Take care.  
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9-20-2007

So this was my first day of the pre-op diet. Right now I could definitely eat but it's not terrible. I bought my husband a bunch of frozen/easy foods for him to fix for himself while I'm on this liquid/vegetable diet. He just won't cook, at least not regularly and I'm not quite ready to torture my self yet. I'm having a hard time contemplating drinking slimfast and eating vegetables only for another 29 days. Yet I know it is what must be done. I rode my bike for the 30 minutes of exercise the doctor wants done daily. As I sit here my stomach feels like a pit. I might have to go eat some broccoli. Just so it's noted I will post my starting weight and current weight weekly. My measurements I will do monthly. Those posts will always be done in green for those of you who want to see what kind of progress I've made (none as of yet- but a week from now there'll be some changes;)). Good luck to all. Goodnight.
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9-20-2007

Day 2 of pre-op diet. It really sucks. The doc did say after 3-5 days your body adjusts to it. God I hope so. I can do it but it's not pleasant. 28 more days to go. That sounds like a long frickin' time!:straight But at least I am on my way:p. rode bike 30 minutes
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9-22-2007

It is day 4 of my pre-op liquid/vegi diet. It actually has gotten better. By the end of yesterday my stomach wasn't begging for food like it was the first two days. And can you believe those chocolate slimfast shakes actually start to taste thick, creamy, chocolaty, yummy AND satisfying? And who knew that baked zucchini could be so delicious. I am sure that I won't feel that way in a couple of more weeks but at this point I am glad to not feel like I am starving. I got a call from the doctors office when I got home Friday evening. I am a little irritated. They said the insurance company is requiring weight records from 2004 til now and all documentation of weight loss attempts the doctors have. The reason that this is irritating is because I called the insurance three times to make sure that I had all my bases covered on all the crap that they require to approve the surgery and they said they only needed your primary physician and surgeons recommendation. I don't mind if they want more stuff, just be up front about it. Why would they tell me something different? I don't understand. So I will be calling them on Monday after I've taken care of the new requests and ask them if it's normal for them to not be upfront about their coverage requirements. Don't mess with a hungry woman damn it! rode bike 30 minutes
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11-15-2007

Start weight: 295 surgery day weight: 270 4 weeks post-op: 259 measurments: start/now bust: 53 1/2in /49 1/2in waist:55in/45 1/4in Hips:57in/54in thigh:35in/32in calf:21in/20 1/2im arm:17in/16in Okay I am having a difficult time the past couple of days. I just can't seem to get and stay full. I am to the point that I've read so many other people talk about where I think I need a fill. It will most likely happen on my Dec. 4th appointment. My weight loss has dropped off quite a bit. It's not at a complete standstill but close. Granted this is only one week. It definitely could pick up next week. I just wish I wasn't getting hungery. My will power after that 30 day pre-op diet and the diet following surgery is running thin. Just a couple more weeks though and hopefully the fill will give me what I need. I started a part time waitressing job yesturday to help suppliment my income while being on unemployment. I just wish that the plant that I worked at would let us know when they plan on starting back up. It's been since August already. I just couldn't get by on what unemployment alone pays. The bills have been backed up. Maybe the stress from that is contributing to my hunger. Maybe it's more head hunger than anything.... hummmm... something to think about and pay more attention too. Until next time!
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9-23-2007

Day 5 of pre-op diet. 25 more to go. I am so envious of all of you who didn't have to or won't have to do the pre-op for so long. But my surgeon is pretty strict about losing close to 10% total body weight. He said 25lbs for me. It's hard sometimes when my husband eats in front of me. It's also amazing now that I realize how many times a day I would just pop something in my mouth. Like when I am fixing my 15 month olds meals I usually take a bite here and there to make sure it's not too hot or that whatever it is tastes good. I also do that with cooking, putting away food, anytime I handle food. But I've stopped the misc bites and finger licking. Watching commercials can be difficult. I never realized just how many food commercials there are or how good they really make that food look. I've been trying to DVR everything I watch so I can skip the darn food commercials. I've started tracking the calories and protein I eat in a day. I first tried the website: mypyramid.gov but was unhappy with it. I found that slimfast's website has a free diet/nutrition tracker. I just have to delete the menu they come up with for me and put in what I actually eat. And if they don't have something you've eaten in their system you can add it and it will remember it (like the protein shake that I drink). They also have exercise trackers and a lot of other helpful tools all for free. Today I ate 1270 cals and rode my bike for 30min. Goodnight and goodluck to all.:mad:
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9-25-2007

Well I'm grossed out. I was drinking my morning protien shake and it took until about half of it was gone befor I started to think it tasted a little funnier than usual. The milk in my fridge had soured slightly. YUCK! The date on the milk says it's still good for a week but not for me it's not. :mad: On a good note I lost 10lbs this first week on my pre-op diet. I know that number won't repeat itself but feel it is a good start. Still can't believe that I have three more weeks of this... I guess I'm a quarter of the way there. I'm trying to be optimistic but that sounds like a looooong time right now. Hope everyone's journey is going well! Until next time:). rode bike 30 min.
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9-25 2007

Wow- kinda had a rough day today. Started out good in the morning.... except for the sour milk. I ended up eating three taquito today. I traded the calories by not drinking a slimfast. I still consumed less than 1500 cals. so I am trying not to beat myself up so bad. And I did exercise. And tomorrow is another day. I was just reading through some different threads and realized how thankful I am to have this forum and everyone in it. It is so inspiring and helpful to read everyone's answers and experiences to different questions. This pre-op diet is driving me nuts and it's nice to be able to have a place to get grounded. I just really can't wait to get this done. I've spent too many years in a heavy unhealthy state. I'm ready for change...........23 more days to go!!! Goodnight.
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2-18-2008

Start weight: 295 Surgery weight: 275 Current weight: 245 Monthly measurements Start/Now Bust: 53 1/2in. / 47in. Waist: 55 1/2in. / 40 1/2in. Hips: 57in. / 50 1/2in, Thigh: 35in. / 31in, Calves: 21in. / 20in, Arms: 17in. / 15in. I am so happy. I have reached the 50lb mark.:thumbup: And have lost a total of 35 inches. It just amazes me everyday how well this works. As I said before I am not following any sort of real diet. I just eat when I'm hungry. I don't eat near as much. It's so nice to actually get full. The one rule I do follow is the not drinking for 30 minutes after I eat. I exercise occasionally. I can't wait for the weather to get nicer so I can start walking to work. We have had snow on the ground since Jan 8th. That is just unheard of in this part of Idaho. Anyway- things are good. I am so glad that I got banded. I have no regrets. It is an amazing tool. Hope all you other bandsters are doing good. And good luck on the journey for those of you looking into getting banded. Take care All!  
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9-27-2007

Yesturday was rough. I had to go to the city (an hour a way). I ended up only having my protien shake and one slimfast from 6am until around 4pm. My system was whacked out! Finally today I feel normal, but last night no matter what vegi's I ate and the shake I had I couldn't shake that off feeling. I had to go to Boise to sign a medical release for my weight records from my old PCP from when I lived there. The gal still hasn't gotten them for me. It's been almoste a week. I just need my weights from 2004. The gal also told me they don't have any records from befor then..... Is that possible??? I started seeing this doctor in 2002. They should have all my records shouldn't they?? Anyway. I'm giving them until Friday and then after racking my brains I remebered having to go to a Primary Health center once when I was sick in 2002 or 2003. They should have my weight. I would be so pissed if this messes up my insurance approval process. I've already pre-registered for surgery and everything, This really is quite the process. It's not like with- oh I don't know- gallstones, to where you need surgery and you get it. This is a pain in the ass at times. I guess it proves if you really want it. And I do so through another hoop I will now jump. I'm gonna go call the primary health now to see how long it will take to get my weights. Until later~ :mad: [/url] ickerfactory.com/weight-loss/wwNunKT/"]
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11-21-2007

I haven't been very good about writing as often as I used to. I have been (I think I'm coming out of it) a "funk" (as I call it) for over a week now. The scale just seems to be lingering on the same damn number. I was and am impressed with the amount of inches I lost when I measured last week. It can get discouraging when I read about other people who were banded right around when I was and they have lost 20+ lbs since being banded. My doctor said that since some people don't have a 30 day pre-op diet, like I did, that larger weight loss is more normal for them after surgery. I still was expecting more. I need to learn patience. I'm not even sure if I've lost anything this week. I'll find out tomorrow when I weigh in for the week. I have been pretty lax about what I've been eating. I also haven't been calculating my caloric intake everyday like I was before. I figure I still am consuming between 1200-1800 calories a day. I should be able to lose weight with those numbers. I also have put off exercising since I started a new part time job. I haven't had to work on my feet since August and by the end of my shift (as a waitress) my body feels like it's going to die. My hip gives me so much trouble. I actually start to limp. My feet are also not happy about the whole work thing. So that's been my excuse for not exercising. I am recommitting myself to working the band. The past few days I have been very conscious of what I put in my mouth. I'm following the band rules. This has got to work for me. It will work. I don't know if any of you have checked out Youtube and searched lapband. There are some very inspiring stories... as well as some that I'd rather of not seen. But the inspiring ones kinda kicked my butt back in gear. This is an amazing tool that I have. It can and does work. I just need to remember not to expect instant results. Food was/is so instantly gratifying. Losing the weight from eating the food doesn't happen over night. I just need to remember to get refocused every time I get in a funk. Well- we'll see how things go in the next week and a half before my next doctor appointment. I hope to at least of dropped another pound or two before my first fill. I can't hardly wait for my first fill. Although I am apprehensive about getting poked:phanvan. But it WILL be worth it:). I hope all of you out there are doing good. It can be a bumpy road but at least this road is going somewhere good! Happy Thanksgiving!
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1-11-2008

Wow, it's been over a week since I've gotten a chance to even log on. I had started a new job and ended replacing someone and have worked the past nine days straight. Tonight was my Friday- Thank God!!! I am so tired. Things are good. I have been exercising. And being that I work so much (even though I'm a cook) I don't have the appetite to eat. I am to busy. Leads me to realize that I eat out of boredom. I don't even have to be hungery. Now that I am working, I've only been eating between 800-1200 calories a day. The weight has begun to come off again. Yippee!! This morning I was down to 251. I've lost a total off 44lbs so far. I have so far to go, but I am almost to the 50lb marker! I've got to get to bed. I'm too pooped to write anymore :eek: Hope everyone is doing good out there is band-land!   Take care!
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9-28-2007

My pre-op diet sucks. I don't feel that way every minute of every day but there is that very strong underlying feeling.:tired It's not that I'm that hungry. It's more that there are just times that I've used food and I'm not supposed to use it now during those times. When my mood gets in a negative funk I like to feed it. I had a real hard time today. It is day 10 of my 30 day pre-op diet. And today I wanted to eat everything. Once again I did cheat. I ate a chicken strip. But once again I didn't have my last slim fast to help balance it out. I wanted to eat a hell of a lot more. One good thing is we don't really have any goodie foods or foods that are real easy in our house. At least not things that I like. Tomorrow has got to go smoother! The weight records I need still havn't been faxed to the surgeon. I called and requested the others I mentioned from the Primary Health. They said it would take at least a week. At least I've covered my bases as well as I can. The surgeons office faxed the info they had to BCBS to see if they would approve me without 2004's records. I doubt it but they thought it was worth a shot. Total cals today was 1550. and I rode my bike the 30 prescribed minutes. Good luck to all!
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5-27-2008

starting weight: 295 today: 231 Well, I'm going down again albeit slowly. I knew the day would come to were I would actually have to use the band as the tool it was meant to be. Up until 6 weeks or so ago I didn't really have to even try to lose weight. Now I'm having to track my diet and actually concider exercise. Thank goodness the good weather is here and I garden a lot. I also found my favorite palates tape that I need to start doing again. Anyway, just a quick check up. Take care all.
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9-29-2007

Today was much better. I did eat a lot of vegi's. Had an artichoke, baked zuchinni, brocolli, cauliflower..... yum. I use the fat free, zero calorie butter spray. It's actually pretty good. I rode my bike 30 minutes on my bike. Total calories today: 1380  
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9-30-2007

I talked to my Grandma today. She is going to try and come down to help with the baby and to visit when I have my surgery. She was much more supportive when I talked to her today. She even said she was proud of the choice I was making. Which was nice to hear. It's not the easiest choice. Somedays it seems like a easy answer. Other days I see it for what it is. It is a huge dramatic change to my life as I have known it. I got a little freaked out last night reading about different peoples experiences of erosion. I think that's the one thing that concerns me the most. I just worry that if I were to have it I wouldn't have symptoms until it caused some kind of bad damage. I guess everyone worries about things the closer their surgery date gets. On a good note day 12 was pretty good. I didn't ride my bike today. Kept my cals right at 1300. Goodnight and good luck with your journies~:notagree  
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It has begun...

height: 5' 7" weight: 277 BMI: 64 It is crazy to me that I am putting this out there for whoever wants to read it and yet my husband doesn't even know exactly what I weigh. He has a real good idea but not the exact digits. Like by my not telling him it isn't as bad as it actually is. Kind of like how my drivers license says I weigh 200. I haven't weighed that sinse around 1994. It's been awhile. But it is time to face reality and own up to the fact that I am morbidly obese- I have let myself go further and further each year. I have been a pretty regular dieter the past 13yrs or so. I can lose 20-45 lbs befor I crash. I either get sick of no carbs, or tired of shakes, or quit excersizing, or quit counting calories because I want to eat. I have used food for comfort- to fill a void and I have created a vicious cycle in my life that needs to be broken. I am ready to begin the healing process. I am ready for my butt to quit being the thing that grows and instead have things like spiritual growth,confidence and self-worth back in my life. I have begun tackling the mental reason behind my eating. I really believe that will be a huge key to not only losing weight but achieving the internal happiness that I have been lacking. I began researching gastric bypass and banding about six months ago. At first I really wanted to bypass. I wanted the finality of it. I wanted to have no way out of losing weight. I was taking the wrong approach at that time. Even if I had chosen bypass- my mind still needed to make a shift. It took time and a lot of reading journals online to see that surgury is only a tool. I believe it is a powerful tool if used properly. I've made the shift and actually after a lot of research the band just makes so much sense. And I am so excited.... as well as a little nervous and scared.:phanvan The company I work for recently got bought out which was a huge blessing for me. My previous insurance didn't cover any kind of weight loss surgury. I was prepared to find a way to finance it- I and my health- are worth it! But luckily our new insurance overs everything. Yippee! So today I had my psych evaluation. There were 5 tests- 4 of them were not bad. The other one was almost 600 questions. Not terrible, but time consuming and can you say hand cramp? By the way I am not afraid of the dark (they asked that question like 6 times). The Doctor said after our 10 minute talk, that I am a perfect canidate and he has seen this surgury help a lot of people. First step down..... it has begun. I have an appointment with my primary doctor the 9th to get a refferal for a sleep apnea test. Then the 17th I have my appointment with the dietician. On the 27th I go to the required support group. I am on my way. :car:
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11-26-2007

start weight: 295 surgery weight: 270 5 weeks post op: 259 I still didn't lose any weight last week. Today I got on the scale and was finally down a pound. I went two weeks with no weight loss. That's enough to drive me nuts. But hopefully my body has adjusted and is ready to start dropping weight again. My doctor appt. is next Tuesday. I should get my first fill then. I don't know how much or what. I'll have to ask so I can include that in my journal. I am hoping that by getting a fill I will experience the same sense of fullness that I did for the first couple of weeks after surgery. That was amazing. I wasn't hungry and got full so quickly. I was pretty good on Thanksgiving. I did have to have a bite of each of the crisps I made. One was peach and one blackberry. I didn't have a recipe and wanted to see how they were. They were good. Hope everyone out there is doing great. Until next time....
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10-1-2007

Well I'm very excited, today I got approved by my insurance. :clap2: No help from the gal who was supposed to get me my 2004 medical records. The surgeons office sent in 2005-2007 hoping they would approve it and they did. If I was nice I would call the gal from my previous Dr's office to tell her not to worry about the 2004 records but I'm not. Actually I am nice and almost called her but figured it would be good to have them just in case. I just like to pretend I'm a mean vengful person once in a while. :heh: I have two pre-op appointments on the 16th. One is with the surgeon and the other is with the hospital. Fun! Fun! At times I just can't believe this is really happening. I rode my 30 minutes today (I upped the difficulty on the bike). Cals today 1330. Take care all!  
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10-2-2007

Today was good. Not much to say. I rode my bike my 30 minutes and ate 1200 cals. I'm excited and happy for all the other tenacioustens out there who are starting to get banded. Take care all!
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3-31-2008

I am over the half way point to my weight loss goal. I've lost 58lb and have 57 more to go. I've been hovering right at 240 for a couple of weeks. I started drinking my protien again last week. I dropped three pounds... yippee! I still have a long way to go. My doctor is happy with my progress. He thinks I'll be under 200 by July. I haven't weighed under 200lbs since 1993. It's crazy to think about. My port area has that "pulling/sore" sensation that I had befor my port flipped. I'm hoping it doesn't happen again. I can't afford to have it done again. The last time was out of my pocket. I'll be making payments on that for a while. Anyway, I've got to get to work. I hope everyones lapband journey is going well! Until next time.... Band-day: 10-18-2007 starting weight: 295 pre-op weight: 270 5 mos. post-op: 240 12-05-2007 first fill of 2cc's 12-20-2007 second fill 1cc total of 3cc 3-6-2008 surgery for flipped port and third fill 1cc total of 4cc
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10-3-2007

I didn't get to ride my bike today....yet. I might try to get it in after hubby goes to bed. I still don't like exercising in front of him. It was a pretty good day. I'm pretty used to not eating much now. In some ways I can see how being on this pre-op diet can be beneficial. Not just because of the weight loss but that when I am banded I'm already used to not eating hardly anything. Here's what I had today: (typical of everyday) whey protein shake 2scoops in 8oz slim milk 2 slimfast shakes (I'm allowed 3 a day but lately have only been drinking 2) 1 1/2 cups broccoli 1 cup butternut squash soup (90 cals) 1 1/2 cups stir fry veggies 1 diet Dr. Pepper That's around 1200 cals. And I'm really not hungry. The first few days of this pre-op diet I ate like three times as many veggies but not anymore. I'm actually not supposed to have soup but I've been eating progresso's hearty tomato and tried this organic squash soup. The squash soup is pretty nasty. I like squash. I've eaten a lot of it the past two weeks but the soup just wasn't right. It smelled like pumpkin pie and tasted like onion, garlic squash. It messed with my senses. I am so ready for my surgery date. Not much longer. I am on the downhill side now at least. Well, Goodnight. Hope everyone is doing good on their journeys!
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