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Post ike

Here I am a week later and 7 pounds higher. The hurricane crossed directly over our house. While we were on evacuation, I ate things I should not have. My husband took a picture of me with my daughter and I can tell in the pic that I am getting fat again. I have gained about 40 pounds since I stopped smoking in March. Anyway, we got our electricity back on yesterday when we came back home. We were very lucky because we had no property damage. We lost everything in our freezer which really hurts the wallet but I can handle it. It could have been so much worse. I am really glad I did not live in Galveston anymore. I would have been homeless for sure! I am all ready to start this thing all over again. I have new resolve this time. :cursing: So...bye bye 215.5:thumbup:
TracyK

TracyK

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can you spell STUCK?!

TRACYK, that is how. I have been stuk on this 206 number for long enough. Thank goodness I am not depressed enough to EAT, but motivated enough NOT to eat! Should be starting TOM soon so I am scared to weigh because of retaining fluid. I will probably just weigh in the morning and then not weigh again until tom is gone. Wanna know what my downfall is? Enchiladas. OMG, they slide down the old pipes. This next part is for myself (to kick things around in my own head for therapy) and for newbie banded people. I have had more new people that read my blog ask questions like "I thought with the band we would not be able to eat this or that". Picture this...(for instance folks, k?) say I am a drug head. I want some pills really bad because I have been clean (a good bandster) for over a year but now I really really need to "get high". I will figure out any way I can to get that high. Shakes go down...ice cream goes down, cheesecake goes down, cookies go down. Get the picture? If you got/are getting the band to "save you" from the sinking ship, you might wanna realize that you have to do some swimming to help save yourself!. The band is VERY helpful in losing weight. I would not trade it for anything! It is my life preserver for when I get really tired an feel like I can't swim anymore. Ugh, that probably made sense to NObody but me. But, I know what I meant. lol I guess what I am saying is don't expect a miracle, BE the miracle!:angry_smile:
TracyK

TracyK

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vent session~

Almost 2 weeks since I have been back on track. I STILL need to lose a pound to get to where I was before IKE. Come on...are you kidding me? I am busting my ass. I can gain 7 pounds in a week but only 6 has come off in 2 weeks? I know I should be proud....I am really but I am just beyond frustrated at myself. I guess over all it is a good thing I am going through this but .... OK, I have learned my lesson already! DAMN DAMN DAMN.....I just wanna be back where I was before I quit smoking! I wanna see 17something again more than anything and sometimes it starts looking hopeless! Today is one of those days. Will I run out and eat junk today?, no I won't. I just feel like throwing a huge titty baby fit! Nothing wrong with that, right? Better to throw a tantrum on a blog than eat ice cream, right? So, what is the light at the end of the tunnel for today? For today, the light is knowing for sure that if I had not gotten back on the band wagon I would more than likely be back up to 220-230. I stopped myself before it got even more out of control!! Whew....I feel better now. lol :tongue2:
TracyK

TracyK

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Bye bye 206

I did it....I finally did it! What a joyous occasion it was when I stepped on the scales this morning! 204.5. :confused: How is *that* for incentive to behave myself over the holidays? I never wanna see that dumb number again. I have so much to be thankful for. I am truly blessed. I have a Godsent family, I am healthier than I have ever been (even though I gained some weight back), I am a nonsmoker for the first Thanksgiving since 1983....my family is healthy, I have a great group of friends here on this site (shout out to the violets WOOT-WOOT)). I may not be rich in money but I am rich in every single other aspect of my life. What more can someone ask? OMG, I am going to sit here and make myself cry. There are so many people who are not as happy as I am right now. That breaks my heart. Some have lost loved ones this past year, some are homeless, jobless, so many scenarios. My heart goes out to them. I am counting my blessings. Whether I am 400 pounds or 130 pounds (yeah right), I am blessed. Thank you God. To anyone who might be reading this blog...have a wonderful Thanksgiving and do not eat anything you might regret on Friday. Make healthy choices. Now if I can practice what I preach I will be in business!! Once again....BYE BYE 206.....
TracyK

TracyK

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"rock"tober

That is what my mission is...to Rocktober. I am going to have a fantastic month (even if it kills me). My goal is to be back in onederland by Thanksgiving. That is approx 6 weeks away. Attainable? Sure it is. There is only one thing that can keep me from doing it....ME. So, with that being said, it is time to get off my ass and get to work! :thumbup: See ya!
TracyK

TracyK

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up down up down

Yo Yo'ing. Dontcha just love it? But I mean what can you really expect when ou are on your TOM? I am not a stupid person but I did a stupid thing...I weighed when I was on my period. Come on now, common sense said DON"T DO IT!! Did I listen, hell no....did I regret it? Hell YEAH! Ugh...gotta love seeing the +5 pounds from water retention. Then the mind games start....is it really water weight...omg what if it isn't? YIKES!:cry_smile: That was a few days ago and I am staying away from the scales for another day and hopefully when I get on tomorrow it will be back down where it was. I am so paranoid about weighing....horrible, right? Well, like Dr Phil says, "you can not fix what you won't acknowledge". I have a bag of clothes that used to fit when I was down to 175...and I outgrew them and I was gonna bring them to goodwill. I think I will keep them for when I get back down to that weght. Not IF, but WHEN I get back down to that weight :thumbup:. My babygirl is going to be getting up soon so I need to finish my coffee....just wanted to post on my blog so I can look back at this day and remember how I felt. Geez, talk about rambling now....buh bye!
TracyK

TracyK

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Sunday chatter...

I lost another pound of my hurricane evacuation weight. Down to 212 this morning! :clap: I watched something REALLY depressing last night. Informative, but depressing. It was that "YOU on a diet" show with Dr Oz. One of the 3 people they were putting on this diet was a woman my height 5'7 and she weighed 165 (my ultimate goal). Are you kidding me? They said that women overall should have a 32" waist or smaller. OK, so THAT isn't gonna happen....maybe a 32" thigh! It was just depressing to see them start with a subject that weighs what my goal weight is! UGH...:rolleyes2: That aside, it was an informative show. If I went and emptied my cabinets of all the dangerous "bad" items my cabinets would probably be almost empty! Sure gives me food for thought.
TracyK

TracyK

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the same is better than up

Still at 212 this morning. I can handle it. If I would not have stopped the foolishness when i did I would be up to 220 by now so I am very happy.:rolleyes2: My paperback swap shop that i always went to is ruined because of Ike so now I am bookless:sad_smile:. Not good. I use books and sunflower seeds to keep my mind off smoking. Thursday Survivor starts! WOOT:w00t: I love that show. I am hopelessly devoted:wub: This has been pretty much a ramble about nothing post so I will just stop myself here.....
TracyK

TracyK

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Hurricane Ike

Wow, we are really in for some trouble over here! I did not really ever think about the possibility of not having anywhere to live before. How scary. I have been stress eating. I am a basket case. I feel like a jersey cow. I want to cry but I an't because I do not want to scare my daughter. So, I will just keep holding it in. When I do finally get the chance to cry it is going to be such a tear fest! I wish I could get this lump out of my throat. I need to get up and pack so we can get out of here. Hmmm, hope moms house is far enough!:thumbup: Pray for us that we mke it through this unscathed. (and pray the the ready to eat meals that they hand out to the storm victims aren't too fattening!) LOL gotta laugh, right?!
TracyK

TracyK

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Saturday morning

Good Saturday morning! I was down another pound yesterday but am not going to weigh this morning. Just feel kind of fat today so I will skip it. Don't wanna bring myself down. I sure wish I still fell under the 'free fills for a year' catagory! I really do need probably .3 or so. Funny how such a small amount can make such a huge difference. Oh well, I have to suck it up for another month or so. The good news is that yesterday for the first time in a long time, my stomach actually growled. That is actually a good thing cause that means I am doing something right. We have the kids (my 2 step- children) over this weekend. Macy loes when her bubba and sissy are here. They are all growing up so fast. DSD is in high school this year! DSS is 9. Wow, amazing how fast time flies. Yesterday dd had to bring a dozen eggs to school to make green eggs & ham. When she got off the school bus I asked her how she liked the green eggs & ham and she said they were yucky and tasted like grass. LOL She had fun making them though. Not too much on the agenda this weekend. Just gonna try to hang out and relax. These are the times it is hard to make good food choices. I can do it though:huh2: (she says with uncertainty)
TracyK

TracyK

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Finally! Next goal is...

I finally made it back to 209 which was my preIKE weight. WOW...I thought it would never come off! Now my next small goal is 19something. You will have to pull me off the ceiling when I hit that one again. This time it will have new meaning for me. New meaning in the respect of I do not have smoking to lean on anymore. I am not smoking AND I am losing the weight that I gained as a result of quitting. So, I am proving something huge to myself. I am a winner. I have not felt that way in a long time. I know yesterday I was frustrated...I am sure I will have more frustration to come because I am only human but for today I am a happy camper!
TracyK

TracyK

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doing other things

Excuse me while I sit her and type to myself .:clap: Once again sitting here trying to figure out what to do other than eat. I never really realized how much I eat just out of pure boredom. I lost another pound so I am down to 211. I have 2 more pounds to lose until I get back to my pre-hurricane Ike weight. Then 30 more to get back to where I was in February.:rolleyes2: Happens to the best of us I guess. 30 pounds is better than 40 right? Heck yeah! I am really glad that the biggest loser is back on TV. I don't know why but it seems like I lose weight really well while that show is on. My daughters school starts back tomorrow. First day back since the hurricane. She does not wanna go at all. She loves staying with me. I love having her home but she has to go! Oh well I have babbled enough!
TracyK

TracyK

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