What the heck!!!!! last night for supper I had a baked potato for supper. No big deal!
My husband asked me to go walking with him because he felt like he had eaten to much yesterday(after hearing everything he ate i would agree)
everything was fine when I went to bed.
At 12:30 ( this will sound weird) I woke up thinking i was going to pass out. I got out of bed as qick as I could and went and ate a bowl of cereal. My blood sugar had dropped, and it has never done that at night.
I have a weird hunger system, I rarely ever get hungry, I get sick. My blood sugar drops and i have to eat fast. To say the least it freaked me out. Then about an hour ago it happened again. I never eat breakfast, I never have and I know that is going to have to change really soon, so I guess this is just a sign that I need to get going on this.
I am a little concerned, but I really feel like Its my bodies way of telling me to get with it.:thumbup:
Every day is a journey trying to wrap my mind around this thing I am fixing to do. I know read that there is another procedure that is coming out that does not remove your stomach but they can leave it in and possibly reverse the procedure if they ever need to. What the heck!!!!! :svengo:Technology is driving me nuts. When i originally went to the surgeon I wanted the Lap Band but after sitting for 4 hours listening to the advantages and disadvantages I decided the sleeve would be best for my lifestyle. I still want the sleeve but just wonder, what is going to change in a month when i get mine.
I so love looking at everyone's pictures knowing one day VERY soon that will be ME. I try to find people that are close to my weight and see how much weight they lost and how fast. I know everyone is different I don't expect my outcome to be be like everyone elses, but at the same time I do.crazy I know but I know i am not the only one that stalks sites just to see before and after pics
I am totally sane I just have never allowed myself to get this excited.
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THIS IS ACTUALLY HAPPENING
If I could get in sooner I soooo would.
This morning while getting ready for work,over half my closet has clothes that i cannot wear, but in a month or so I will, that is just crazy to me:tongue_smilie:
The even crazier thing is that when i get into those clothes i can get rid of the the ones i currently wear and I will never wear them again....
NO MORE ROLLER COASTER WEIGHT!!!!!!
The size 22, 3x clothes are gone forever. The clothes i have on today are big but i hate for my rolls to show, so I don't care what the size says. I go for comfort, I hate pulling and tugging trying to keep everything hidden. The thought of being a size 12 and it be comfortable is my goal. that's it that's all i want.. my goal is a size 12.pant and a med shirt that buttons and they dont have tension like they are going to pull open.
well i have accomplished a lot in this blog. I have actually posted the size i wear and what my goals are, so i guess i will go.
I'm getting ready to start my journey. I'm 36 years old and can't wait to start my life.For so many years i feel like I have been held back by my body. My child was born in 98 and when he was 8 months old we decided to start trying again,but my body had other plans. I was diagnosed with poly cystic ovaries very early in the process and was never able to have another child. Two years ago this summer I had to have a hysterectomy after going through very rough cycles. I had to come to the realization that I had to do what was best for me and my mental state. We tried for 10 years and nothing. I have to say I am very pleased with my decision and I don't regret it at all.
I thought my life would start getting to a normal place until I started having neck issues,they progressed very quickly and the next summer I had to have neck surgery. it has taken a year to start feeling better,but my weight is still an issue.
Like I said in the beginning I have polycystic overies and I have the visual effect on my face. I hate this side effect. The only way to help the symptoms is to loose weight but with a bad neck and a hiatal hernia, that is easier said than done and you have to try harder than the average overweight person to see even a pound come off.
My husband has always had great health insurance but they would never cover this surgery. He has gone through many buy outs with his company and we are very lucky that through all of it we are going to get a severance pay after all the craziness is done. Finally after all these years of my body controlling me I finally feel like I am taking control of it. Sept 3rd is MY day to take back control of me. I will have my hernia fixed and my gallbladder removed if he sees that I need it done,and GOD willing it will be a new start to my life and my family will have a new wife and mom.
I am so excited.....I have 20 more days till surgery. I went today to get the addresses of everyone I have to pay before this can happen.. The Drs nurse happened to be the one that helped me and she was so nice and informative. She gave me all my info, and talked me through what is fixing to happen. She asked when my appointment was with the Dr and I said I didnt know and
I am so excited.....I have 20 more days till surgery. I went today to get the addresses of everyone I have to pay before this can happen.. The Drs nurse happened to be the one that helped me and she was so nice and informative. She gave me all my info, and talked me through what is fixing to happen. She asked when my appointment was with the Dr and I said I didnt know and she informed me that it was Wednesday at which point i would start my liquid diet. I was sooo surprised that the words actually came out of her mouth.
You see I knew it was coming up but she said you are 2 weeks out and you have to start you liquids next week...( she said YOU HAVE TOOO) that means this is happenning!!!!!!
I nearly dropped a tear on the way to the car,but i didnt.
I also told her that i had already started doing the liquids just to see what I liked and try some bars. I said I had a shake in the morning one at lunch and a protien bar at 3 the ate at 6 a high protien supper.....she said great keep it up and try to do the shake at supper and you already have this wooped.
I was sooo proud of me!!!!!:thumbup:
I realized talking with a girl I work with that I do not have a love affair with food, I just have a crappy body that is working against me. I love stuf that tastes good but I can have sweets at the house and never touch it.
Im going to be positive and say that I am going to loos ethe weight I want and i am going to keep it off because I do have will power and i can do this. My pcos has ran by body long enough and come Sept 3rd I will take control back:001_tt2:
