Jump to content
×
Are you looking for the BariatricPal Store? Go now!
$99 Yearly Supply Alert! 🌈 "1 per Day!" Bariatric Multivitamins
Sign in to follow this  
Followers 0
  • entries
    35
  • comments
    35
  • views
    23,839

About this blog

My Weight Loss Journey After VSG

Entries in this blog

 

WITHIN NORMAL RANGES

A week ago on Friday I had a checkup with my primary care physician's office. I asked to have blood workup to make sure everything is A-OK since it's been 4 months since surgery. I had a bunch of blood samples taken, checking cholesterol, iron, folate, vitamins/minerals, and fasting blood sugar. I got my results back this week and I was SO happy to see that everything is within normal ranges! In 2009, the last time I had blood drawn, it was because my dr. was worried I had diabetes. My fasting glucose level was 110 -- higher than the acceptable normal range of 65-99, but not quite as high as to confirm diabetes (a reading of 125 or higher is indicative of diabetes). I was "pre-diabetic" and that was one of the things that was worrying me (not to mention I had somewhat high blood pressure too). Anyhow, as of last week, my fasting glucose level was 85 -- well within normal range, and a drop of 25 points (about a 30% decrease!) from my 2009 levels. So -- only 4.5 months out of surgery and all systems are in good order -- yay, yay, yay!!!! I had a mini stall on my weight loss but it seems to have broken; as of this morning I am down to 178.0, a drop of nearly 2 lbs. since last week. I am getting ready to go out to do some gardening so that will give me some needed calorie burn. I am pretty sure I will not make it into the size 14 land by the time of our Maui trip, but hopefully by then my size 16s will be nice and comfy-loose and I won't look completely hideous in a swimsuit. I'm going to start going to a tanning salon (first time ever) this week to build up a base tan for the Hawaii vacation and a tan does make people look thinner -- hopefully it will help me! All in all -- a golly gee good news week. I feel really good, I am losing weight, My health has improved markedly, and all is well in my world!
Kris

Kris

0
 

Week 7 Surgiversary -- Made it to ONEderland!

First of all I want to say howdy to everyone who has read and commented on my previous blog entries. I am still figuring out my way around this site and didn't realize people had commented before until I was poking around my profile and saw comments. Thanks for the comments! I heart my fellow sleevers and sleevers-to-be!   So ... today I posted on the Success Stories topic that I have finally achieved my first big VSG goal -- to be below 200 lbs. I weighed in this morning at 199.4 lbs. on my new scale, despite having been on the road all week and eating out virtually every meal. I am THRILLED to have made this goal ... it took a bit longer than I had hoped but I am a small woman (5'1") and my body doesn't need as many calories as taller folks. I have been pretty steadily losing two lbs. a week for the past few weeks and as long as I keep up at that rate I am totally fine and happy. I still have just shy of 75 lbs. to lose for my final goal, so I will be on this journey for quite a while. My birthday is in mid November and I will be absolutely thrilled if I am within the vicinity of goal by then.   Another major excitement -- clothes shopping. My size 22 WP clothes are really loose so I went shopping and was so excited to be out of sizes that start with the number 2! Today I just bought a couple of pairs of size 18 Lee relaxed fit jeans. They are a bit snug, so I figure I will be able to wear them at least a good 3 months before they get as loose as my size 22s are right now, and then moving down to the next size (hope to hold out buying more jeans until I can fit in a size 14 P).   And this is embarrassing to admit, but today was the first day in a LONG time that I put on makeup -- foundation, blush, eyeliner, lipstick. I was happy with the scale and wanted to look as good as possible to celebrate. Honestly, I never bothered with makeup because I thought there was no point ... a made up face couldn't distract from such a big round body. But now that I am losing weight and getting close to the realm of normal sizes, I am taking more care with my appearance. I went to the store and splurged and bought a couple of new lipsticks today since I haven't worn lipstick in quite a while, and some translucent pink nail polish.   I will say that first month post surgery was not fun at all, but now that I am nearly 2 months out, and feeling really good and losing weight more successfully than I have in decades, I am SO, SO GLAD I got the sleeve. I have confidence that I will continue losing weight ... not at a really fast pace, but slow and steady is terrific for me (hopefully my skin will shrink more easily with a more gradual weight loss). I am really getting the hang of being OK with really small portions of food, and I have never overeaten to the point of throwing up, which makes me happy, I also tolerate most foods really well. I definitely limit my carb intake and avoid bread, which fills my sleeve up too fast, and avoid sweets and empty calories.   Speaking of sweets, my taste buds seem to have changed (I know this happens with a lot of people who get sleeved). I am a lot more sensitive to sweetness than I was pre-sleeve -- things that were pleasantly sweet pre-surgery are now too sweet to me and I don't like it. I have had almost nothing sweet at all to eat since being sleeved, and although I am briefly tempted by sweets when they are right in front of me, I usually have no trouble passing them by (or if eating some dessert, just limiting it to one small bite (which satisfies any sweet cravings I have).   I love my sleeve!!!!
Kris

Kris

1
 

Week 16 Surgiversary -- Nearly Halfway to Goal!!!

So this is my nearly 4 month surgiversary (next Saturday is the actual surgiversary date). I am almost at my midpoint -- 49 lbs. lost, 50 lbs. to go to get to my ultimate goal weight of 132 lbs. That's exciting news! Exciting too to be nearly out of the 180s -- if all goes well that should be happening in less than 2 weeks. I have been battling with some pretty awful snack cravings, which usually hit between 3-4 pm and (depending on when I eat dinner, and what's in the dinner), between 8-9 pm. I find it easier to disregard the snacking urge in the evening but the afternoon snacking urge is powerful, and most days I succumb to it. And it is almost always a crunchy, salty carb snack (lately chex mix and Riceworks Sweet Chili rice chips have been my go-to snack of choice). I was feeling very guilty about snacking because I remember Dr. Aceves warning not to do that. At the suggestion of a fellow sleever I contacted his patient coordinator to ask if I can eat more than 3 times a day, and as it turns out he will allow 5-6 small meals a day, so I translate that into meals plus a couple of snacks, as long as I'm staying below a total intake of 900 calories a day and getting in a decent amount of protein each day. Happy, happy me! I stocked up on some very low-cal snacks (dill pickles) in case I'm running close to the 900 calories a day limit and still want to eat something. I've been pretty active this weekend with gardening chores (in fact am quite sore right now!) and I know that will help me lose weight. I actually lost more weight in April than in March (8.6 lbs. vs. 8 lbs. in March), due I believe to being more active, now that springtime is here. So I am hoping for another month of 8+ lbs. lost in May. I gave a bunch of my old size 22's/2X/3X clothes to Goodwill today and actually went shopping in the store for the first time ever. I found a couple of pairs of capris for $6 each and a polo shirt for $4 so am happy with that ... some extra weekend clothes to wear, especially while I am gardening. I am sure I will go back as I lose weight, as it seems there are a lot more clothes in the smaller sizes than in the larger sizes. I was tempted to buy a couple of pairs of size 14 jeans, but thought better of it ... I can buy those when the time is right. I am definitely still in the size 16/1X zone and no point of pretending otherwise! I guess that is about all for this week ... I am looking forward to next week and hopefully will be really close to 180 next week. I have a ton of garden chores to do this week and hope Mother Nature gives me some decent weather to work in ... if I can do an hour or two of gardening chores each evening after work, I will have a very good shot at being near 180 next week.
Kris

Kris

1
 

Week 15 Post Op -- Easter Challenge, July 4th Challenge, & Hair Loss

I had my 15th week surgiversary on Friday; my four month surgiversary is coming soon (May 7th ... I think there's an extra week since January and March were long months). Today I weighed in at 184.6. I had set an Easter Challenge goal to get to 180 by today, but missed that by, well, a lot ... I got about 80% to goal, though, so that is still OK with me. My July 4th challenge is to get below 170 ... to 169 to be exact. That's a total loss of 15.6 lbs. in 10 weeks. That is much more in line with what I have been losing. I definitely lose more weight when I am physically active so I know if I could just bump up the exercise I would easily make that goal with room to spare. Now that it is springtime, and the weather isn't quite as dreadful as it has been the first few months of the year, I am going to try to at least get out and walk 30 minutes a day, plus have some heavy duty gardening chores on the weekends (and maybe I can sneak in some gardening after work a few nights). On July 5th I will be going to Maui w/DH to celebrate our 15th anniversary so I am totally excited to get to this goal. I really NEED to get to this goal because right now my bod is in bad, bad shape. I still have horrible thunder thighs, big fat arms, and just overall am still quite obese (though, I am happy to note, I finally have a BMI of under 35 ... woo hoo! ... only 5 more BMI points to lose and I will no longer be considered obese!). Fifteen pounds isn't going to make that dramatic of a difference, I fully realize, but every little bit helps. I'm definitely going to have to buy swim apparel with good coverage! So, the only other thing I think worth mentioning for this week is I am definitely starting to see some hair loss ... not gobs of hair, but definitely more shedding than I used to have. I know it will get worse before it gets better. I've been letting my hair grow out since surgery, and I don't know if that's good or bad for disguising hair loss. I am getting a little peeved at the extra attention I have to use to take care of longer hair, but I figure I will just keep going and in a few months my hair should be long enough to pull into a pony tail, and that should help. I read that some of the saggy neck skin problem may be due to slight dehydration, and lack of moisture in the skin. I had stopped using Bio-Oil for a while but am back onto that because it definitely moisturizes more than the Olay Regenerist products I use on my face. Part of why I haven't chopped my hair short is because the longer hair does distract a little from my turkey neck. I wore my size 16 jeans around town yesterday afternoon .... they are comfortable in the butt and legs, but around the waist still a little too snug for comfort. As soon as I got home I took off those jeans and put on my nice and comfy (loose) size 18 jeans ... that was kind of a reminder, too, that I've still got a long way to go on this weight loss journey. Just because I can pack my gut into a pair of size 16s doesn't mean it's going to feel good! I am really amazed, though, when I pick up those size 16s that I can wear them ... they seem SO SMALL compared to what I am used to! It's hard to get my head around that. Well ... that's about all for today. DH and I are going to my mom's house for Easter ... she has made way too much food, so I will have to be extra cautious about what I try to eat. Mostly I'll be eating ham, with a few bites of other stuff. Dessert is angel food cake with sweetened strawberries and whipped cream .... not too high calorie, though i will have to take it easy with the cake! It's exciting to think that this will be my last Easter as an obese person. Next Easter, if all goes well, I should be back into normal sizes (hopefully size 8P or, dare I even say it, size 6P ... I really can't imagine ever being that small, though!)
Kris

Kris

0
 

Week 12 Surgiversary -- Cracked the 180s!

OK, so I'm just about 3 months out, and LOVING my sleeve! I'm down into the 180s now (189.8 to be exact) and it's hard to believe ... I had a big slow patch in March but the past two weeks I've had good weight loss. I am going to Orlando on a business trip this week and am so excited to be wearing size 16/18 WP vs. the 22/24 size I was wearing pre-surgery. I know I still have quite a long ways to go to hit goal but I am now loving my weight loss journey. I am finally pretty much used to my new portion sizes and am getting good at pushing the plate away when I've had enough. I am good at chewing my food, very good about not eating and drinking at the same time, and good about getting protein in first before anything else. I am starting to work with light weights (do sets of arm exercises when I watch TV). DH and I are having our 15th wedding anniversary this July. I am so excited about this because for the first time in nearly the entire 15 years we've been married, by July I should be getting relatively close to my wedding weight (I never weighed myself then but am guesstimating I was in the high 130s or low 140s when we got married; I was wearing a size 10). To celebrate this milestone anniversary, we are going to Maui for five nights. I am so, so excited about this trip -- not only because I will be able to do things I absolutely love to do (swim, relax by water) but because I won't have to be terribly self conscious about my weight. By early July I am hoping to be in the low 170s and hopefully comfortably wearing a size 14, which is by no means a bikini body, but I hopefully won't be totally mortified to wear a bathing suit like I have been for at least a decade. I've been looking at the Lands End catalogs and they have a great selection of bathing suits that have good coverage (especially upper thighs, a nightmare zone for me), so I'm going to buy a couple of bathing suits from them as I get closer to the big date. So tomorrow I have to fly to Orlando, and I used to hate flying because I was so self conscious about how much space I took in a seat (basically overflowed the seat into the poor passenger's seat next to me). I still hate flying and am still self conscious, but hopefully I won't be overflowing too much into the seat next to me. My challenge this week will be to not cheat badly and stay disciplined with the food choices. I know I will be walking around a lot so that should help counterbalance any splurge meals or treats I have. I will be so, so happy to be in a sunny, warm place ... it's been a dreadful spring here in the Seattle area. This weekend I've been sprucing myself up a bit. I got a pedicure yesterday, colored my hair this morning, and am going shopping to buy a couple of new t-shirts to wear in the evening after our conference ends (going to Magic Kingdom one night, which should be lots of fun, and I want to be comfortable). I am going to be meeting some head honchos in our organization and don't want to make a bad impression. It is SUCH a relief to not have the same level of embarrassment about my weight that I used to have! I am still well aware I'm very big for my height, but I don't feel quite as self-conscious about it that I used to. I am so, so glad I got sleeved and already the changes in my life are fantastic, only three short months out from surgery!
Kris

Kris

2
 

Week 11 Surgiversary -- Size 16 Jeans -- WOOT?!?

I have been a bit down in the dumps lately because the past few weeks' weight loss has been really slow. But this week was great -- over 3.5 lbs. lost! I am now down to 192.2, very close to being in the 180s and so excited about that!   I had a NSV today, too. About a month ago I went shopping for some new jeans, since my size 22's were getting pretty loose. I was really happy to find out I could fit into size 18WP jeans, even though they were a little snug. I bought two pairs of jeans. I am very short and the jeans were still a couple of inches too long, so I needed to get them hemmed (I can't sew at all!). I had a lot going on the past few weekends, so kept putting off taking the jeans to get hemmed, but today I finally did it, because the size 22s are so loose they are going to fall off any day now, and just *have* to go. So I went to the seamstress to get the jeans hemmed, and put on the size 18s for the seamstress to measure, and I was quite gratified to notice that they were looser than I remembered when I bought them. The seamstress made me stand on a little dias so she could get the length right and I was facing a large full-length mirror. At that point I noticed the new size 18's were actually already pretty darn loose in the legs, and comfortably loose around the torso. I started wondering if maybe I was getting close to fitting into a size 16WP. So, after I finished with the seamstress, I headed on over to Macy's and decided to try on some new jeans. I picked up a pair of Levi's size 16 short, the Macy's house brand of jeans, and a pair of size 16 capris. When I got to the fitting room, I picked up the Levi's first and was aghast because the size 16s looked really, really small. I didn't think I could even get them up over my thighs ... but I did. I even got them buttoned and zipped up, to my amazement. OK, I have to admit, they were tight, and I wouldn't have felt really comfortable wearing them, so off they went. I nearly bought them just to measure my weight loss progress, but decided to hold off for a few weeks and come back and try again in a month or so. The Macy's jeans, however, fit perfectly and so did the capris. I took my new size 16 jeans to the seamstress and had her swap out one of the size 18 jeans (which I will hem using that magic hem stuff I bought from Walgreens). So, I am officially able to wear size 16! Woo hoo!   I ended up buying a couple of new bras this weekend too -- the balconette style from Lane Bryant, size 42DDD. I was pleasantly surprised at the nice shaping they provide. My girls are hangin' low, so to speak, so they need a strong support and shaping bra!   Now I will be brutally honest -- I look like total crap with clothes off. I have horrendous cottage cheese thighs right now -- not just the normal cellulite area, but everywhere down to my knees, front and back -- ick. And as I mentioned, I pretty much have the breasts of an 80 year old woman. And I still have a big old gut and butt. And, I am sporting a rather nasty wattle on my chin, making me look years older. Every day I put bio-oil on my chin hoping to moisturize and firm the loose skin, but it doesn't seem to be working that great. My body is definitely smaller than it was, but by no means is it a body I would be willing to parade a bathing suit around in!   But, all in all, I am totally thrilled with my sleeve and feeling better and more confident every day. I am really looking forward to the summer, when hopefully I will be down in the normal size clothes range, and will look and feel even better. I talked to my husband and we are going to try the couch to 5K program this spring, and sign up for a local 5K race this summer. That will be a HUGE NSV for me, to finish a 5K!   I am really excited about the future!
Kris

Kris

0
 

Three Weeks Post-Op

Well, I survived the liquids stage and on Friday 1/28 started on the mushies stage. I am SO HAPPY to be onto mushies now! I have learned that my new sleeve has more than enough restriction ... a 1/8 cup sized serving is all I can do in a 30 minute time frame ... in order to get enough calories I serve myself a 1/4 cup portion, eat half, take a break, and eat the other half ... takes about an hour or so. I have to remind myself to chew the food to smithereens and that is very different than how I ate before ... as well as put the spoon/fork down between bites and actually pause a bit between bites (never did that in my pre-op days!).   I have a feeling I'll be able to stay on mushies for at least 10 days with no trouble. I actually don't mind the consistency of food whizzed thru a blender so it doesn't bother me. I'm just thrilled to be able to CHEW again! It has been a challenge to not drink during mealtimes. I am so used to drinking while I eat that it's a tough habit to break. I find it hard to get all my liquids too. It's something I really need to concentrate on.       My first couple of days on mushies were very good scale-wise. I had a tremendous weight loss the first week (nearly 12 lbs, I recall) -- then the second week had a 3 day stall and only lost 3 lbs. Week 3 was even worse -- only a 2.5 lb. weight loss. I was beginning to despair of ever losing 20 - 25 lbs my first month, which was my goal. But since Friday I have dropped a couple of lbs. already and that is exciting. I now only have to lose 1 lb. to be equal to a 20 lb. weight loss since my last pre-op weigh-in and I still have a week to go before my month is up, so barring a horrible stall I should be able to meet my goal for my first month. My second goal is to be below 200 lbs. by Valentines Day -- that's achievable too, I think. I am at 205.5 lbs. today so still have 15 days to go to lose over 5.5 lbs.   I also noticed my energy level seems to be improving. It's the weekend so I slept in yesterday and today and that probably helped. I took a good walk today -- first in a couple of weeks, I'm ashamed to admit (but honestly at night after getting home from work, my energy level has been pretty low). I felt like I was walking at a pretty good clip, too, but not too fast. I am starting to notice it's easier to exercise ... I'm down over 25 lbs. since the beginning of December -- hard to believe!   My clothes are definitely getting looser. That is cool. Nearly my entire wardrobe is size 22W (2X - 3X -- I have consistently been that size for YEARS). I am hoping just to wear my clothes until they are literally ready to fall off and then hopefully will be able to skip right past size 20W and into size 18W (1X). I've got some good coupons for Macy's and Kohl's and hope to buy a few things in February to tide me over until the spring clothes start coming out in March and April.   When I look in the mirror I don't see much of a change. I know the scale and my clothes are telling me I've lost weight, but I can't see it really. I bumped into a friend I used to work with at Costco yesterday and she didn't comment that I looked like I've lost weight, so I think it's not really that apparent yet. Hopefully in a couple of months it will be really noticeable.   I have another couple of mini-goals that will come after getting to ONEderland. 1) Weigh less than my mom (she has been doing South Beach for a month and has lost nearly as much weight as me -- amazing!) by March 15th; and 2) weigh less than my non-overweight hubby by April 15th. Let's see how I do!
Kris

Kris

3
 

Three Month Surgiversary

I went to Orlando this week on a business trip and while I was on my trip I hit my 3 month surgiversary. I actually lost 1 lb. this week, which is awesome, considering I was eating out every meal (but on the other hand, I was doing a lot of walking around in the evenings, which I think helped offset the extra calories). I was really, really happy to be walking around with other people who are not obese and able to keep up with them pretty well -- something I could never do pre-surgery! As of today I am 188.8 lbs. I had set an ambitious Easter goal to be at 180 by Easter and I am sure I won't make it ... I am thinking I will be lucky to be below 185 by that date. But heck, that is still great! DH just went out for breakfast ... he is going to our local, amazing donut shop called Legendary Donuts (and they are incredibly great donuts). I passed on the trip (yay for me, little NSV right there!) -- I am having crackers with sunflower seed butter instead (not exactly the best breakfast, but way way better than a donut!). Fortunately, the idea of a donut is not nearly as tempting to me now as it used to be. My appetite for sweets still is nowhere near what it used to be prior to surgery. I do enjoy a bite or two of dessert on a periodic basis, but usually 2 bites is totally fine and I don't want or need any more. I saw a friend yesterday whom I hadn't seen since before surgery. The first thing she said to me was, "You've lost weight, haven't you? I can really notice! You look great!" That made me feel really great. I told her I had been sleeved and she surprised me and said her mom had the same procedure, and she was very supportive. I have been very open about telling people about getting sleeved and so far I have not had one negative comment. I know my friends and family were truly concerned about my weight before surgery, and they are really happy that I am losing weight. I figured if I ever get a snide comment about having surgery, I'll know that person really doesn't have my best interests at heart and I should be wary of them going forward. Other than that, there's not much to tell this week. Oh, one last thing ... I did splurge and spend $60 at Sephora yesterday and bought replacement Bare Escentuals makeup kit (the last time I bought some was at least 2 years ago and I was thinking it needed to be replaced). I do wear makeup now most days, and I have to admit it does make me feel like I look better. I don't mess with eye shadow but do use foundation, blush, and lipstick, and if I'm feeling very into it I'll put on eyeliner and a little mascara. I've been shopping a few times and am already coveting some of the really pretty spring dresses that are for sale. I think I may end up being a real girly-girl once I get into regular sizes again!
Kris

Kris

0
 

Summer Days

I am 164.4 lbs. this morning. I am nearly 70 lbs. lighter now than I was in the winter, and summer is much better without those extra pounds! I find I am far more active, and my energy level is far higher, than it was pre-surgery.   Yesterday morning was a perfect, sparkling summer morning. We have had a very cold year this year and most days this summer it has not gotten above the low 70's (and on many days temps didn't even get out of the 60's). But yesterday was the day everyone has been waiting for ... warmer, but not hot, and no hint of rain anywhere.   I am now in the habit of walking a 2.5 mile trail several times a week that has a big section of long, fairly steep hill. I did that walk yesterday, then went straight down to my community garden plot and did some weeding and garden chores for about 1.5 hours, then went home, changed, and went to the Puyallup farmer's market (it's fabulous!) with DH and had lunch (a few bites of kielbasa) and walked around to the vendors (bought lots of cherries, some garlic bulbs, and a pretty pink and white hydrangea). I would never have had the energy before surgery to do all those three things in one morning!   Other news ... I am in a class at work and one of the ladies in class with me who works in our office (though not directly with me) caught up with me during break and complimented me on how good I look. Then she asked me if I had had weight loss surgery, and I said I had (I decided long ago to be very upfront with everyone about my surgery, if anyone were to ask). She said that she had a gastric bypass back in 2004. I was surprised (she has worked in our office about 4 years, and the whole time she has been at a stable size/weight ... I am guessing she is about a size 10/12). We spent some time talking about WLS. She has done very well with managing her weight ... she lost about 80 lbs. with gastric bypass and has gained back about 10 lbs. in the past 7 years. She says she does still have to take the nutritional supplements regularly, and as a result of her surgery she is completely lactose intolerant and can't have any dairy or she has horrible side effects. She also has to really watch her sweets intake. She hadn't heard of the VSG procedure and once I described it to her she said she wished she could have gotten it ... but overall she looks great. I know I will need to be vigilant about not having weight re-gain once I hit my final stopping point, wherever that ends up being. I have 32 lbs. left to hit my goal ... hoping to get there by the end of the year. We'll see how I do!
Kris

Kris

0
 

Stuck in a Rut (Again)

No weight lost this week. I must be back into my non-weight-losing cycle. For the month I Iost 6.4 lbs. total -- URGH. I was hoping to lose 8 but it was not to be. At least it wasn't as bad as last month! My body definitely loses weight in phases ... a couple of weeks of good weight loss, then a stall or very low weight loss for a couple of weeks. I have a feeling that it's going to be this way for the rest of the time I am losing weight, though I suspect I may have longer stalls and shorter losing phases. I still have 33 lbs. to lose to get to goal. At the rate of 5 lbs. lost a month it will take me another six months (almost 7) to get to goal. Not that I am complaining ... to only have 33 lbs. to lose to get to goal is something I never could have achieved without being sleeved .... last year at this time I was in the mid/high 220s .... so I am down over 60 lbs. I am wearing a size 14/Large now ... normal clothes! I look and feel like a normal person again. And for that I am very thankful!   I have been doing well with exercising ... I walked 4 times this week (and would've done more, but was in a class at work and needed to get to work 45 minutes earlier than normal, so that really impacted my morning walks). I did some intervals on a couple of the days and on one day I really overdid the intervals (my thighs were really aching for a couple of days). Yesterday and today I did longer walks (since it's the weekend and I have more downtime).   I have not done well with eating this past week and I know that is contributing to the lack of weight loss. In class I would get bored, and eat mindlessly (and there was always food around ... though I tried to stick mostly to good stuff, like fruit or beef jerky, I did have some pretzels and rice chips and a handful of Reese's Pieces (bad me!!!). This week it's back to normal (except Tuesday, when there is a baby shower I will be attending, and most likely will indulge in a little piece of cake).   I have been thinking a lot about what I have been eating and I believe that I basically have been eating like someone in maintenance ... being mostly mindful of what I am eating, but still having treats here and there. This week I'm sure I ate least 1,000 calories a day, probably on a couple of days it was more like 1,300. My basal metabolism rate is 1,600 calories a day, so no wonder the weight is not coming off ... even with the exercise several days a week, I probably didn't burn too much extra. It kind of sucks to be such a petite woman! I don't have much room for error on the calorie side!   At the rate I am going with the weight loss, I think I may be cutting it super close again to making my Labor Day goal of 157 lbs. But hey, if I get out of the 160s before September, that will be really cool.
Kris

Kris

0
 

Slow Week

In my last blog posting I mentioned how my weight loss goes in cycles, and that has proved to be the case this week. After two weeks of good weight loss, this week I only lost 1 lb. -- I'm 172.8 today. I expect next week will be similar, and then hopefully the last 2 weeks of June will be another good weight loss cycle. I am 3.8 lbs. from my July 4th goal, and I think I can still make it, barring a stall.   I still have some of my old size 22/3X/2X clothes in my closet, but slowly but surely I am giving them away to Goodwill. I just filled another large bag with clothes to donate this morning and will drop them off today (and pop into the store to see if there's anything cute to buy). Some of the 1X clothes I bought in late March/April are definitely too big now ... that is a good feeling! Aside from my size 18 swimsuit (which I need because I am so darn busty), I am totally out of the plus sizes now.   My hair loss is definitely continuing, but not as bad as I had thought it would be. I have seen stories of women losing hair in handfuls, and I haven't experienced that ... I do shed hair for sure when I am washing my hair and styling it.   I have noticed time and time again that my sleeve now is just part of me ... my life is totally normal now, except I just can't eat as much food as I could before surgery. I am losing weight pretty effortlessly. I still have to battle the carb monster and not make stupid choices, but it's not nearly as hard now as it was before surgery to walk past the bakery section, or confine myself to two or three little bites of garlic bread with a meal instead of half a loaf, or to skip having lunch at fast food 3 or 4 days a week (though I do love me some Wendy's salads ... they make great salads, and they're pretty guilt free esp. since I have the half size salad, skip the cheese and have grilled chicken on the salad). A couple of times I have 'splurged' and ordered a hamburger and fries at a fast food joint, but I can only eat a few fries and really they don't feel that great in my sleeve, so it's not as tempting to eat them as it was pre-surgery. I do still love food, and I am actually glad about that, because good food is one of life's great pleasures. I just now have this wonderful, powerful tool, that helps me to enjoy the heck out of my food, in small quantities.   I have seen a lot of people losing incredible amounts of weight since being sleeved ... that's not me, but I am more than halfway to goal and not yet six months out. Next month will be my six month surgiversary and I hope to be 30-some-odd lbs. from my end goal weight. I don't exercise much (really my only exercise is gardening, which I do for several hours each weekend day and some evenings after work) so I know I would lose more if I were exercising more ... now that the weather is getting really decent, I will be bumping up my exercising more. I really do need to work on toning, as my loose skin is yucky (but not as bad as fat!).   So ... off to the garden now. I am going to be having some wonderful salads this year. I have two pet rabbits and DH and I make them a big salad every night for dinner (veg and little bits of fruit only, of course, no dressings or nuts or croutons or such) ... and every time I make a bunny salad I'm like, "Yum, I want to eat this too!" My dinners most summers are going to be salad with some grilled meat or fish ... YUM!!!!
Kris

Kris

0
 

Six Month Surgiversary

I just got home from Maui last night and was really interested to see what the scale would tell me.  During vacation I decided to not put any limits on what I ate or drank, so had many treats over the course of six days ... I really enjoyed my food at Maui, but restriction kept me in good control of caloric intake.  Plus, we were pretty active ... lots of swimming, snorkeling, and walking around in the warm Hawaaiian sun.  So I figured the activity would counteract the splurges at the table.   So ... my final weigh in was on July 5th (the morning we left for Maui) and I was 169.6 (just barely missed my July 4th goal of 169.0).  Today I got on the scale, and O Happy Day, it said I weigh 167.2 -- a loss of 2.4 lbs.!  Yay!  That was a happy moment for me!     I had a couple of NSVs this week too.  The biggest one was how easily I now fit in a plane seat.  I used to hate and dread flying, because I would overflow the seat and could barely close the seat belt, but now I have no problems at all with the plane seat or seat belt.  That felt great!  The second NSV came this morning -- my hubby went out to get the mail and saw one of our neighbors, who told him, "Your wife is the incredible shrinking woman!"  LOL!  I am now wearing a size 14 (or women's Large) and that is so cool!     Life is really great with my sleeve!  
Kris

Kris

4
 

Shopping for Clothes at Costco!

OK, confession time -- I love a good bargain and I lurrrve me some Costco -- even though DH and I have no kids and don't run a business, we spend quite a lot of $ there -- they have so many good quality things, and such great prices. One of the things that always made me sad about being a size 22 was I could never ever buy any clothes at Costco (the highest size they typically go on women's clothes is size 16 and occasionally size 18). So now, I can officially buy clothes from Costco! Woot! I bought a pair of size 16 Dockers capris and a pair of shorts on Friday. Costco doesn't have a dressing room, so it's always a risk when you're not sure what size you wear. But, the clothes are cheap (esp compared to dept. stores) and I figured what the hey, buy some size 16s and see if they fit. I am still in the phase of picking up a pair of size 16s and thinking there is NO WAY these will fit (my brain still thinks I wear size 22), and then pulling them up and finding they do fit. The dockers are cut differently than other clothes -- the waist is actually loose, the hips/butt are fine, the legs are not as loose as the waist and truthfully I would be happier if they were a little looser -- but overall, I would still wear them now for sure (if the weather wasn't so dismal here -- still chilly and today it's very gloomy). I also bought a size 16 swimsuit ($20 for a speedo, score!) but haven't worked up the courage to try that on because I am afraid of how I will look in a swimsuit. I am still bigger on the top than on the bottom so that should be interesting!   I am 175.4 today, only have to lose 6.4 lbs. by July 4th to hit my goal of being under 170 for the vacation to Hawaii. I really hope I can get there! It was kind of a crazy month in my weight loss journey -- May started off great, then I had a big lull in the middle where nothing much happened, then I had a good week this week. I am hopeful to end up with an 8 lb. loss, which is what I've had each of the past 2 months -- if not the full 8 lbs. I should be close (I think I need to lose slightly under 1 lb. to get there, and I'll be doing some physical labor today, which should help with the calorie burn).   My BMI is getting ever closer to the 30 mark, and boy oh boy I can't wait until my BMI puts me at merely "overweight" instead of "obese!" (When I weigh 159 I will be officially below a 30 BMI). That will be a great day to celebrate on my weight loss journey -- of course, at the rate I am going, that won't be until the end of July or maybe early August, so it's not imminent -- but that will be my next major progress goal.
Kris

Kris

0
 

Road Trip

One of my best friends has moved from the DC area to here (Seattle area) this past week. She drove herself halfway across the country and I flew to Sioux Falls SD on Tuesday 8/16 to meet her and road trip with her the rest of the way. We drove about 550 miles each day and travelled through five states (South Dakota, Wyoming, Montana, Idaho, and Washington). Of course, good food is always an integral part of a fun road trip, and we had our share of good food along the way. We had a couple of truly memorable meals (Silk Road for dinner in Missoula, MT, and Gordy's Sichuan Cafe for lunch in Spokane, WA), as well as a variety of munchies to nibble on during the long drives between stops. With long drives (very little exercise) and more food than I normally eat, needless to say I was not expecting to lose any weight -- particularly since I have again been in a several week long virtual weight loss stall. Yesterday was also a big eating out day -- my friend and I had lunch at a local Mexican restaurant, then met my mom a few hours later for afternoon tea (I had about half a scone and a little shortbread cookie, with some delicious peach-apricot tea), and then a few hours after that DH and I went out to a fantastic Vietnamese restaurant we'd never tried before and I had a variety of delicious bites. So, with all this eating out and road trip munching I've been doing, it was a really pleasant surprise to see I've lost .4 lbs. this week (nothing to brag about for sure, but to be lower than last week, with all the food, that was cool). Of course I have been pondering the paradox of eating more and losing weight. I do think maybe when we are on such a generally low-cal diet, it's probably a good thing once in a while to increase the calorie uptake to shake up the body chemistry a bit. I am wondering if maybe my body is starting to really hoard fat .... I keep thinking to myself that the "easy" weight loss is over, and I really do have to work harder to lose every pound now. I was losing 8 lbs. a month like clockwork w/o exercising, but once I hit the five month mark my weight loss started really slowing down, and I've been exercising regularly (4 days a week) ever since June and still not losing 8 lbs. a month anymore. I do know that at my current height/weight/age/activity level my body needs about 2,000 calories a day to just to maintain, and even on my worst eating days ever I know I have not ever eaten that many calories. Most days I am eating around 1000 calories -- even yesterday, with all that food (and yesterday was a huge eating day for me) I am sure I didn't even get to 1,500 calories -- so it is a mystery why I am not losing more weight (should be losing 2 lbs. a week). It is something to ponder for sure. I am exactly 30 lbs. from my goal weight now (I weigh 162 and my goal is 132). As I mentioned, my weight loss this month has been dismal. I still have 5 lbs. to lose for my Labor Day goal and am not so optimistic I will hit it. I am also 3 lbs. from having a BMI of under 30 and it seems like I will NEVER get there ... but I've been in this spot before, and eventually the weight does come off and then I'm onto the next goal. I had a great walk this morning and am now headed out to the garden to work for an hour or so. I hope that when I check in here next week I will be able to say I am closer to my Labor Day goal!
Kris

Kris

0
 

Return of the Dreadful Auntie Flo

Sigh -- I knew it had to happen at some point, and it did. After a nice 3 month hiatus of no periods, Auntie Flo made a return visit this weekend. And she is back with a VENGEANCE. I don't think I've had a cycle this bad in quite a long while. But, OTOH, and I a bit reassured that my body is really recovered from the surgery, and all systems are back on track.   So this week I've lost a bit more than 1 lb. (1.2 lb to be precise). Considering Auntie F's visit, I take that as a good sign.   Today it was a splendid spring day, and I spent hours at my community garden plot, doing a lot of physical labor (hauling many wheelbarrows full of compost, steer manure, and leaf mold, and filling several raised beds; planting potatoes and strawberries, and shoveling compost from one pile to another. I never realize how much work I've done until I get home, get showered, and get dressed, and then the aches and pains really make themselves known. I am really glad it's spring because most of the exercise I get is relating to gardening, and during the winter I don't do much in the way of physical activity. So I hope the scale is kind to me next week when I weigh in.   Next week is Easter and I definitely will not make my Easter challenge goal of 180 lbs. I am hoping to get below 186. 185 would be awesome. I am pretty much in the slow loser camp, but as long as the lbs. keep coming off I am OK with that.   Let's see, what else? The size 18 jeans and size 1X tops I've been wearing the past couple of months are slowly but surely getting looser. I think once I get into the 170s I should be comfortably wearing size 16. That should happen sometime in May ... mid to late May. I really can't wait to see a a number in the 170s on the scale!   I have a dr. appointment for May 6th and will be getting a checkup and a blood test as part of my follow up from surgery. I never told my primary care physician that I was having surgery (I had asked her about weight loss surgery a couple of years ago and she basically blew me off, so I figured she wouldn't care or might even be actively against me having surgery). I am hoping when she sees the difference in my weight, blood pressure, etc., she will be fine with it, and really if she isn't fine with it I'm going to find another physician (I belong to an *** so it's actually kind of rare to keep a long term relationship with the same doctor).   Oh, and I had to have a mammogram on Friday. Very, very embarrassing. My girls are like giant sloshy half filled water balloons. The only good thing was the discomfort in having the actual mammogram was far less than last year. I did tell the dr. I had weight loss surgery and had lost over 40 lbs. since my previous mammogram, and she seemed very pleased about that and noted it in the file, since I am sure there will be changes in how my breasts look from last year. I know it's a long deflation process with my ta-tas, and I am 99.9% sure I will need to be getting a breast reduction/lift once I am done losing weight, because I don't want to look like a cow with huge udders when this is all over!   Let's see, what else. I have *horrible* turkey neck, it's getting worse instead of better. I know it's because I am losing weight, but still, it's awful. I slather expensive lotions on my neck but so far no joy. I also am getting nasty loose skin in my upper arms, near my armpits. I am beginning to look like a human shar-pei, as a matter of fact.   But -- my energy level is good, and I am still so happy with my sleeve and the fairly effortless weight loss I am experiencing. I am going to have a great year this year!
Kris

Kris

0
 

Non-Scale Goals

I am definitely below BMI of 30 now, which means I am no longer obese! Today I weighed in at 157.4. I have set a Halloween goal to be 149 and it will be a tough challenge, given how slow my weight loss is now ... but, to be positive, I am still losing weight. When I go to update my weight in my ticker, the chart shows steady downwards progress. I am most definitely not a fast or even an average loser at this stage ... I've been losing about 5 lbs. a month the past couple of months, and that is with fairly vigorous exercise on a regular basis (3-4 days a week). I am just getting all that weight stuff out of the way because what I really want to focus in on today is talking about non-scale goals. When I first started setting weight loss goals just prior to surgery, I had identified weight loss and non-weight loss goals. Some of the things I really wanted to do were to go swimming again (preferably in the ocean), inner tube down a river, go hiking, and inner tube (sled) down a mountain in winter. I have done the swimming and inner tubing, and this weekend bought my first pair of hiking boots and went on an easy (paved trail) hike with my hubby yesterday ... so I am hitting my non-scale goals! DH is very pleased with how interested I am getting in activities. Before surgery I would never do anything active because it was just too hard, physically, to do things. Now that I have lost over 70 lbs., I have far more energy and stamina to do things, and now I want to do them. I did some clothes shopping yesterday ... I am 99% sure I will end up as a size medium (8-10) and right now I am wearing a size 12 (yay!). It was kind of a thrill to try on some Petite Large size tops and see they were loose fitting! So, I bought a bunch of clothes that are size M and they are a little form-fitting now, but I know in the next couple of months they will fit better. For now, I can layer the tighter fitting shirts under other shirts or jackets, and it doesn't look that bad. I definitely need to work on strength training, and I will hit the gym once or twice this week to get started on that. I have a lot of flab on my arms and belly (yuck) and hope to tone those areas up over the coming months. I also did some "maintenance" activities yesterday ... got a slightly new hairstyle, had a pedicure and had my eyebrows waxed .... we are definitely into fall here in the Seattle area (first real rains have come this weekend, and it has been markedly cooler the past few days), so in honor of the change in season I am sprucing myself up some.
Kris

Kris

0
 

NO LONGER OBESE (For a Day)/Cracked the 150s!

First the bad news (to get it out of the way): I did not hit my Labor Day goal of 157 lbs ... today (Labor Day) I weigh 159.6. But here is the good news: I am no longer in the 160's! YAY!!!! On Saturday my weight was 158.8 and on that day I officially was considered no longer obese ... alas, my weight popped up again over 159 today (not sure why the scale does this to me, but c'est la vie) so I am still considered obese (but just barely ... my BMI is 30.2). But I am still really excited to be in the 150s ... haven't been here in 15 years!! I swore to my journal today that I will do EVERYTHING in my power to NEVER get above the 150s again the rest of my life. And I mean it, too! I just came off a lovely walk this morning ... we are having incredible weather here in the Pacific NW right now ... it is so gorgeous outside I almost want to weep. In a few weeks the rains will come again, but for now it is heaven on earth and there is nowhere in the whole world I would rather be than here. Between me hitting a big scale victory, the beautiful weather, and a long holiday weekend, I have to say my life is just about perfect!   I am a gardener and have spent a lot of time this weekend in my backyard garden and my community garden plot. I have grown a lot of veggies and flowers and am harvesting them now ... loads of green beans, cherry tomatoes (and my first batch of roma tomatoes), potatoes (which I have mostly been giving away to potato-loving friends and family), and dahlias (they make me so happy!). The farmer's market is overflowing with beautiful produce too. Consequently, I spent much of my day yesterday in the kitchen. I made a fresh batch of refrigerator dilly green beans (so yummy -- forget about pickles, I like these way better, and you can eat mounds of them for almost zero calories). I also made a batch of "Jumbleberry" freezer jam (a mix of strawberries, blueberries, and raspberries) -- OMG homemade freezer jam is incredibly yummy -- on the weekends I splurge and have an English muffin w/a little butter and a spoonful of homemade jam and almost swoon over how good it is. And, I also made an amazing snack dip (Barefoot Contessa's Roasted Eggplant & Pepper dip) which I am bringing over to a friend's house today to snack on with some Stacy's pita chips (tasty, healthy snack! Yum!). Eating all this amazing garden-fresh food makes me feel very in touch with my sleeve, and I am happy that I am giving my body good nutrition with healthy and fresh foods. i was not one of those sleevers who lost their appetite after surgery ... au contraire, I have had a healthy appetite since nearly day one post-op. I still LOVE food and the best thing about the sleeve is that I can still enjoy food, but in reasonable quantities, and it makes me so much more mindful of food than I was before surgery. I did a lot of mindless eating before surgery and I was a really fast eater. I do struggle with myself more than I would care to admit about still eating too fast ... especially when there is a really great meal before me ... I can easily eat 3-5 bites really fast and then say to myself, "Stop! You only have a few bites left now!!!!" and then I have to stop and wait for a while before eating again. This is a big challenge for me. Also, I definitely have validated what Dr. Aceves told me before surgery, which is that you can defeat your sleeve if you want to -- I can eat a lot more by spacing out the food intake over a few hours, and I have to admit I have done this more than I should. I just know this is something I am going to have to battle with myself to not do on a regular basis. This is a habit I do NOT want to get into! But overall -- it is the happiest Labor Day weekend I have had in many years. I hope yours is/was fabulous too!
Kris

Kris

0
 

Nine Month Surgiversary & A Couple of Big Breakthroughs

Today is my nine month surgiversary. I weigh 154.2 lbs. I am down just over 73 lbs. from my surgery date -- an average of a little over 8 lbs. a month weight loss since surgery. My weight loss has really slowed down but the pounds are still coming off -- in fact, this week I had one of my best weeks of weight loss since having surgery. I haven't blogged for a couple of weeks because I have been upset with myself over my slow weight loss the past 3 months. Last month I only lost 3 lbs. TOTAL. Very disappointing because I am still over 20 lbs. to my goal weight. I had stepped up my exercising (walking-running 4-5 days a week) but my eating was not good. I was a grazer before surgery and gradually I have become a grazer again -- NOT GOOD. I had a couple of big breakthroughs this week. First of all, I realized that my innocent little afternoon snacks had turned into all-afternoon-long grazing, and I knew it wasn't really hunger-based -- I mostly snacked at work, and I have a fairly stressful job, so it was pretty obvious my snacking at work was emotional eating. At the encouragement of a friend, a few months ago I had bought Geneen Roth's book, Women, Food & God. However, I had never read it (for whatever reason, I was not open to whatever message was in the book). So, last weekend, I decided to read it and see if there was any help in there for me. Let me just say, if you have issues with emotional eating that you are still struggling with (no matter where you are in your weight loss journey), this book may be a real help to you. I had several insights into why I was doing what I was doing with food. In a nutshell, to me food has been (for most of my life) the equivalent of a toddler's "blankie" -- it has been my security blanket, the thing that brings me comfort in the midst of chaos, stress, boredom, happiness, sadness, anger -- pretty much ANY emotion. I am by nature an introvert and a sensitive, "feeling" person (if you are familiar with Myers-Briggs, I am an INFP). This combo is, I think, probably one of the worst possible combos when it comes to emotional eating, because 1) as an introvert I don't often say what's on my mind -- I keep it to myself, but therefore don't release emotions through words like extraverts do; 2) I am intuitive, which means I can pick up on other people's energy and emotions; and 3) I am a very feeling person, which means when someone I care about is having a tough time, I really do feel their angst, I absorb that energy. So .... with that combo, I have all these powerful emotions swirling around inside me all the time, and never found a good way to release them, so turned to my security blankie -- food -- to help me deal with them. I learned a couple of very powerful (and some would say obvious -- but to me they weren't obvious) techniques for dealing with my emotional eating. First of all, at work whenever I wanted to eat a snack I would stop and ask myself if I was really hungry. Mostly I wasn't hungry. My snacking dropped dramatically. I still do have one afternoon snack, but that's different from grazing. The second technique I tried that worked well is, when I was really having a mental battle (asking myself, "Kris, are you really hungry," and getting the answer back, "F-YOU, I don't care if I am hungry or not, I just want the FOOD! Hand over the pretzel crisps RIGHT NOW!!!") I got myself up away from my desk and walked somewhere to talk to someone (no shortage of people to talk to at my office) and that works too. It would break the pattern. That is what I really need to do -- break my grazing pattern. The other thing I did this week was to try some new exercise routines. Now that the weather is turning to the rainy season (which here in Seattle lasts oh about 9 months), and the days are getting dramatically shorter (we are far north), it's no longer fun to go outside to exercise. I have a couple of Leslie Sansone Walk at Home DVDs (from pre-surgery) and started doing them again. I like her a lot. I also started going to a zumba class at the fitness center at work (class is held one day a week). The zumba class is a lot of fun, but frankly, I am very uncoordinated so I spend most of the class getting the steps wrong and feeling like a fool (fortunately, it is a small class and I am friends with several gals, and we just laugh at ourselves and don't take it too seriously). I also had heard that kettlebells are an awesome tool to help quickly tone and build muscle, so got on amazon.com and ordered "Kettlenetics" which is an exercise DVD that comes w/a 4 lb. kettlebell. I received the package 2 days ago and did the routines. WOW, that workout made me feel every muscle in my body! I just finished the cardio video and was drenched in sweat. I love that workout because it really made me push beyond what I thought I could do. Frankly, while I was pushing myself on my walk-run exercising, I wasn't exercising nearly as many muscles and I really do need to be toning now (got some bat wings, have a little pouch, have jiggly thighs, etc.). Between the less snacking and new exercising, this week I lost 3.6 lbs -- more than I lost the ENTIRE MONTH of September! SWEET!!!! Even sweeter because Auntie Flo made a surprise visit yesterday (hadn't seen or heard from her in about 3 months, so it caught me off guard), and usually when I get visits from Flo it means slow weight loss. I have set a Halloween goal to be 149 lbs. Until this week I was really despairing that I would even get to 155 before Halloween, so this week has been fantastic for me ... I only have 5 lbs. to lose to hit that goal, and hopefully this new kettlenetics workout will help me continue to have good weight loss, muscle toning, and hitting my progress goals.
Kris

Kris

2
 

New Blog

I've created a new blog to chronicle my weight loss journey, so this will be my last blog post here on verticalsleevetalk. My new blog is called curvygirlwellness@blogspot.com. I hope you can visit it and share your thoughts/feedback!
Kris

Kris

0
 

Nearly Stalled

You know that saying, be careful what you ask for because you just might get it? Well, lo and behold, that has happened to me as far as my weight loss is concerned. Back before surgery I had submitted a post here on VSG asking had anyone deliberately eaten more calories in order to have a slower weight loss, so the skin could catch up as the weight loss happened. I got numerous responses, nearly all of which were to the effect of, why the heck would you want to have surgery in order to deliberately slow down your weight loss? And also people pointed out your skin will do what it wants to do, whether you lose fast or slow. I was suitably chastened because of course my VSG friends were correct about that. HOWEVER, I needn't have worried about having super fast weight loss. I am losing weight nice and slow and steady, not by design but just cause my bod wants to. This week I am down only .6 lbs. for the week. Nearly stalled. This happens nearly every month but for some reason only losing less than 1 lb. feels like a total failure. I have not been eating any better or worse than usual, but my body is holding on to the weight right now. However, I can't complain that much because I am really bad about not exercising. Every week I say this will be the week it changes, and then I don't do anything different. I do work in the garden on the weekends, but very little in the way of exercise from Mon-Fri. I am sure that is hurting my weight loss. I tried on the size 18 bathing suit this weekend ... ruh roh Scooby Doo. My girls are totally overflowing the size 18 top too. Even worse, the laws of gravity are telling the girls to just hang where they want, which is not in the cups of the swim top, so as a result they keep slipping out of the swim top and below the bra area and it looks like I am deformed. So, my swimsuit purchases so far have been a total fail. My girls are so saggy and just shall I say gross .... I hate them, hate them, HATE THEM. The swim skirt on the size 18 swimsuit is a little loose; it should really be a size 16. So I have a minor disaster on my hands ... a top that is too small and a bottom that is a little loose. So much for the great deal on a bathing suit ... I am going to order some swim separates from Lands End today (plus size top, regular size bottoms). And I know for sure next year I am either going to appeal for breast reduction surgery at my *** or am going back to Mexico to get a breast reduction/lift. I want a total do-over on my girls. Speaking of saggy, I could say that about my whole dadgum body. Upper arms are saggy; my thighs are a freaking cottage cheese filled saggy DISASTER, and of course the aforementioned low rider girls. Now here I am bitching about my saggy skin, but of course in reality I am in a weird way very thankful to have this saggy skin, because it means I have lost a whole lot of excess weight. When I am wearing clothes that cover my upper arms and thighs, I feel like I look fine -- a little heavy, but normal heavy, not remarkably heavy as I was before surgery. Blah, blah, blah. I am hoping next week when I post I will have a lovely number to report, something between 170 and 171. Now off to the garden with my saggy skin self and burn some calories.
Kris

Kris

2
 

MEDIUM!!!!!

My weight today is 160.8 and my BMI is 30.4. So, I am really close to getting below the BMI of 30. My Labor Day goal of 157 lbs. is not going to happen (obviously -- no way in the world can I lose 3.8 lbs in 8 days) but I have a fair shot of getting into the 150s and hitting that major goal of below 30 BMI. But now -- here is my happy story for the month. I haven't been clothes shopping since the beginning of July and went shopping yesterday at Kohls. I tried on a mix of sizes (mostly 14/Large and some 12/Medium just for kicks, to see how far I am from a size 12). Wow, it was exciting! The size Ls and 14s are now almost all too large. I bought a couple of lightweight jackets (one twill, one denim) for fall and they fit fine and they were size MEDIUM! So excited I must say it again -- MEDIUM, people!!!! I was absolutely giddy in the dressing room when I tried on those jackets and saw that they fit. I am still maybe 7 or 8 lbs. from being able to comfortably fit in a size 12 across the board -- so probably won't comfortably be in a size 12 until sometime in October. I still have big arms and a fatty little apron in my lower belly, so while size 14 is loose, size 12 is either very form fitting or a little tight in the arms and sometimes (depending on the cut of the pants/skirt) in the belly. I wasn't wearing shapewear undies when trying on clothes and am pretty sure that would make a difference, at least not make my lower abdomen look so bulky. It is kind of a problem, though -- I was reluctant to buy anything in size 14 because in a few weeks it will be too big, but a size 12 is a little tight right now. But heck, what a fantastic problem to have! In reality, I don't think I will ever be less than a size Medium. I am hoping that I will eventually be on the small end of Medium (so that all my size Ms are comfortably loose). The way my weight loss has been going lately, I am thinking that by the end of the year, I will probably end up a size 10 and probably end up somewhere in the 140s (maybe I will hit the 130s but that would be highly unlikely). Since the beginning of July I have only lost 10 lbs., so I am losing about 5 lbs. a month on average now -- pretty gradual weight loss. I can only assume my weight loss the rest of my journey will never be higher than what it has been the past 2 months, and is in fact going to be slower as I get closer to my goal weight, so I am 99.9% certain I will not hit my ultimate goal weight this year. I may be able to hit it next year ... not sure where my body will eventually say, "That's it, girlie, you're done losing weight!" But at my very lowest weight/size ever as an adult (when I was in my mid 20s, ate a strict 1,400 calorie a day diet, and ran 15 miles a week plus did lots of toning exercises) I was in the low-mid 130s and wore a size 8/10 in everything. My ultimate goal is to get to 132 and be back in my size 8/10s but part of me is not sure that will ever happen. To be perfectly honest, I am definitely eating and behaving more like someone who is in maintenance than someone who is trying to lose weight, and my slower weight loss is definitely a reflection of that. Every day I make choices about how fast I want to lose weight by choosing what I put in my mouth and what I do with my body. I really need to be thinking a lot about that.
Kris

Kris

3
 

Major NSV -- I Now Weigh Less Than My Hubby!

Lots to talk about this week. My 6 month surgiversary is in 4 days. As of today, I weigh 170.4 lbs.; my 4th of July goal was to get to 169 lbs. so it is coming right down to the wire. I am hoping to be under 170 lbs. tomorrow ... maybe not 169.0 but somewhere between that and 170.0.   When I had my surgery, I set several VSG progress goals on my weight loss journey. There were three progress goals in particular that were really meaningful to me -- first, to get into ONEderland; second, to weigh less than my husband; and third, to have a BMI of less than 30 (therefore no longer being considered officially obese). I hit my first goal the month after getting sleeved, and just hit my second goal today. When I saw my weight being right near 170 lbs. this morning, I knew I was very close to my husband's weight. I called DH into the bathroom, asked him to strip down to his skivvies (since I weighed in wearing only my skivvies), and get on the scale. Ta da -- he weighs 172.8, so I weigh 2.4 lbs. less than him! Woo hoo!   June was a very tough month for me on the weight loss front. I was in a virtual stall for 3 weeks, and started eating really badly out of frustration. I hadn't been exercising, and started doing that last weekend. I really got into exercising this past week, and it definitely helped ... I dropped nearly 2 lbs. this week, even with a visit from Auntie Flo (which, when I think about it, probably also explains a bit why I went a little crazy with junk eating last week ... raging hormones + frustration = BAD NEWS).   I have exercised a lot this week ... did a fairly tough 2.5 mile trail walk 5 times (including this morning). I've been getting up a bit earlier and walking before going to work, and it also helps me come to work with more energy and focus. I haven't been exercising really (except for gardening on the weekends) so I have been pleasantly surprised how much I like it. It is SO much easier and pleasant to exercise when I don't have as much excess weight to carry around. Each day I try to do a little bit more ... challenging myself every time. I am feeling good about exercising and wish I had started doing it much sooner (no doubt I would be much closer to my ultimate goal if I had started exercising 5 days a week a few months ago!).   DH and I are having or 15th wedding anniversary this week and are celebrating it by taking a trip to Maui. I plan to spend a lot of time in the water (we have two snorkeling trips already booked) and am hoping that a week of downtime, and lots of fun exercise, means a nice surprise for me on the scale when I return from my trip.  
Kris

Kris

2
 

Mad @ Myself & Doing Something About It

Excuse my bad language, but I had a total craptastic week on the weight loss front. I am only down .2 lbs. since last Sunday (172.0 today) -- awful. But even worse, this time I can't blame my bad week on my body holding on to weight -- this week it's my own fault I haven't lost weight. My eating this week has been the worst ever since getting sleeved. I've partaken of donuts, cupcakes, crackers, and rice chips -- all that junk food, ugh. I have been frustrated with not losing weight so I have fallen into my very bad pattern of dealing with frustration by eating junk.   However, I will say, I am owning my bad behavior, and this morning I did something about it. I got up out of bed, got on my walking shoes, and did a killer one hour walk on a trail near my house (which has a monster hill that goes a mile and several hundred feet in elevation). Yah, baby! THAT'S the way to deal with frustration -- not putting crap food into my mouth, but doing something healthy and (dare I say) fun.   I was SO proud of myself doing this walk today. I had walked on that trail a few times before surgery (when I was 220 lbs.+) and it darn near killed me. On the hill part, I would have to take it in sections, like walk 100 yards, suck wind really hard until I felt like my heart wasn't going to explode out of my chest, and then walk another 100 yards, until I got up that hill. Today was the first time I have walked that trail since surgery, and man what a difference losing 60 lbs. makes. The hill starts out gradually, then gets really steep for a while. Once I got to the steep part, I could feel my heart get going faster, and I was thinking, "Oh boy, I am going to have to stop soon," but I decided to just keep going until I couldn't take it anymore ... and lo and behold, I never had to stop ... it did get tough at some points, but I just kept walking. To me this is a MAJOR NSV because I can do something now with relative ease that I would have keeled over dead trying to do pre-surgery. Another thing that was really cool was that my husband did the same walk as me, but he used the reverse course, so we passed each other halfway. He made it home before me (he is not fat) but when I walked in the front door his first words to me were, "You're home already! I am really impressed! I just got home a few minutes ago myself!" Yay!!!! And you know, right now, as I am writing this, I am eating a lovely breakfast of cold watermelon and feeling darn good. My energy level is really good. My legs are a little sore from walking but nothing major -- it's a good kind of sore that tells me I challenged myself and did good.   So anyway, some key lessons learned this week are that I still obviously emotional eating issues; but I can do something about it and deal with my emotions in a healthier way.   My 4th of July goal was to get to 169 and I am 3 lbs. away from that goal. I am going to do that hill walk every day this week, by gum, and see if I can get to that goal. I was doing so great earlier in the month and thought I had that goal in the bag ... but now I am really going to have to fight for it. And I AM going to fight for it!
Kris

Kris

2
 

Last Day of Recuperation at Home

I took a week and a half off from work to have surgery and recuperate. Tomorrow is my first day back to work. Part of me is excited (it gets a little boring at times to be at home) and part is dreading it (my energy level today is OK, but this morning by the time I was done showering, dressing, and making the bed I was ready to rest a while! Tomorrow, no such luck. I might try to get up earlier just in case I need to rest a while before going to work, so I won't be late getting in. I promise myself if I really can't do a full day of work I will take part of the day off until I am ready for a full day. But I will enjoy seeing people at work again, and getting back into the groove.   I had my first walk yesterday ... just up to the local park and back, probably just shy of a mile. It was a little too much ... I really noticed my abdominal muscles and my incisions once I got home. But it did feel good to move a bit. Today I will take another walk, but just half as long as yesterday.   I have to say that is one characteristic I really notice in myself. I tend to try to overdo things when I ought to be content to under-do (or more accurately, do the appropriate amount). Could've taken 2 weeks off, but no, I wanted to be macho and get back to work earlier .... I could've walked 10 minutes, but no, I had to go 20 minutes right out the gate. Dumb. It is really something I need to work on. Better to under-commit and deliver easily than overcommit and feel like crap getting it done .... I always find a way to get it done, but usually it costs me ... sigh. I wonder if this is because I have low self esteem and have to overcommit to people to "prove" to them that I am worthy. Enough truth in that observation to sting, for sure. It's something to think about. I know my weight issues are not stand-alone, they are part of a complex web of emotions and self-talk and self-perception. While I am on my weight loss journey I also want/need to be on an honest self-exploration journey too. I don't want to end up at my weight loss goal only to find myself overweight again a few years later, and that will happen if I don't deal with my emotional/mental issues as well as dealing with what I put in my mouth and how I move my body.   Well, on more cheerful news, the scale told me this morning I am down to 211. I am so happy about that! I had surgery 11 days ago and have lost 13.5 lbs. -- a little more than 1 lb. lost a day. I don't think this is sustainable for long but for now it feels really good. When I look in the mirror I don't see much change, but because I am so big it will take a while to see change.   I can't wait to get to ONEderland and hope/expect that will be sometime in February (if it happens in January, I will be over the moon with joy -- but with only 2 weeks left in January I would have to keep losing nearly 1 lb. a day in order to hit that, and I don't want my hopes dashed if I have a stall, which is very common around the 2nd or 3rd week after surgery). So my mini-goal is ONEderland by Valentine's Day. I am sure I can meet this goal!
Kris

Kris

0
 

Fourth Week Surgiversary -- Carbs & Fluids Issues

So I am now in my fourth week post-op, On Monday I am officially through with the mushies stage and can start solids. I actually have been happy with mushies and might continue longer especially if I have a hard time with solid meats. Weight loss -- another disappointing week. 2.5 lbs. down from last week and all of that was in the first few days of the week. For the last four days or so I've been bouncing around from a low of 204.0 to a high of 205.5. Exasperating. I am SO CLOSE to ONEderland and feeling like it's not going to happen. I wanted to be there by Valentine's Day but at the rate I've been going it's not going to happen until the middle of February. Two things I know I am not doing right are 1) not getting enough fluids each day and 2) more carbs than I should be eating. I'm mad at myself about both. Oh, add 3) not exercising regularly. As far as fluids goes, most days I am getting around 40 - 44 oz fluids and I know that is not enough! I just have to really buckle down on this and force myself to drink more -- drink almost constantly. I am pretty sure at least part of the reason why I haven't lost more is because I'm not taking in enough fluids. Re 2) carbs -- I have been using club crackers and baked lentil crackers as a mushy delivery system from bowl/plate to mouth -- usually less than a full serving but adds another 80 - 100 calories to each meal when I eat them (but to be fair ... the meat side is usually about 150 calories or less anyway, so most days I am getting 600 calories or less total, even with the crackers. Yes, I am rationalizing!) I also caved and bought some carby snacks from Costco (baked Lays snack bag collection and Riceworks Spicy Chili brown rice crackers). I have had one bag of baked Lays and then yesterday caved and opened the bag of the Riceworks crackers and had a good full serving of those. I KNOW this is bad for my weight loss .... I think it might be a little PMSing. And honestly, I have missed carbs and I this is a bad, slippery slope I'm on! Re 3) exercise, I only exercised once this week (last Sun) but as soon as I finish this blog post I am going with DH to the local fitness center (where we have a membership that we have paid every month for a long time but haven't used in nearly as long) and hop on the treadmill. I'm going to start out taking it easy and hopefully build up back to where I was last spring (when we stopped going). DH and I will have to start going regularly after work a couple of nights a week. If I can exercise 3 days a week for a consistent period of time I'll be happy and then try to gradually bump it up. On the bright side, I did officially get to 20 lbs. weight loss since surgery, and am pretty sure I will be there (or hopefully a little better) on my one month surgiversary. I have about 80 lbs. to lose to get to goal weight ... from where I am today it seems SO far away. I was really hoping to lose 25 lbs. in my first month but it looks like that just is not to be. I am envious of fast losers. And a little mad at myself that I am not doing everything right to help myself get there. Oh -- also it's been quite the challenge to eat meals with DH. Last night we went to our neighborhood Mexican restaurant and I ordered my own dinner (knowing I would only make a small dent in it) -- mole enchiladas filled with ground beef and refried beans on the side. Man it was good, and everything mushed up very nicely, but it was ridiculous looking at the platter when I was done with my 4-5 bites (it was like this tiny divot of food missing out of an otherwise full plate). DH said, "They're going to think you don't like it," but I asked for a to-go box and filled it up and will be eating the same meal for the next 3 days I think. Luckily for me, I don't mind eating leftovers repeatedly! When we are at home, it's just SO WEIRD to eat such a tiny amount and at a snail's pace while DH eats at a normal/fast pace ... I end up abandoning half my dinner at the time he's done, and then waiting an hour or so, and then finishing it off on my own. I am still glad I got this surgery -- 20 lbs. lost in a month is by far the most I've ever lost in such a short time. And I do hope I can maintain a 2.5 lb. weight loss each month from here on out -- that will work out to about 10 lbs. lost per month and at that rate I will be at or near goal by late summer. Gotta go to the gym!
Kris

Kris

0
Sign in to follow this  
Followers 0

PatchAid Vitamin Patches

Bariatric Forums

For Patients

Health Professionals

Search Surgeons

Bariatric Surgeons: Want to research a weight loss surgery surgeon? Enter their last name below to start!

×