Hi All, I am now 12 weeks out and 35 pounds lighter. I am 25 pounds from my goal, I am 5 pounds from my driver's license weight and 15 pounds from what I weighed when we got married over 20 years ago..And speaking of my husband he keeps making comments on how great I look and is always touching me. I am back to my pre-op exercising routine and feel great. My hair knock on wood hasn't started falling out and hopefully I can skip that particular unpleasantness. For the first time that I can remember I am not looking towards Thanksgiving and all the holidays in dread I know I will not eat myself up 10-20 pounds and beating myself up instead of enjoying myself. I still haven't been able to convince myself that this is really working and while my clothes are looser I've only bought a bra so far I have definitely shrunk there! I think I am afraid I might jinx things. I am going to have to work on this.
Hi All so today is nine weeks. That is so hard to believe. I am half way to goal down 30 lbs and I have to pinch myself because I have never lost this much ever. I feel great and have more energy and my walk/workout is easier then before surgery. It feels as if a whole new world has opened up for me. I still have my doubts about whether this will work despite the proof and I have yet to buy any new clothes. Bought a couple pairs of boots but I just am not ready to buy clothes. It is as if a part of me worries about making a fool of myself silly I know even though I can even tell I am smaller.
So I am almost seven weeks out, wow that seems so unreal to me it has gone by so fast. I think I may have hit my first stall but really I can not complain 25lbs in six weeks is just crazy! And yet I still struggle with myself. A part of me refuses to believe that this will work. I keep waiting for the disappointment shoe to drop, again. I know I am probably getting in 1/4 of the calories then I was before surgery by the numbers alone my body can not do anything but lose and still I doubt. I won't even allow myself to go clothes shopping because I haven't lost enough. I do love my sleeve so far it has exceeded my expectations. I can pretty much eat what I want but my wants have changed. Sweets don't seem to taste as good as they did. Before surgery I had minor issues with greasy fried foods but would eat them anyway but now it just doesn't even sound or look good to me. I still have issues with fighting the urge to clean my plate. And lef-overs! If I had left overs more then a half dozen times in a year pre-op I'd be surprised, now I have leftovers with every meal. Needless to say I end up throwing away a lot of food. So this is where I am at.
Hi All, So tomorrow is my two week surgiversary. I think I have been floating on a pink cloud for the last week. I keep waiting for the second shoe to drop I have no gas no reflux no pain. I feel wonderful. Giddy actually I am finally starting to believe this will work. I have to stop my self from running up to every overweight person I see and telling them about this fantastic journey I find myself on. I am so surprised now how much food is pushed down our throats by the media. It is State Fair time here in Los Angeles and so all the news stations have been covering all the fried foods. I have to tell you they are easier then I thought they would be to see. I use to obsess about food always worried about it now I don't. Freedom at last! That is what this surgery has given me.
Nancy
Well its day 3 I won't say its been easy but it hasn't been all that bad either. But all this down time has had me thinking. The first thing that has struck me on this journey is how many of us say things like "we have done this to us" or use the word "elective" I don't know about that to me there was nothing elective about this. High B/P, high cholesterol and a borderline ekg are all warning signs that my weight is killing me. If a doctor told me oh you have this tumor it could kill you in 10-20 years and will cause you health issues What do you want to do about it?" What do I need the roof to fall on my head? I have tried and I exercise but it isn't working so now it is time to do something before it is too late. I may be a bit miserable today but tomorrow I will feel a little better and the next day even better. And in a few weeks I will feel normal. Someone commented on my blog that we are brave for doing this , Katy is right we are!
Hi All, Let's see I am in my fifties married 20 years to a wonderful support man am 5'2" and weight 200lbs. I have always been overweight I can remember at an early age not understanding why I was overweight or what it was just that I was overweight and the only one in my immediate family that was. I don't think there has ever been a time when I wasn't dieting or at the very least conscious of the things I ate that should not have not that that had ever stopped me. My biggest issue is that when I eat I just plain eat too much I only feel satisfied when I feel full and it takes a lot to get me there. To make matters worse somewhere along the line I developed the habit of eating once a day. In my twenties the only time in my life when I was actually thin. I discovered walking and love it to this day, yes I have been walking for the last 30 years not as much as I did when I was younger but I still walk 5 miles a day 5 days a week with hills. And yet over the years the pounds crept up. I think the walking has kept the weight gain in check to some extent. Anyway the walking has given me a false sense of security calling my self "fat but fit" thinking I was keeping any potential weight health issues far away. Then a couple of years ago my blood pressure started climbing along with my cholesterol and I really could not fool myself any longer. I know that if I do not do something my health will start failing no matter how much I exercise. I know I have trouble getting to my feet not just when I am on the floor but also rising from a chair. I also know that a life time of dieting has not worked and that I could not convince myself that somehow history would not repeat itself. That all my efforts keep me running in place I never go anywhere. So I have decided on the sleeve not for vanity sake though I know there is some vanity involved but mostly because I realize that I can either have my stomach under the knife or in a few years my heart. I had a bit of a wake up call with my pre op ekg it was considered borderline with the possible beginnings of major issues. I have to do something and this is my choice. Tomorrow 8/24 I go in for surgery. I am scared out of my mind about now. Scared about surgery, scared about recovery, scared about complications and most scared of it not work.
Nancy