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pre surgery jitters

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Surgery in 2 days and scared of failure....

So my surgery is in 2 days and the only thing I keep thinking about is if im gonna fail at this or not. I think I just have such high expectations for myself that it's getting in my way. I have so much weight to lose and its overwhelming at times, know what I mean? I want to wear a size 12 but im a size 26 and that's a long way to go. Im excited im making this decision to have WLS but it's a long road ahead. I pray my body goes along with it all and just starts losing but I realize that I have to make the right food choices as well and get off my butt and workout again. Im gonna have to take it one day at a time and set little mini goals for myself. A lot of my friends and family know about this surgery and I feel like I have to prove to them all that it was the right decision and that It does work....a lot of pressure! I got this!

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Surgery tomorrow the 18th!!! All packed and ready to go but anxious....

My surgery is officially tomorrow and I got to meet with the surgeon today. He was really nice and the only thing im worried about is if I stuck to the atkins diet well enough to shrink my liver......I had a few slips and im most stressed about that. If he gets in there and cannot get to my stomach I will be devastated! Im not gonna think about the negative though, and im gonna just enjoy the process and know that im doing the right thing for myself! I got to meet other people today getting surgery this week and that was encouraging. Wish me luck, cannot believe its tomorrow already!!!

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Hiccups

I started to have hiccups after I eat, is that cause of the band?? Does that mean I need to eat slower or is that normal?

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4 days till surgery!

OMG only 4 days left, im so nervous and yet excited. I cut my hair short today to get myself pumped for change!!! All the hard work of getting approved by insurance is finally done! I have all my liquid stuff ready to go and got my hotel booked. I just cant believe its next week, ive been counting down the days. I know this is a tool and its not going to cure this overnight but im ready to finally take care of myself for a change and do something for me! Its a long journey ahead of me but im more than ready and cant wait to post my "after" picture someday!!! TIme for me now!!!

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Surgery in 2 days and scared of failure....

So my surgery is in 2 days and the only thing I keep thinking about is if im gonna fail at this or not. I think I just have such high expectations for myself that it's getting in my way. I have so much weight to lose and its overwhelming at times, know what I mean? I want to wear a size 12 but im a size 26 and that's a long way to go. Im excited im making this decision to have WLS but it's a long road ahead. I pray my body goes along with it all and just starts losing but I realize that I have to make the right food choices as well and get off my butt and workout again. Im gonna have to take it one day at a time and set little mini goals for myself. A lot of my friends and family know about this surgery and I feel like I have to prove to them all that it was the right decision and that It does work....a lot of pressure! I got this!

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Getting ready and packing.....liquid diet ideas???

I have all I need for the liquid diet and want to know if anyone has any advice for liquids....especially for immediately after surgery so I know what to pack that I can drink.... Im starting to get excited and don't leave till wed but im still packing now!

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Surgery in 13 hours!!!

I cannot believe its finally here!!! I all checked in and am so blessed to have so much support from friends and family....it's overwhelming! I don't think im gonna sleep tonight at all tonight cause of my nerves and excitement. I keep walking around the hotel room organizing everything and checking off my lists ahh!! Well I better try to calm down so I sleep. Next time I come on here I will be banded!

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Left shoulder pain and hunger....

So i was banded on the 18th and im feeling pretty good except my left shoulder hurts really bad and the heating pad isnt helping much. Also my lip is still numb and hurts from the tube they put down my throat during surgery, anyone else have that??? Im on liquids still but starting to feel hungry again.....any advice for filling liquids besides protein shakes?

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Hungry but no appetite

I am 6 days banded and im struggling with hunger but nothing sounds good to me anymore... I make some soup or a protein shake but cannot finish it and i feel like im wasting food all the time! Ive lost 9 pounds in 6 days and that feels good but i think my body is done with liquids and wants real food and that scares me cause im so scared of gaining weight back. I have 2 more days left of this liquid diet and im hoping and praying when its over, i only eat soft things and dont "cheat"....maybe talking about it will help me not do it

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pre-surgery jitters

I have Surgery in 8 days!!!! Im doing the Atkins getting ready. I cant believe its next week already! I cant wait to start this journey and get to my healthy weight. Im nervous but ready and pray I can handle the recovery.

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4 days in and emotional....

So im not one to hide the fact that im trying to get healthy, mainly because im embarressed and want people to know that im trying to do something about it. I went to church today and i was prayed for because i was having surgery and the comments people made really brought me to tears. Maybe im just being really sensitive right now but i took offense to them. I know im supposed to be focused on healing and not weight loss yet but ive lost 8 pounds since surgery and its been only 4 days so im proud of that! One lady asked what i was doing out of the house and i said that im supposed to walk a lot and she goes "will you should be doing that anyways!" We had a potluck at church and my husband brought me soup to eat while everyone else had burgers and my friend next to me goes. " im gonna go get some real people food!.....Another lady said im too young to not do something about it....all these people are trying to be supportive but they end up being honest for a change and it burns a little i guess. They dont bring up my weight on normal occassions but now that im banded, they act like they can say something....I know im overweight, im trying to get healthy but these comments are making me feel really bad about myself. My husband told me to use it as fuel and to not let i bother me but it does....I just want the weight gone now!! Im only 4 days into this band and im just having raw emotions, is this normal???

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1st day on soft foods....feeling the band finally

Today i started the soft food diet for 2 weeks and i guess i got too excited. I tried to eat slow but the food just would not go down and i got sick. It made me stop eating though!!! I guess i need to slow down more and take smaller bites.

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