I decided to start a blog or web diary about my wieght loss post op with the VSG because while i am home recovering from my surgery which was last Tuesday, I am experiencing a lot of emotions that I need to write down and process. This journey has been 4 years in the making since I first started considering WLS. In the early days, I was so uneducated. I was ignorant and thought it was an easy way out. I was one of those people ha! When I saw the results of a woman at my job who at the rny I was curious. I found Obesity Help online and started researching different procedures and risks. That was the begining...
So here I am sleeved and there is so many things that are going through my head. I had a good expereince so far its 6 days out but I relize that I have a lot of major issues that need to be addressed.
1. I am bored.
My sedintary lifestyle is extra noticable now that I cannot eat.
2. I was eating to remedy my boredom.
I cant eat now so I am really miserable
3. I dont have many freinds.
Me being a virtual recluse for the past 2 years has made my small circle of friends even smaller.
4. I dont have anyone to confide in.
I have one freind that can totally understand what im going through but he is a man and i feel its inappropriate to speak with him all the time since im married
5. I am unhappy with my marriage.
I knew this already, but its enhanced now like 500 times
6. I need a life.
what does this mean? I hope I can be enlightended while i write this blog lol
anyway i will try to write everday and if you have comments please feel free to leave them.
so... today was hard. I made dinner for the family. I felt like I needed to do something I am so bored. I wish I could have tasted my teriaki baked chicken and bow tie pasta & veggie alfredo mix. the kids said it was great. sigh...
as the days pass, i relize that food was my life and without it, i feel empty, alone, bored, and a little depressed. I know this stage will be gone soon and i will be on purees, but it depresses me that i was so attatched to food. It satisfied me it pacified me I am an unhappy woman and food was a way to ignore what was wrong.
whats wrong? not sure i have some theories though. I need a more loving and romantic relationship. my husband is not a very lovey dovey person. i barly get hugs or kisses from him. I dont feel like im in a loving relationship. its been like this for years and it hurts so bad. for a long time i felt like he acted this way due to my weight. i have a feeling that my wieght loss will end our relationship. i have so much resentment and anger inside.
anyway im gonna end it there so i want go to bed a blubbering mess lol
till next time
xoxo
roro
This date last year I was 298 pounds miserable and very depressed but I was excited about what was about to happen. I was in the prep area for my surgery. All sorts of crazy thoughts were going through my mind... Would i survive the surgery? Would it work for me? would I actually lose weight? Would I wake up even? Well here it is a year later and I am happier with myself then I have been in a long time. Of course its not all peaches and cream. I am separated from my husband of 20+ years, I am struggling financially flat broke with no job attend school to get my Mental Health License so that I will be more marketable. I am living with my two grown children and one school aged child in a cramped NYC housing project that is getting worse from violence and in need of infrastructure repairs. All of this and more stuff that I don't have time to write but you get the idea..life is not great for me right now but now I have the energy and the strength to fight this battle and win!. I haven't done any real exercise yet and I could be better with my vitamins. I did my yearly checkup and I am anemic and low on b12 I'm not surprised now I take my vitamins everyday and I don't miss a beat. I learned a lot on this journey and I still have more to learnMy wish for the coming year? I want to get to my goal weight and become financially stable...wish me luck.
Hello all I know its been a while I had trouble logging into VSG talk for some reason but im here and I have a lot to talk about ..
First, I am living as a single women and its not easy but im managing. So far I have lost 87 pounds which is disappointing because I wanted to lose 100 pounds by my surgerversary. I am still proud of my progress. Despite a very financially stressful summer it was a great summer because I actually looked good in my clothes Yay!!
I am dating but I am not happy about whats out there. I hate the fact that I am thrown into the dating seen at my age. Im too old for this!
Anyway, staying on my diet has been a struggle because I have not attended any support groups I dont see a therapist Yet and I am a junk foodaholic. Its really bad it has my weight teetering between 185 and 188. today i was good i had only meals ate my protein first and had a little popcorn for dessert as we speak i am still 185 whew
Thats the funny thing about this vsg, its a tool but you still have to work i will be starting an exercise regime this week im excited about that.
Anyway, thank you for the great responses to my last entry. Im back i hope i can answer any questions u have if you are a newcomer
Coco
xoxoxo
WOW its been a long time since I have added to this blog. A lot has happened since. I am employed, I lost a nice amount of weight and I am getting used to the fabulosity of it all LOL!!
Anyway, I have finally started to excercise and I am really into ZUMBA! now omg its the best!!!
Here are some recent pics I took the red dress was my 45th birthday yea I am old LOL the second is me at work
I just want to say thank you for all of your support and positive comments
xoxoxoxo
Coco
Hello Family,
I am 3 plus years out of VSG surgery and I am going to tell you frankly it is not easy to maintain. I am stable in my current situation (housing, employment and even reconciled with my husband!) but I realize that if you don't take advantage of that first year of losing you screw yourself!. I am somewhat resentful of my surgical team because they never really was support for me. I didn't eat right I didn't exercise I didn't take advantage because I thought that the weight would come off and stay off. I wasn't even completely sure what my surgery weight was. I blame myself for not asking the right questions and holding the team responsible for my care.
So here I am 3 years later... with still a significant weight loss but a regain of 20 pounds. when I moved from NY to VA in 2012 I weighed between 168 and 171. I moved to MD in 2013 now today I weigh 186. That is a huge difference!
What did I do wrong?
Well it took a while but I realize that: Number 1, I didn't eat right I just ate less of the wrong crap!
2, I didn't exercise ...and if I did it was very sporadic
3, I didn't take care of what was causing me to over eat in the first place.
4, I took my surgery and rapid lose for granted thinking :its the sleeve I will make my goal automatic and I wont regain. dumb dumb dumb
Ok so I know now what I did I need to fix it. I need to do all of the thing I should have done 3 years ago...Is it to late? Hell No its not thank God I still have my tool its still there waiting for me to do the RIGHT things.
The Plan
Eat better: This is a huge struggle for me I am a carb and sugar addict. I went to see a NUT here in MD and she had no idea what VSG was so I will continue to look for the right NUT
Exercise: 6x's per week 60min cardio 4 xs and cardio and weight mix 2 xs
Accountability: I am coming back to my community for support I started a Vlog on you tube and I am going to be a regular on here and on FB groups here is the link below.
My goal is to lose the extra 20 lbs and then 20 more to get to goal...I know this is going to be hard because my body is in maintance mood. I hae been between 186 and 188 for more than 6 months.
Wish me luck!
Peace and Love
Ro
Hello all I swear I am so bad at keeping a blog LOL anyway here is the numbers and updates
As of today I am maintaining my 115 pound loss. I haven't met my personal goal yet but I feel I have had great success keeping my loss so far. I gained 15 pounds when I moved to VA (no sidewalks mostly driving) but I am able to get back on track quickly now I am in MD (more sidewalks and accessible parks to jog/walk)
here are the numbers
My surgery weight was 287
My current weight is 175
My goal weight is 135
As you can see I have a long way to go but I am confident I will get there.
I plan on starting a Vlog on you tube on my 3 year anniversary.
I am still a junk food junkey but now I have learned that I have to stop eating the bad stuff and that helps.
On a more personal note My husband and I have decided to rekindle our relationship we will celebrate our 25 anniversary Sept 29 of this year. Wish us luck.
Inbox me any questions you may have
until next time
xoxoxo
COCO
Thats what I am striving for...me only better. That is the main purpose of this journey. But there are so many things that i need to tackle in ordert to do that. I am using this blog to jot down my thoughts as I transform into a so called better me.
So what makes a better me? A list of things that societiy says will make you better or is it a list of things that i can do after im smaller? what ever the diffention is , I want the changes to happen now. I am impatient. I admit that. Maybe that should be on the top of my list. Patience. ok so I am getting somewhere.
So lets add that to the LIST
Today, it was a struggle to get liquids in because I am experiencing stomach cramping everytime I swallow and the liquid goes down. Im told that the tummy is swollen and it needs to heal some more. I havent had the buyers remorse yet. I am just very uncomfortable. I look forward to the mushie stage there are so many things you can eat at that stage. I am still bored and I am still looking for things to do in the house I dont think i can clean anymore lol. I cooked baked pork chops for the family tonight and i didnt even feel bad that I couldnt eat them so I am getting somewhere. I couldnt help myself I stpped on the scale and the it barley moved. I dont expect it to but i was just wishing. Like wouldnt it be cool if in the future you could get the sleeve and u dropped an immediate 50 pounds upon leaving the hospital. as of today i lost 10 pounds. blah
I hope i can practice patience i have 5 more days till my dr visit. hopefully mushies
until next time freinds
roro
XOXOXOX
