Well I'm back and banded and everything went ok! Iwas so nervous - never been under the knife before, but everything was fine and the hospital were great. I could never have driven home though and I'm glad lulu was able to bring me back. The anasthetic has worn off now, I ache a bit and feel tender, but I'm functioning ok and can see that by the end of the weekend I shall hopefully be in control again. I already feel a difference, although I'm only on liquids - I don't feel the horrendous hunger pangs I used to - or is that just getting over the op? I'm also desperate not to do anything to damage my new 'pouch' so am being careful. Have just been on the scales and they register a 3LB loss! So far so good..
Anyway 3 days post op and feeling better every day and managing to stick to the liquid diet (kids had a curry last night and I felt very sorry for myself this morning - esp as they'd left the debris for me to clear away!). dunno if i'm supposed to feel the band or doesn't that kick in till the first 'fill'?
Well this morning I decided it was ridiculous not to tell the kids about the fact I'm having an op. As it gets closer there seems no benefit to keeping them in the dark - and also lulu coming home will help me enourmously. When I told Lulu this morning she was very tearful but as I assured her it was in my interest she seemed a lot more understanding. Jake was phillisophical about it all and Sophie Rose dosen't need to know. Jake, Soph and I went to town to get some supplies, had a nice relaxing afternoon getting ready for my few days away and wrote up lessons to be covered at school.
Last night I connected with other people who were aprehensive too and their comments helped to alleviate my worries.
Been hell at school today - some vile kids and organizing my cover for next week and told my line manager I might not be in for 2 weeks as people seem to think I'll be sore for longer than I thought. At least all the activity and a staff meeting after school took my mind off tomorrows events!
The nurse called this evening to ask a few questions and explain what'll happen tomorrow - she asked how my pre op diet was going (what pre op diet?) then she went on about someone who'd lost half stone for her op (Why have the op if you can lose weight so easily??).
I have this nagging feeling that if anyone is going to fail with the band .. it's bound to be me. I know that's not fighting talk and if I heard anyone say that sort of thing I'd say they're doomed to fail.. please let it work for me!!
I'm worrying now about the actual operation now and I must focus on the good that'll come out of all this and think beyond the op itself.
Time to pack my bag and get things ready for the kids..
I promise I'll be back to tell what happens - if not.. well:straight
It's been a really rubbish week. My pre op diet despite all my good intentions has been non existent. I've searched out loads of good advice .. and what have I done with.. nothing! so now with just a few days to go before the op I'm wondering if the surgeon will take one look at me and boot me out. I still haven't told the kids or any of the family about this, close friends and work think its women's problems - so I feel guilty about that. Jake has dislocated his shoulder which means I need to be well enough next thursday to take him to his hospital appointment. I am trying to do this for me - but i feel like I'm swimming against the current ALL the time. To ad insult to injury here I am with a twisted ankle which is throbbing like mad and I'm hobbling round like an idiot.
Please let this work! I've read so many success stories and seen the before and after pics but somewhere deep down I feel like I'll be one of the ones it won't work for.:phanvan