I was talking about this in private to a very nice member, and thought I might get some good advice here too... I'm not looking for sympathy, just help ... what have others done when food is no longer there to handle your grief?? I also dont have much local support, so I know that being with friends, etc. would be the best way, but I've been shunned by so many since i gained the weight
Most of my life, I was the thin, healthy, active, pretty one, cheerleader in high school, modeled and sang in a rock band in college, etc... you know, the sterotypical snob. Then life blasted me with more than i could handle when my boyfriend was killed...and my best friend disappeared (found out she was abducted when her only her skull was found) and went from 140 to 240 what seemed overnight. Then... my dad committed suicide last May, my sister died a week after that.. and the only way I knew how to handle that was eat. I'm now 300lbs, gaining another 60lbs in a year. My dad had the lap-band (same scenerio, always thin until he started eating his emotions).. he lost 50 then gained more back (again, emotions). This is part of what led him to do what he did. I have no doubt I can do this... I have my son here for support (he's 14), and my dad driving me spiritually. I'm doing this for them as much as for me.
My biggest worry now as far as the surgery itself is finding new ways to deal with life and death....
