good evening
well, another update by yours truly ..went to my moms house for thanksgiving. She lives in the Atlanta Ga area so i had to fly from Dallas to Atlanta last week. I was TERRIFIED...not to fly because i have been flying since i was 10 y/o but i was afraid that they would say something about my weight, i was nervous to hear the snickers or the eyes that would seem to say 'i hope she doesnt sit next to me'...mortified is probably a better word..well, my family and friends kept trying to assure me that im not 'THAT big' but i feel like it. i know im not the same size i used to be but the horror stories of people being denied boarding or being asked to pay an extra seat on the plane was not something i wanted to come across. The first plane was so tiny but i had a really nice seat buddy who sat next to me and she made the ride more enjoyable...the connecting flight was alright as well.im the type of person that talks about the elephant in the room so i asked the next seat buddy 'do you have enough room' and he was nice and said yes of course...but when i finally touched down and saw my family i burst into tears because i was so uncomfortable, felt like i was in everyones way and didnt want people talking about me
fast forward to when we went to the mall of georgia for my sisters 18th birthday spending spree and i hated walking into the stores she was in. Forever 21, charlotte russe, H&M, ....my mom said she can sense that i didnt want to be around people anymore and knows that is not my personality. i am a friendly person! and i have just gotten uncomfortable...my other sister who is 16 gave me some words of advice she said 'noya, dont look at it like that...think of it as motivation, next year this time you will be shopping with us in the same stores' that right there made me tear up because she is so young helping her big sister out emotionally...
day i flew back the last plane back to dallas the chick that was supposed to be sitting in the seat next to me act like she was disgusted with me, that a 'fat girl' is next to her...she tried her best to sit in her sits until those people came on board...i tried to shake it off but ..i couldnt...im just glad that is over with..like my sister says next time this year i will be thinner, i kept chanting that to myself the whole plane ride. or maybe ill get first class LOL :blush5:
below are a few pics of me with my brother, sisters and mom
Well i am home now since i had my overnight sleep apnea stay last night. man that was one rough night. I felt like i couldn't get comfortable although it was all in my mind and nothing that Waxahachie Baylor sleep study center did. Cathy was awesome and made me feel like i was a guest sleeping over a friends house lol it was great, i was comfortable for a bit. but at home, my ac is usually blasting, the ceiling fan is on and i have an oscillating fan next to me so im usually cold and feeling good.. the temperature in the room wasnt that bad just not cold like im used to. i usaly sleep with 3-4 big pillows but these were the hospital pillows good thing i brought my own. i dont like being confined when im sleep and i felt like i was caught in a spiderweb with all the wires and cords and pulse thing on my finger..man it was a rough night i tell ya!! she said i was a lil snorer..i said, yup. i told yall i was lol..after insurance i am paying 215 bucks out of pocket and ill get my results sometime this week...fingers crossed....
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