I've been stalled at 194 for the past 3 weeks. I know it's crazy but I'm starting to think that this is as far as I will go (I was sleeved 9/5/12). So to add to the craziness, I decided to buy some clothes. Granted 3 of the items were on clearance but two tops were full price. Have I given up? Am I crazy? Am I really stuck at this size (which granted is smaller than I've been in 30 years)?
It's a week later, my stall broke and I'm down 2 lbs. My secret desire is to buy a slinky, bejeweled evening gown and go out with my husband for our 10th anniversary in May. So just for fun I went to Dillards this afternoon and tried some on (I wear size 14 now). I tried on several short dresses that also looked good. But the real surprise was the floor length, purple, bejeweled evening gown, halter top and low scooped back. It fit and it looked WOW. I couldn't believe it. Of course I didn't buy it because I have no idea what size I'll be by May, but that was fun! I wish I could have taken a picture to post on here. I just had to share this here.
It's the end of December, on Jan 5th I will be sleeved for 4 months. I still have a hard time believing the weight will stay off in the long run - although I have to admit that I never lost this much weight on my own and I haven't looked like this since right after High School. I catch a glimpse of myself in a mirror or window reflection and I do a double take. I'm wearing size 14 pants and large shirts which I haven't worn since I was 21. This is an amazing journey. Some days are harder than others. I get frustrated at being full after a few bites, especially when something tastes good. I usually end up eating too much and paying for it by feeling sick and nauseated for a while afterwards. I need to learn to be happy with the small bites I can eat and not push it.
Of course there is loose skin everywhere, but I'd rather it be loose than full of fat. I want to start seriously working out and seeing just what I can do now with my new body. I would love to get toned as well as thin, that would be a first for me.
I'm so glad I had this done. I am hopeful for my future and excited to see what I can do now.
I was doing fairly good this morning. I blew it tonight. I took some nausea meds and totally forgot everything anyone has ever told me and I gulped 3 mouthfulls of cool water with it. That hurt so BAD! And of course I immediately threw up which is just what I wanted to do with my new sleeve. Be careful newbies!
I've been following my pre-op diet for 3 weeks, tomorrow starts week 4. I don't think it is normally meant to go for this long but I was worried about not losing enough weight before the surgery so I started early. I've been using whey protein shakes and either Almond Milk or lactose free milk. I see the weight loss but it's hard to believe that it will be permanent. My family has been very supportive, my husband drinks a shake for breakfast now too and he's lost 8 lbs.
I'm excited and nervous about the surgery on Sept 5th. Sometimes I tell myself that it's crazy and I'm over-reacting. I should be able to lose the weight by myself. But I've been fat for 95% of my adult life and I've tried to change without success. The final straw was having my diabetes (Adult onset for the past 18 yrs) get out of control last spring. That really scared me. I've got to do this and hope that my diabetes responds positively.
Now it's just continue with the shakes and exercise and count down until Sept 5th!