Ok so I'm sitting at my desk playing on the computer and I have a bag of Lays Keetle Cooked Original Potato chips laying beside the mouse. I've been munching on them pretty much the whole day and I know they were supposed to be for the boys but somehow they've landed on my desk when suddenly I realize the bag is almost empty. At first I think maybe the boys have gotten into my stash but then I remember I've been eating some just about every time I've sat down. I immediately trash them but feel so bad. and maybe even a little bloated...
I've been doing pretty good about cutting the junk out of my diet in order to be better prepared for surgery (hopefully in August) but today seemed to drag on and on and I was so bored.
Why do I do this to myself? Am I really that addicted to food that I didn't even realize I was stuffing my face with not only horrible food but I wasn't even hungry. Will my will be better after surgery? So many questions in my disfunctional head. . . I know I want to do this but what if I can't? What if this addiction is stronger than me?
