in 10 days it will be 2 years since i got lap band. i am currently 37 lbs down and have rejoined weight watchers. i feel like this has been a huge expensive failure. i am always hungry. if i go more then 1 to 2.5 hours i feel sick. 90% of the time i dont feel satisfied even with a lot of protein. i thought food getting stuck would be negative reinforcement, but thats never what happened. i have no idea where to go from here except to just keep dieting. which i was told i wouldnt have to do anymore. lap band is "a lifestyle". i was told i couldnt eat bread, drink soda, etc. i can do all of those things and most of the time pull it off without the food getting stuck. i keep telling myself its head hunger, but then my stomach starts growling loudly at work and i have no choice but to eat something just to keep it quiet. at home its different. i can stay fuller longer for some reason, but it still takes more then what i am supposed to be eating to get me to satisfied. or at least my heads version of satisfied. ive been fighting along the way of course. i thought i could have the best of both worlds. lose weight while eating whatever i wanted only in moderation. apparently thats not possible for a stubborn fat girl.
