April 10, 2007
I called Marilyn today and got my date...May 18th!! I could of had May 9th, but I really wanted a Friday appointment. I really wish this was behind me. :puke: Five weeks out? Can I wait that long...will I chicken out??? I think I will use this time to prepare, shop for post op stuff and make a lot of lists, I am a master of list making!
Thoughts are racing through my head...is this right for me?...will I be able to handle the rules of the Lapband?...is it right that I use the money for myself, when there are many other things that the money could be used for?...will I be able to handle the weight loss?...Who should I
tell?...I don't really mind anyone knowing about it, I just don't want to have to deal with that part of it, I just want to focus on my decision and not what others are thinking about me. Don't over think, I have researched tis for many years and now that the ball is rolling, just go with it!...rrrrrright!
Too much time to wait, these thoughts are going to drive me up a wall!
April 9, 2007
Today was my consult with Dr. Kirshenbaum. It was quick, I didn't really have a lot of questions for him (thanks to this site). I didn't get to make a sugery date, Paula left for the day. She will call tomorrow to schedule one. I am hoping for a Friday so I can work on Monday??? Time off of work is my big concern, I hate to take any time off. I don't know how I am going to deal with that??
I found out that my BMI is 50, which is higher than I thought. I calculated 48 or 49. No big shocker, I told her that I deffinately feel like 50 BMI.
I am suprised that I didn't cancel my appointment because I don't believe in myself. Too many failed attempts. This will be the last straw.
My family is very supportive. I wished the surgery was over already and a few months behind me.
I meet with Dr. K tomorrow, not really nervous and I don't really have a lot of questions to ask because I have been reading as much as I can about the surgery and the recovery and what to do and what not to do. I wish I was going in for the surgery tomorrow. I am hoping for a Friday surgery, that would give me the weekend to recover?? The least amount of days off the better. ( just thought he was cute!)
I FINALLY got up enough nerve to call and schedule an appointment for a consult! My consult will be April 9th, 2007 a 4:00. I hope I don't chicken out and cancel:phanvan !! I called 3-26-07, I was hoping that I could do a phone consult, but Marilyn said he will only do consults over the phone with out of state patients...boooooo!
When I told my husband, he was okay with it. I think he just wants me to be happy. My children too. My oldest son said he thinks I should go for it because it will make me happier! Their support is awesome! I have been talking about having it done for a long time(years and years). I chickened out about four years ago. I was going to have the gastric bypass. My insurance even said they would cover 100 percent, I would just have to pay the $50.00 co-pay! Oh well, I chickened out and now I am going i to talk to Dr. K about the lapband and my insurance will not pay for anything now, so I will be self paying(I hate the sound of that). One week away from the consult, I log onto the website every chance I get to read, read, read. This site is so inspiring and infomative. I don't want to chicken out this time, so I am looking for all the support I can get!!