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Second Chances

After going to my psychiatric evaluation, having numerous tubes of blood drawn, EKG, chest x-ray, endoscopy and nutrition consult, I got a surgery date! I also got cold feet. Every possible complication ran through my mind. What if I had to have my stomach removed completely, what if I had a leak, what if what if what if.....So I decided I would give myself another shot at losing this weight. I called the dr and she put me on phentermine. I lost 8 pounds, gained 4 and got discouraged. I quit the phentermine and started Weight Watchers (again). Gained 10 more pounds.....What gives? I did some major soul searching and stalked every complication forum I could find. I got answers to all my 'what ifs' and after much prayer, I am back on track for surgery. I called my surgeons office on Monday the 19th and was given an appointment for Friday the 23rd. I knew this was meant to be if I didn't have to wait until after the first of the year! I'm back on the liquid protein diet (to shrink my liver so it's not oozing all over while he operates) and have to lose 10-20 pounds by January 25th and I should hopefully get another surgery date. This one will be set in stone and ONLY changed or canceled by my doctor. I (re) broke the news to my family (Dad's not so happy, but he wants me to be happy and healthy). Everyone is standing behind me and now I just have to let my boss know. I have realized that I am going to be able to eat anything(my sleeve lets me) I want to, just in smaller quantities. But I HAVE to adopt a healthier relationship with food. It is for my fuel only and it is only an added perk that it tastes good. I really hope that I'm not able to tolerate fatty and unhealthy foods. Hopefully my next blog will include a surgery date (Valentine's Day-ish).

lordservnt

December 27, 2011

In the begginning.....

Over a year ago I decided to give myself one last shot at weight loss. I did fantastic! I lost 76 pounds in 6 months. Only problem....I regained it all back in 8 months. I had heard about a great surgeon in my area and about the VSG and decided to go to one of his informational seminars. I was sold!! He doesn't just sleeve you and send you on your way, he is so thorough with his pre-op testing as well as the support groups provided. And I found out that my insurance automatically approved the surgery as long as you met the surgeon's requirements. I went to my seminar in May 2011, had my first visit with the surgeon on June 30, 2011. He put me on the fast track...from what I have heard from other patients I could expect to have surgery in as little as 6 weeks!!!!!!! I was given a list of pre-op requirements that I have to complete before I can get my surgery date. I must have a psychological evaluation, nutritionist consultation, EKG, upper endoscopy and biopsy, full blood work up, chest x-ray, follow a 6 week liquid protein diet and attend 3 support group meetings. My liquid protein diet started on July 1, and after only 1 day, I lost 5 pounds. I have my next appointment with the surgeon on July 29, 2011 and will also see the nutritionist. I will be having my blood work, EKG, and x-ray on July 5, 2011. My second support group meeting is on July 12.....This is going so fast but I will be glad to not be uncomfortable and unrecognizable any more!! Through the excitement comes the evil reality that food addiction is horrific to overcome....food is necessary. After surgery I will not be able to have carbonated drinks, caffeine, or carb/fat rich foods so it is recommended that you start practicing this pre-op to get you in the habit. I am doing great so far! I got a little cranky earlier because I was so hungry even after my shake. I had some chicken broth and a glass of water and now I feel better. I realized that this is going to be my reality post-op. I may feel super hungry or have a craving for something I shouldn't have, but I'm just going to have to learn to deal with it or change my mind about surgery (choice 2 is not an option for me). I have been given this gift of a second chance at life and I'm not going to let it pass me by only because I want to eat. I know I will over eat and only feel worse than I had before. So I decided to go through all of the foods that I would not/should not eat post-op and decide if I can live without ever having them again. I was okay until I named a favorite restaurant's rolls....I would really like to have them just one last time before I have surgery and am healed enough to have a bite at a future date. So now I am pondering having a "last supper" tomorrow night with my family. I will probably regret it, and I may even change my mind in the morning and decide we aren't going to do it.

lordservnt

July 3, 2011

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