I was banded on 4/18 and I'm a mess...
I really feel lousy. The food is fine. The not eating as much is fine... Even being in bandster hell is fine.
Clearly it's not about the food...
Cause I'm REALLY feeling down... I'm not normally depressed, haven't been in years and years. Usually I'm happy, bouncy, optimistic... But EVERYTHING is bringing me down. I've been mad at my husband, can't seem to let things go, my mind is racing with minor annoyances, I think my mother may not be talking to me (she has issues anyway) and it's sending me into a small tailspin, and I'm just all over the place.
I also know that I'm used to eating to cover my feelings, to numb myself, so intellectually I get what's happening to me... What I don't get is what to do about it!! I want to curl up in a ball and have everyone just leave me alone. I mean, I expected to have some emotional responses after surgery, but I just didn't expect to be THIS upset!
