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Comin Round

I'm officially 6 weeks out today, and down to 200! That's 35 pounds off, yay! Also, I'm feeling alive again! I still have my wound packet (grrrrrrr) but its healing and I'm finding my energy slowly but surley. My diet is progressing too. I have to remind myself sometimes that I'm sleeved! I made a yummy Jambalaya with Brussel Sprouts last night...it was delicious!! I'm looking forward to walking as soon as this wound heals. So glad to get to feeling normal again! Yay!
Shontel

Shontel

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Chicken & Dumplings, Rest & Recovery

Tomorrow I will finally get my packing changed/removed (probably just changed...grrrr) So in an effort to make myself feel better, of course I decided to cook something (some old habits ya just can't break) I wanted something comforting, something creamy and warm. Chicken & Dumplings!! I love this dish, but don't love the time it takes, so I used Sandra Lee's recipe that I make my own...its YUMMY!! and EASY! So I made a big pot, rented some movies & fluffed up my couch pillows...what more could I ask for? Oh yeah, that pain pill I needed, but hey other than that, I'm making the best of this situation. I am still getting tired after little effort, don't want to do much of anything, and have residual pain.   Last night while changing my 4 x4 gauze I think I accidentally pulled a little of the packing, and before I knew it, it was like a horror movie! Blood everywhere! I went through 3 4x4's before it got it to stop! The insanity of it all!! Can't wait till 1:30 tomorrow to get an update of all this...Its funny how we take our health and everyday wellbeing for granted. I have always been super healthy (even though I was overweight but this weakness and no energy thing has gotta go, I feel so frail! grrrrrrr.....stay tuned, hopefully tomorrow will be better! :thumbup:
Shontel

Shontel

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Changes....Random thoughts and a little rant

I've been thinking a lot about my new self. The outside, because of course, I'm completely the same on the inside. But yesterday something happened that took me by surprise and frankly stopped me in my tracks. My fiance' and I were sitting, talking as we've done hundreds of times before. Some days we are really in tune to each other, and others not, we own a business so mostly these days it's not. But it was one of those days where he was taking countless calls while we were trying to catch up so he wasn't really in tune to me like I was to him. Here is where I'm going with this story. As we visited, I noticed him looking at my arms. (sidenote: I talk with my hands a lot, and my arms are sagging to high heaven right now if ya know what I mean) so as I was talking, he constantly stared at my arms. I noticed him doing it and said, "Do you like the way I look now" He literally paused (ok girls, you know that pause before the answer...sort of ok, what do I need to say or how can I say this without hurting her feelings) He went on to say "of course I do!" However, that second of silence spoke volumes. When we met I was over 200 pounds..and he likes 'thick' women. I wonder now, if I am as attractive to him as I once was...sure I was overweight, but I have always been height weight proportionate. My skin was fat but wasn't sagging off my bones. I guess I'm just having self-doubt today. I mean, its funny, all my life I thought "....if I just lose this weight, I will be so much happier/better/at peace or whatever. The truth is, I am happy, but its not what I expected. I have to come to grips with the fact that I am 42, and my body looks like a 42 year old that has been overweight for 20 plus years and has yo-yo'd the majority of those years, now my body is a reflection of that. No matter how I try to change it, there are permanent stretch marks, excess skin, indentions, scars from multiple surgerys etc that are a part of me now. The realization that the weight did not DEFINE me after all is harsh. I know I'll overcome, but I wonder how those around me will accept me LOOKING so much different. I went to a family event last week. Most everyone there commented how 'skinny' I looked. I wonder if they were saying that in a bad way. I never wanted to lose too much weight. I don't want to look sickly. This is why I haven't changed my avitar pic yet. I am over 200 pounds in that pic, but as vain as it sounds, I think I look younger than 41 in that pic. When I look at myself now, to me, now that the fat is gone from my face, I look OLD. wrinkles that were stretched out from the fat are now clearly visible. THAT is to me, shocking, I have NEVER had that. (big sigh) I guess I'm whining a little. But just feeling a little down, and know I have done the right thing for myself and health, none of that has changed, just a bump along the road in my lifelong journey to be healthy and happy. Thanks for reading!!
Shontel

Shontel

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Blackhole

WARNING: might be TMI for some...read at your own risk.   So, in an effort to gage how my abscess is healing, I made my fiance' while changing my packing, stick the q-tip down as far as it would go....ok, so I knew that the CT scan showed that it was like 3.5" deep. (ok, lemme take a step back and breathe a sec) So its been 10 days since the drainage. The q-tip went in half way!!!! I almost started crying!! I was thinking it should be so much further on in the healing process! All this packing, this open gash...its just so ughhhhhhhhh!!!! OK, sorry for the mini meltdown, I'm feeling better but this is keeping me from exercising, from doing anything really strenuous...gah! And I'm scared of getting an infection (yeah, I'm a germ-a-phobe at times) So, I sit and wait....tick tock tick tock...till my body heals....talk about a lesson in patience!!! :thumbup:
Shontel

Shontel

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8 Weeks out out of stall

Yay today is weigh day...I'm out of my one week stall and down 2 more pounds! In 'onderland'!! 37#'s total! Been awhile since I've been to this place!! This past week has been so weird. I woke up this morning with heartburn..grrrrrr. I hope to get back on track. I'm happy to lose a pound or two a week, slow and steady! Just wanted to share with everyone! Thanks for listening!!
Shontel

Shontel

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6 Month Update

Hey there everyone, haven't been on here in FOREVER!! So much has been happening in my life! I wanted to give a brief update (also as usual will plug my YouTube videos which I also did a 6 month update my username: scneaux) I'm down 75 pounds and in a size 6!! I have not been feeling 100 % though. I think I might have a HERNIA...I've been having inclement pain and a bulge above my largest incision (remember, the one where I had the ABCESS??) I've been dealing with it awhile now, and sort of putting it off since I have no insurance at this time (Aetna dropped me when I went to renew and found out I'd had this procedure, another whole rant on that) anywho, I am about to just break down and go see about it, its becoming more and more uncomfortable and I know it has to be dealt with.   On another note, we did have our Key West vacation and it was FABULOUS! I was able to walk and do whatever I wanted, even though I lost my voice and had this aching pain in my abdomen..grrrrrrrr...I did manage to go snorkeling and see some really beautiful sunsets. We rented a suite (and a hot little Camero..whooo hoooo) and all was right with the world even for a few days. Well, Sorry I missed the 5 month update, but all has been good with me regarding food issues (I eat whatever I want) the trick for me is to eat FREQUENTLY. I promise to keep this blog up for those who are new and need information!
Shontel

Shontel

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4.5 Month update

Hey everyone, haven't been here in awhile, but wanted to keep up blog since I've been doing this one from the start. I have been doing more 'vlogging' on YouTube (scneaux is my user name if anyone is interested) Anywho, just thought I'd write to catch everyone up on my progress. I've lost another 4 pounds, so that brings my total to 64 pounds lost in a little over 4 months. I've not been doing the Couch 25K program, due to some muscle issues. But I do plan on getting back on it as soon as I am able. I've been really noticing my weight loss, as has eveyone else. I'm now down to a size 10 from a 16. The 10's are getting to 'roomy' for me now, however. I'm in a med shirt but some smalls fit me better. I am getting a new camera, so will take some new photos soon and post them. Especially when we go on vacation next month (can't wait!!) That's all for now, thanks for reading everyone!!
Shontel

Shontel

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4 Month Update (Part B) and yes, a VACA!!

I posted last week about my update, but today is my official (by day) 4 month...I guess I'm posting because I lost 3 more pounds and wanna bring my monthly total up a little..lol...so this month that would make 8 pounds instead of 5 (isn't it nice how I manipulate my numbers...lol) Also my 'time of month' today, so feeling pretty crappy, maybe more than that. On a side note, just wanted to let everyone know that I am FINALLY going on a VACA!! YAY...I've been dreaming of a beach and a drink for about 6 months now (we usually travel about 2x's a year, but with this crapola economy we've cut back) Sooooo....I cashed in my points, got 2 free tickets and 4 free nights at a Marriot...either Miami or Key West here we come in May...YEEEEE HAAAAAAA!!!! I plan on turning the cell off, being a beach bum & sip adult beverages daily. I don't care how much flab I have baby, I'm buying a sweet bathing suit, and am going to soak in the ocean...ahhhhhh....CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!
Shontel

Shontel

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4 Month Update

I realized that I've not been keeping up my blog because I've been doing videos on YouTube alot with my updates. (if interested, I did a 4 month video my user name on YouTube is scneaux) However, I wanted to keep my blog up as well because this is where I began recording my thoughts. At 4 months I've lost 57 pounds. By my calculations, I think I've lost only 5 pounds this month, but am sort of glad to have slowed (trying to keep my hair as long as possible...ha ha) I noticed my hunger is sort of coming back. Not severe by any means. Just a nudge to let me know its time to eat. My favorite snacks are beef jerkey, string cheese and sunflower seeds. Still struggling with ny protien shakes and vitamins. I do take Prevacid still and this past month as everyone knows, I began training for a 5K. I am noticing my body transforming! yay! still got the skin issues, and the going south issues, but noticing some muscle definition which I absolutely LOVE LOVE LOVE!! One thing I am going to do this weekend is to try on some jean/capris and see what my true size is. Up to now I am still floating around in my 14's and a few 12's. I'm gong to buy at least 1 pair of capris this weekend (mall, watch out! lol) I may do another update this Friday, because its by date my exact 4 months. Stay tuned!! :scared0:
Shontel

Shontel

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3 Month Update

Lets see, this week I lost 1 more pound. I really didn't think I'd have lost any due to the fact that it was Mardi Gras and I kinda got off track a bit (darn those adult beverages!) So 46#'s total so far. I did have a Dr.'s appointment (my yearly) He drew some blood (still waiting for results) but after I told him how crummy I have been about taking Vitamins (I know, no lectures please, I know) He gave me that lecture as well. He put me on B-12 injections once a month (have to do them myself...yikes!!) I'm feeling better physically. One thing I noticed in the past week is that I'm able to eat a little more (maybe a bite or 2 more off of 1/2-3/4 c) I am still not really getting hungry, but when its time for me to eat my stomach feels sort of 'weak' don't know if that makes sense, its not a sick feeling, (thanks to switching from Prilosec to Prevacid) My major think I want to work on this month is getting more exercise. I know my weight loss will speed up if I do. Here's my weight loss stats so far. Month 1: lost 26 pounds. Month 2: lost 14 pounds. Month 3: 6 pounds. I'm really ok with losing 5-10 pounds a month. I'd rather lose slowly. But I know I need to begin excersizing. I have been continuing to lose inches though my weight loss has slowed...my hips started at 47" now I'm at 42.5" I need to work out with some weights cause the 'saggies' are settin in! Well, that's about all for now..feeling hopeful and ready to shed the rest of these pounds! Oh, I'm already past my halfway goal! I have about 30 pounds to go!! I know I can do this!! :w00t:   All labs are normal!! Yay!!
Shontel

Shontel

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