Let's back track since I'm 17 days post op.
Started looking into surgery September 2011. 6 mos of drs visited for insurance. Hated every minute told doc at my first visit that if ins does not approve right away I'm not doing this. Well I jumped through all the hoops and I'm glad they made me wait 6 mos 4 would have been enough but it was smart to really get my head in the game and not take this lightly. So life changing. A part of yourself dies. You die to the old ways and all the bad behavior and you surgically force yourself to do it because you realize you just don't have it in you to do it yourself. Tried ww nutrisystem cookie diet just about everything. And really if you are grown up enough or whatever, any reasonable diet works if you stick to it. so hard to make them a permanent lifestyle so hopefully you have the resources and the thought to have it done for you. I guess I feel like a little kids making all the wrong decisions and choices for myself so I had to have an intervention big grown up stepped in for rebellious brat and said if you can't make the right decisions then they will be made for you. I guess it was super grown up of me to realize that I kinda suck at managing my weight and hired myself a manager with a proven track record. Hmm maybe if you can't do things well you have to hire out. Not everyone cuts their own hair no matter how much you want to. Sometimes you just can't. So I'm going on and on but I don't care cause this is my blog and I guess diary of sorts. I will not go back to check my spelling I'm a pretty good speller and if the I pad thinks I wanted to write tits instead of this then that's what it's gonna be.