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So Confused (And Jittery!)

Went in for my fill yesterday, was down 6lbs since my last fill on February 27th. I was feeling good about that until the APRN who does the fills comes in, she decides that she wants me to lose more weight and put me on Adipex. She gives me a fill and tells me to come back in two weeks to follow up from the Adipex.   I was very on the fence about this, I could've taken Adipex years ago, I didn't want to. Does this MDs office have some sort of weight quota they have to meet per year??? If I wanted to lose weight fast I would've had the bypass.   Anyway, being the good patient I am, I took the Adipex at 7am this morning. By 8am, I am bouncing off the walls. I just finished 1 cup of soup, and that's all I've eaten today. Right now I'm sweating like crazy, this is not good!   I'm going to keep taking it until my follow up appointment in two weeks. I promised myself if I lose 10 lbs in the two weeks I'll keep taking it, if not, then I'm going to tell them that I'm not taking it anymore and I've been losing weight at a good pace (IMHO)   Ugh story of my life!
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Oh Yeah, So That's How It Feels--I Forgot!

Three funny things happened last night after work:   1) I realized how tense I was when I'm running, so I just said to myself "relax stupid" and the tension from me grinding my teeth all the way down to my feet just kind of untensed and I had no headache yesterday yay!   2) I made General Tso's tofu. IDK I'm just not really interested in food anymore. Had three bites, threw the rest out even spit out what I was chewing and ate steamed broccoli instead (my crack). Also my mom gave me a subscription to Food Network magazine, I leafed through it found 0 recipes that I would make and threw out the magazine. Usually I would try to find something. Nope not this time lol.   3) I think I may have eaten a little too much broccoli bc I got that "stuck" feeling so I danced around the house listening to my iPod and it helped move the food down lol. So I got a little more excercise yesterday, my cat must think I'm crazy. Also I sing out loud while I'm running and I don't care who hears me lol.   I'd like to share what is on my c25k playlist, reminder: I'm a white girl from the suburbs so just digest that as you read. Let me know what's on your playlist:   Talk That Talk-Rihanna Telephone-Lady Gaga The World Is Mine-David Guetta Touchin on My-3OH!3 Til the World Ends-Britney Spears Turn Up The Music-Chris Brown Welcome To The Jungle-Guns N Roses Where Them Girls At-David Guetta Who's That Chick-David Guetta You Could Be Mine-GNR You Make Me Feel-Cobra Starship All of The Lights-Kanye @$$ Back Home-Gym Class Heroes Beautiful People-Chris Brown Becky-Plies Better With the Lights Off-New Boyz Black and Yellow-Wiz Khalifa Blackout-Breathe Carolina Bottoms Up-Trey Songz Turn It Up-Busta Rhymes Look At Me Now-Chris Brown Click, Flash-Ciara Countdown-Beyonce Break My Fall-DJ Tiesto feat BT E.T.-Katy Perry Hell On Heels-Pistol Annies Holliwood-Madonna I Don't Care-Fallout Boy International Love-Pitbull Judas-Lady Gaga Love Game-Lady Gaga Love Can Kill You-BT Marry The Night-Lady Gaga Mrs. Right-Mindless Behavior Super Thug-Nore Hot Tottie-Jay Z & Usher Paris-Kanye & Jay Z Ocean Avenue-Yellowcard Otis-Kanye & Jay Z S&M-Rihanna Somnambulist-BT Suddenly-BT Can't Get Enough-J Cole Wild One-Flo Rida   Things that happened to me today:   I lost 2lbs, so officially in three months I have lost 29 lbs!   I wore two different sneakers to work today lol.
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If I Could Kick My Own @$$ Right Now I Would!

So my whole thing this week was I was going to go on a liquid diet before vacation to kind of balance out all the potential crap I'm going to eat next week. Well, yesterday was WONDERFUL! Not! Two protein shakes and a fight with the dbf gave me the worse migraine I had since before my surgery! I was so nauseous I wanted to throw up but I couldn't, ugh. So I took two advil and closed the blinds in my family room. Okay so two protein shakes, a handful of pretzels because I thought it was my blood sugar that was off, then a packet of cream cheese at Dunkin' Donuts because I thought it was STILL my blood sugar! I get home and eat a whole bag of......wait for it......steamed broccoli with pesto (bad!) and mayo (worse!!!!) but I did feel somewhat better. I was pissed too because I didn't get to excercise. So there's kicks in the @$$ parts 1, 2 and 3!   I feel like I'm failing, I've been doing so good 30 lbs in 3 months is nothing to sneeze at! But now I feel like I'm sabotaging myself! I hate it!   Today started off fine, I had my usual egg white omlette with veggies and cheese lunch was a disaster. I had half of a tuna sandwich with some steak fries. I feel so bad eating those, I suck at this! Stop the sabotage!!!!! At least I know that for dinner I made something healthy and I'm going to a new excercise class tonight with my friend from high school. This class is free for me (tonight) I need to see if I can make it from the train station. If I like it I'll sign up for it. If I don't I think I'm going to sign up at a studio that has Zumba classes 7 days a week and go on Tuesdays and Thursdays. Tomorrow I'm re-doing the week of c25k that I did last week since I missed a run Monday I probably lost a lot of endurance.   Okay, so I f***** up today. Now a game plan for tomorrow. Breakfast: egg white omlette NO CHEESE! While I'm there, I'll get my lunch. They have Kashi cereal and milk. I'll have that for lunch and not even have a chance to meet up with the fries again tomorrow. Lunch: Kashi high protein cereal with skim milk. Dinner: Quorn cutlets with pesto and mozzarella. C25k after work. Don't give up!!!!   I don't even want to think about getting on the scales Thursday. If I gained I'll do a liquid diet Thursday and Friday just to get some weight off. I think I would've been okay if I didn't have the migraine from hell. It's such an excuse, but every time I get a fill I'm on a liquid diet and I'm fine no headaches or anything!   I need all the support I can get today!   Buuuuuttt on a nsv kind of note, I was quite proud of myself at the grocery store on Sunday. I was going to get the ingredients for my dinner this week and I wanted something to snack on since I was stressed. I'm not going to lie I grabbed tortilla chips, had a couple of handfuls with salsa and cheese and threw the rest out. Before this, I would've gotten cookies, ice cream, salty crunchy crap, but none of that interested me (I didn't even go into the Easter aisle damn Cadbury eggs!).   Also, I packed some healthy snacks in my luggage for my lay over Saturday. I packed a tuna salad to go kit (it's 200 calories) I'm also going to get some Ritz snackerfuls or whatever they're called and some rice crackers. Maybe some candy idk I'm going to see how I do food wise this week.   I'm just hoping my next fill is going to get me into the "green zone" I feel like I'm close. The band is definetly still there!
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Delayed Restriction...yup I Haz It!

I got my last fill (a total of 2.75 ccs in a 4 cc band on February 27th). This morning actually just now, I had a crustless quiche (which is 1/4 of a pie plate about a cup total) it has eggs (duh) deli ham, swiss cheese and onions and yesterday I probably could've eaten more. Today right now at this moment if you put another slice in front of me I'd probably push it in your face and make you eat it (in a loving way though, because I love you whoever you are). So, yesterday when I was thinking "boy I don't feel restriction" to this morning of "holy crap I'm full" is a big differnce. So, the lesson is to you noobs and veterans out there, don't get discouraged, sometimes there is a delayed reaction for me it's approximately 8-9 days after a fill. I'm going to keep track of this next month as well.   Actually to think about it last night I had some homemade general tso's tofu, broccoli and brown rice, ate the whole thing, and the rest of the night had a pain in my shoulder and left side maybe that was a signal to stop eating, and trust me I didn't eat for the rest of the night, just a glass of water to clear out my pouch (IDK why I do this but I've been doing it lately lol).   I was a bad girl and didn't go to the gym yesterday, it was only for weights so I will do my weights tonight after c25k (grrr).   Oh and some NSV this weekend: Didn't eat my whole meal the times we went out to dinner
Fit into pants I didn't fit into in September
Realized that my bra straps that go around me don't hitch up and chafe my side parts, they actually lay nice and flat now
I don't buy junk food when I grocery shop and I grab a water out of the cooler at the supermarket and drink it while I shop (don't worry I pay for it!)
I can wrap a regular towel around my body when I get out of the shower (even though there's some side boobage showing
Also, whereas I thought I had some good luck yesterday turned out to be bad luck. I was looking at a vending machine near my office that has "healthy options" aka a 100 grand bar (really is that healthy???) and I see on the machine that there's a credit for $1.00 so I'm like "hey, pay it forward, right?" so I pick a granola bar (Nature Valley) OMG I looked at the nutritional info and almost died! I could've had a candy bar instead! I usually have a Kashi TLC granola bar thing right before I get out of work to hold me over between then and the gym (for some reason I'm starving late in the afternoon) I'll have this for a snack but never again! WTH do they put in that stuff?   Anyway lovelies, have a wonderful day and if anyone is paying attention only 17 days until I leave for Key West!
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Pictures

In December of 2011 a bunch of my friends and I went to NYC to go to Rockefeller Center and do the whole touristy NYC thing (I've lived literally an hour away from NYC my whole life and have never done anything touristy there! So if anyone wants to visit and needs a tour guide don't ask me, I have no clue!). So anyway, we took a picture of the four of us. That was when I was at the weight that I realized I gained 30 lbs since having my gall bladder taken out (314 lbs). The picture sits in my office. Every time I think about eating crap I look at my bloated face and think "nah, I don't need it, I worked too hard at this" also in my office is another picture of me taken 1 week before my surgery when I was at my highest weight (322 lbs) and another picture next to it when I was my lowest weight post op (250 ish?) these are just reminders for me not to put food in my mouth and to keep up with the fills, the workouts, eating right etc....because if I looked decent at 250 ish or so, imagine how I'll look when I'm at my goal weight (180 lbs).   I'm also a little worried because right now I have 2.75 ccs in a 4 cc band, and this is the most that has ever been in the band, and I can eat things and not feel true "restriction" granted I'm not hungry between meals but it's still scary. For example last night for dinner I had 1/2 c of general tso's tofu (homemade!!! Never made Chinese food before!) 1/2 cup of steamed broccoli and 1/4 c of brown rice. I ate everything except for a couple of bites of the brown rice. Something I'll have to bring up at my next mds appt.   On a personal note I have my 90 day review for my new position at my job, I hope I don't get demoted lol.   Week two of c25k is hard, I don't think I'm running fast enough. I think the next workout I'm going to try to amp up the treadmill to 5mph in the beginning until I can't stand it anymore. Going to the gym tonight to do some weights.   Have a good day!
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Weekends.....

This weekend was horrible as always food wise for me. But someone who I cannot stand put something into perspective, I have to thank her for that (the witch lol).   Friday was my usual day of egg white omlette, tuna sammy on multigrain, and then for dinner my dbf and I went out for Mexican. Hindsight is 50/50 after we went out to dinner on Friday I felt like crap but to think about it, it wasn't that bad. I had two margaritas chips and salsa, then shrimp enchiladas with no sauce it was basically shrimp wrapped up in corn tortilla (which I didn't eat) with some pico de gallo on it. I think the worse thing I ate was the chips and the margaritas lol.   Saturday sucked food wise. Sucked real bad. Not going to even go into it. But I have to say that I'm not eating as much as I did before. Especially when I'm drinking (margaritas again on Saturday night lol)   Sunday I was back to normal (yay!) I made my 3 meals for the next four days and I'm usually so busy with that and laundry that I forget to eat. All I had was a lean cuisine for dinner.   So anyway back to someone I don't like putting things in perspective. After dinner Saturday night we were all hanging out (me, my dbf, and his roommates, including the one I don't like) and I felt so bad about how I ate for dinner and she said to me "You eat so well during the week, that one day is not going to kill you. Also, you went to the gym today and ran that burns calories for hours!" So, it made me feel better not by much, but it did a little bit.   Also I learned to stay away from fried foods for now on, I think I went on a little overkill Saturday night and I felt like crap all day Sunday up until I went to bed. So, lesson learned friend pickles = the devil!   This is week 2 of c25k let's see if I survive tonight! I hope everyone who reads this had a good weekend and remember one day off the wagon is not going to kill you. I think for me, if one day turned into two then into a week I would have to put things in perspective but I guess the witch was right one day isn't going to kill me.
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Just Another Day

Yesterday was pretty uneventful. I did day two of c25k I really hate it, but I have to do it, I'm not giving up! I'm going to run around that darn airport next Easter (2013) if it literally kills me!   Still on mushies. Yesterday I had 1/2 cup of egg beaters and a 1/2 cup of corned beef hash for breakfast. For lunch I had two packs of the tuna salad to go (starkist? They're only like a 100 cals each) for dinner I had canned crabmeat with a little mayo and some cheese on top put it in the micro for like a crabmeat melt. I also had the same thing with tuna instead but I was still starving after my workout and my total caloric intake yesterday was low (844 with the tuna "melt" included). But after that I was feeling pretty full so that's a good sign (that I know isn't going to stay oh well lol)   My poor dbf got passed over for a promotion I feel so bad for him, because I've been there plenty of times. I just hope he pulls himself out of this funk   Nothing much new today, going to the gym tonight to do some more weights, fold some laundry. I know sooo exciting lol.   Have a good day and stay motivated!
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Mushies.....

Today I'm back on mushies yuck tomorrow mushies too lol. Yesterday went to the gym did some weight training nothing crazy just 5lb free weights see if I notice a difference in weight loss.   Nothing else really to report, suppossed to snow this afternoon into tomorrow a whole inch ohhhh so scary   What really annoys me lately is recipes with no nutritional info lol. But I just have to figure it out myself got to make a grocery list for next week. No more Chobani I'm sick of it! Maybe something with eggs like a crustless quiche IDK food is not that interesting to me any more.   Have a good day!
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Mds Appt Yesterday, C25K Start And Skinny Bucket List!

Yesterday I went to my lapband doctor for a fill. Now, I'm an old timer with a 4 cc band, so when I see you guys getting a whole cc in a fill I'm thinking to myself "lucky" before my fill yesterday I had 2.5 ccs in a 4 cc band. Today I now have 2.75 ccs in a 4 cc band. I asked why such small fills, and was told that it will make me keep coming back gotta love doctors lol. But on a good note, since my last doctor's visit I lost 7 pounds and am at 288 lbs. 8 lbs to where I was when I had my gall bladder taken out in September. I feel so good about that. The APRN asked what I did to lose the weight I told her "not put food in my mouth, excercise, and will power because I'm hungry". So for the rest of the day yesterday I was on liquids, had a protein shake and some soup. Today I'm on liquids (so far just coffee--hey it's a liquid!). Tomorrow and Thursday mushies and Friday back to my normal eating.   After the mds appointment I got home, got dressed for the gym and started the c25k program. I'm not going to lie I was out of breath, but from what I hear from other people on this forum that do c25k the next time it gets easier I sure hope so. I told my friend that I wanted to run a 5k next Easter, she told me an inspiring story about how her mom's friend was in a plane crash two years ago; had her legs and one arm amputated; now is being fitted for prosthetics and they want her to do a 5k next year as well. That right there is an inspiring story, mine is so insignificant to that. I will be rooting for her every step of the way.   Today I'm going to the gym to do some weight training on the upper body, nothing crazy. Just want to build some muscle and see if that revs up my metabolism. I mean 7 lbs a month is not bad, but I would like to lose about 10 lbs a month. Also when we go to Key West my dad and I are doing some serious fishing so I want to have some upper body strength to reel in a big one! Oh yeah, just checked my calender 25 days until vacation!   I saw on the forums this morning about a skinny bucket list. I think I have a few I want to jot down, and maybe one day look back and say "yup did them all". Here goes:   1) Go to Kleinfeld's in NYC to get my wedding dress and not shop from the plus size bridal line 2) Look proportionate to my friends 3) Be one of those people who love to run! 4) When I am a mother, be an active one. 5) Wear a two piece bikini 6) Get some sexy lingere, panties, bras etc (I like my stuff to match Lane Bryant does not lol) 7) Live a long, healthy life 8) Shop in any store in the mall 9) Borrow clothes from my friends   Well I guess that's all I can think of today. Hope everyone has a good day and stay positive!
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Fill Fun On Monday!

I know I'm obsessing too much about things when I have dreams about them. The other night I had a dream that my boyfriend's roommate (who is a female, and don't worry her bf lives with them as well) went over to my boyfriend's mother's house to drink and my boyfriend decided he'd rather do that than hang out with me. Now he knows that his roommate bothers me (which she does, that could be a whole blog for another day) and it bothers me that I still haven't met his mother (but yet the roommate has, anyway, moving on, because who is really reading thing?)   So, last night I had a dream about getting a fill at my mds office, it was so realistic! It wasn't anything crazy, just a fill lol. But I know what is bothering me. I'm an old timer with a 4cc lap band implanted. Right now there is 2.5 ccs and I have been feeling some restriction until lately (for me, knowing there is no restriction is my stomach growling. I usually tell people that's not real hunger but that's bull$!*t and I'm sorry if anyone believed me). What if she puts in another cc on Monday and I still have no restriction? She is also measuring the saline by taking it out to see if any seeps out every month. What if there's a leak? OMG I need not to obsess about this!   Tonight is casino night. My one friend and I aren't staying over. Everyone is bringing their boyfriends or husbands. Mine can't go because he works on Saturdays. Also he is being a little cranky lately because he hasn't been able to sleep much. Saturday I'm going to clean, do laundry, and make dinner for the bf we'll probably just watch a movie. Sunday IDK what I'm going to do, but that's my fabulous weekend.   Also I would like to announce that officially on Monday I'm going to start c25k and also some weight training I was going to put if off until March, but what's one week early going to do? Kill me? Well if you don't hear from me Tuesday morning you know the answer lol.   Have a good weekend
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One Day Closer To Friday

Nothing new to report here from my neck of the woods. Totally unmotivated to go to the gym yesterday, but I did it, brisk walk on the treadmill for a half hour and I was sweating, sore today. Going back to the gym again tonight.   This weekend is going to be tough. Tomorrow night is my friend's birthday party at the casino--so nervous about that and what/how I'm going to eat. My two best girlfriends who are going (one is the birthday girl the other is another good friend) know that I have the lapband so they don't think it's odd how I eat, but the tradition is the day after our night of festivites we go to a diner and get food. Usually I get an omlette with cheese, mushroom, and all the fixins'. I think this time it'll be an egg white omlette with veggies a little cheese and fruit. Saturday night the bf wants shrimp scampi think I can handle 4 oz of shrimp and a little pasta, but I still get so worried. Sunday my friend wants us to come to her house for birthday cake, but I think I'm going to pass since Monday I'm going for a fill and with my luck the scale won't move   I totally b*$#)!d the other day that I lost only 1.5 lbs in a week, when I looked back at my blog and read about all the crap I ate, 1.5 lb loss is actually pretty darn good. Pat on the back for me!   I already planned out my meals for the next couple of weeks. For breakfast I found a Mexican Breakfast Casserole on the Allergan lap-band website. For lunch I'm going to make baked falafels, and make like a half sandwich with a sandwich thin, put a little hummus on there and lettuce and falafels. Dinner I'm going to try a recipe for general tso's tofu.   Browsing these forums the other day, a member asked what the deal is the obsession with food post op? For me, it's not "oh my god I can't wait to try that" it's "wow this is healthy, it's high in protein and it's going to taste way better than the crap I used to eat" if that's a bad obsession, then I'm a bad person I used to eat in the cafeteria here at work all the time, and it was always bad things. Now I bring in my breakfast and lunch I save money, calories, and in the long run my health. The only time I go to the cafeteria is on Fridays and I always get my egg white omlette for breakfast and my tuna sandwich on a multi grain bread (which I can only eat half of lol).   Anyway enough rambling, work has to be done, thanks so much for reading and the support on these forums, I hope myself and everyone else we can meet our goals one small (or large) pound at a time!  
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Weekend Roundup

Ohhhh I was such a bad bandster this weekend I'm not going to even get into it, started with margaritas (4 of them) Friday night and went sort of downhill from there. I realized that I cannot take a vacation from eating right, but I also realize on the weekends I don't eat like I normally do (three meals a day 5 hours apart) and that's where the trouble starts.   New goal for this weekend: FREAKING EAT MAN!   Saturday was quite busy. I went to my local day spa and got my first Brazilian, not for anything special but because it was time for Andrea to put her big girl pants on and stop cutting myself in my lady bits, and it does not hurt! Everyone told me it was the most painful thing, oh come on, getting my eyebrows waxed hurt!   After that I went to Aldi's, which I used to not shop at because I only liked high quality foods (ie Trader Joe's Whole Foods) now to be honest with you I don't give a crap what I eat in regards to the quality, I'm so not into food anymore. I just make sure it's dense protein and my daily calories are around 1000/day and 60-80 grams protein/day. For two weeks worth of groceries, I only spent 57 bucks at Aldi's (which is dirt cheap in Connecticut) after that I went to Big Y and got my cat food, and whatever I couldn't find at Aldi's for another 40 bucks worth, so I have to say for grocery shopping for two weeks of food for me and my cat under 100 bucks is awesome!   On the way to my dbf house, I forgot to get a V-day gift, so I stopped at Gamestop to pick up a gift card, well while walking to the store (this is what I get for parking so far away) my bra strap breaks! So I have to walk in there with one perky boob and one droopy boob and I'm just like "hurry up, I got to get a bra!" so I go next door to Dots (which is like a hoochie mama clothing store, honestly though I buy clothes from there that aren't hoochie mama, but you know) and get a bra, which the boyfriend loved, and I'm like "this is not sexy this is out of necessity lol". What a day   That night dbf and I went for sushi for a belated V-day dinner, I was so worried that I was going to get sushi stuck, but alas I did not (I really don't want to eat sushi, I love it so much, that I want to be restricted enough just to eat sashimi because I could eat those darn rolls all day!). At the restaurant they had this crab salad that I devoured and I think that was the most I ate, also shrimp tempura ::hides:: I'm hoping by my next fill I will only be able to eat sashimi, fingers crossed!   Sunday morning, dbf brought breakfast in bed, mmmm those eggs were salty lol. Didn't finish eating those. Went home later, and made my dinner for the week (beefy tortilla soup with an extra can of kidney beans for protein) in my crock pot. Then I was so un motivated from cooking that I had a lean cuisine for dinner ::hides again::   I also tried to figure out what a 4 mile run would be from my house to wherever (my previous post, if you didn't read, was my goal to run a 5k next year) my friend who runs them told me once I get the endurance to run 4 miles since it's a little more than a 5k, so the 5k will be easy. So I drove two miles and holy crap that's a long distance, but I'm going to do it!!!!   OH OH OH! One more thing, I bought two big things of plain Chobani yogurt and a ton of mix ins, so today's Chobani flavor goes as such: 1 cup of 0% Chobani with 1 T sugar free white chocolate instant pudding mix 1 T Torani white chocolate syrup (sugar free duh) and 1 T sugar free rasberry preserves.....YUM!   Tomorrow I'm going to mix in Coconut Torani and some canned pineapple for a pina colada. Sounds good, no?   Well time to get to work, thanks so much for reading, everyone stay motivated, and if you had a bad weekend like me, remember today is a new day, be accountable, get moving and DON'T GIVE UP!   XOXO,   Andrea
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Um, Nothing To Report Today

Yesterday was boring! Today is going to be boring!!!! But I like routine. I wake up, feed the cat, take a shower, feed the cat again, get dressed go to work, come home feed the cat again, go to the gym, eat dinner and go to bed.   Well only 44 days until Key West   Also I'm obsessed with portobello mini pizzas.....yum!!!!!
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Do Not Screw Up My Schedule!

Okay I'm really annoyed this morning. First of all, my after work schedule was screwed up yesterday and it will be today. Granted it is for important reasons (well today is). But I have just realized I have to go with the flow for some things.   Yesterday, the dbf wanted to come over after he got out of work. I think he knew I was a little annoyed that he didn't do anything for V-day. I still went to the gym, and instead of my usual 40 minutes on Wednesday I only did 30. But I tried out an app for my phone for the c25k program just to see how it works, so I was SWEATING after that workout but still. Then I finish with the gym, send him a text to see where he is no response, so I'm like "screw it I'm making dinner". No sooner do I pull dinner out of the microwave, he shows up. I'm one of those people who find it rude to eat in front of someone if they didn't make something for the other person. So I asked "do you want dinner?" of course he doesn't so I put my dinner back in the kitchen and he's like "you have to eat!". Ugh, whatever. Also, he brought me roses, only 10 of them, not a dozen. I miss the days of getting a dozen long stemmed roses in the big white box from my ex-boyfriend......   Today is a different story. I have to go to a wake for my big boss he died unexpectantly this weekend and he was young. I'm going with a girl that I take the train with who works in the same department as me. We decided to go around 7 ish since the wake will be winding down by then, so once again no gym!   I'm going to try to make it up this weekend, but if I don't I'm not stressing it.   I'm such a control freak! LOL.
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Weirdest Day Yesterday

Can't even begin to tell you! It was like ex-boyfriend palooza crazy!   Anyway, Valentine's Day came and went with nothing from my dbf. Granted we are doing something Saturday night, but it still would've been nice to have gotten something yesterday.   On a good note, my torani syrups came in to add to my chobani! I ordered them right from the website (torani.com). And got three sugar free flavors: Chocolate chip cookie dough, White chocolate and coconut. I also have vanilla and hazelnut at home that I bought at Christmas Tree Shops.   Weighed myself in this morning for the Valentine's Day Challenge, down 4.6 lbs, still have a way to go to reach my goal.   March 1st I'm officially starting my c25k challenge. I found an app that has the timer and will tell you when to walk/job/not die, etc... I'm excited to start. I even made a playlist on my mp3 player to get me pumped up.   I also saw on the forums talk about fitbit, I'm so getting one of those for my 50 lb loss goal. Screw the rings, the fitbit looks so much more fun!   Have a good day, thanks for reading and commenting, it means so much to me
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Friday Free For All

I love Fridays   I hate Fridays too. Why? Because this is the day that I don't keep track of my calorie and protein intake. Why do I do this? Doctor's orders, she doesn't want me to obsess, and also not to eat the same thing every day (which I do), so that it confuses my body (I kind of imagine my body going "hey what the heck? Eggs? Veggies? Omlette? Where's my chobani??????") trust me I feel the same way, I'm having chobani withdrawls. I hate Fridays..... I'm so tempted to figure out how many calories the egg white omlette is, but I can't. It's only ONE day a week. Four days a month. DARNIT! The MD and I are going to have to talk about this....   On another note, I realized I cannot keep any snack food in the house. Last night on my way home from work, I just got really stressed thinking about the future and how I have no control of it and I hate it (yes if you haven't figured it out by now I'm kind of a control freak). I was on my phone with the dbf while I was getting ready for the gym and I said "I cannot wait for this vacation because I need a week to really figure out what I want in life" so then of course he thinks it's about him (which to be honest, it is) and thinks he can read my mind and knows what I need to figure out (but darn he was right). And of course I got stressed out. So I went to the gym. 40 minutes on the elliptical, with cramps, thought I would feel better. Nope still stressed out. Go home, have dinner (portobellos mushroom pizza, peas, and a little bit of hot antipasto) still stressed. And of course when I'm stressed where do I go? THE KITCHEN!!!! and sitting right there is a bag of trail mix. I usually only have an 1/8 cup of serving before bedtime. And here I am sitting on the couch hand to mouth with trail mix. Then I realized wth this isn't going to solve the problem, and I throw the 6.99 bag of trail mix out. Along with any other snack food (which there wasn't a lot to begin with). Until I get my emotions in check, no snack food in the house.   Tonight, I'm going to dbf house for Chinese. I'll probably have shrimp chop suey. This weekend will be spent cleaning the house (how the heck does one cat shed so much?), laundry, then dbf comes over and I'm trying a new recipe-taco pie, which I just realized I didn't get the ingredients yet at the grocery store DARN! Sunday I am just vegging out to catch up on my DVR.   43 days until Key West....sigh   Have a good weekend!   XOXO,   Andrea
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Technology And The Band

BACK WHEN I WAS YOUR AGE, WE DIDN'T HAVE APPS FOR OUR CELL PHONES!!!! LOL I'm in a funny (ha ha funny mood today) which made me think about technology has helped me as a bandster, and I have to thank my dirty little secret...   fat secret that is   Not only is it a FREE app for your phone, but it also is online as well, and it links your accounts. Where my office is, I have no cell reception. But, being the sometimes good bandster that I am, the food that I'm eating is already recorded on my app, but for example if I don't eat something, I can go on my computer, log into my account on fatsecret.com and update the food for that day, then when I do have cell phone service and check the app it's updated. Sooo freaking cool! I swear this is not an advertisement they are def not paying me to promote the app.   Let's see I weighed myself this morning, gained 4 lbs, but down 2 lbs since Monday so I'm blaming Aunt Flo for the 4lb weight gain she is such a pain!   Went to the gym last night for only a half hour, but I have to say that usually when it is my TOM I don't want to go to the gym at all. Today I'll go for 35 minutes, Thursday 40 minutes and Friday 45 minutes.   Also just received my Keurig brewer for my office in the mail yesterday, I'll bring it in Friday (I take the train to work and the train is least crowded on Friday). I usually need that ONE cup of coffee around 3pm to get through the rest of the day. I already brought in my mug, a teaspoon, and non dairy creamer. Tomorrow I'll bring in some K-cups. As a bandster I thought it would be good, because after every fill, I'm on liquids for one full day, so I can bring in some cup of soups and use the Keurig to heat up the water for it!   I realized last night that changing jobs has helped me be a good bandster. My old job required me to have such a sporadic schedule that sometimes I would only have a few minutes (literally 5) to eat lunch. The job I have now I'm so independent, that at 9am, I stop whatever I'm doing have my breakfast and at 2pm stop everything again and have my lunch. Sometimes a life change will change your health too. Now I'm not recommending everyone leave their jobs for something else. I did it for the independence, the stable hours (M-F 8-4:30) and the flexibility for time off. And I love every minute of it!   Well enough blabbing for today. To people that read this, I'm going to start asking you questions for input....when you work out and start to do weight training, how do you find what's best for you? Do you hire a trainer? Go online? Or just wing it?
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Back On The Wagon

This weekend was a disaster food wise. But, today is a new day, and I'm just going to get back on the wagon and deal with it. I made the HUGE mistake of weighing myself on Monday and I gained six pounds. Then I realized it's my TOM this week, and I usually gain about 5 pounds from that. But still I'm just annoyed because the old me is still there in my head where I just want to eat everything over and over. I want to be able to enjoy times like these (ie Superbowl Sunday) with my friends, but I think at this point, for this year, any event that involves food I'm just going to have to stay away from until I beat this love I have with food.   Anyway, I'm back at work, back to eating healthy again and back to the gym, I'm not giving up!!!!
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One Day Closer To Friday!

Nothing new to report, still on mushies, will finally be able to eat solid food tomorrow!!! YAY!!!! From what I've been eating with my mushies, I think I may have hit the green zone, or my stomach could be a little swollen, we shall see, keeping my fingers crossed!!!!
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What The Heck Happened To Me?

First of all, it's been so long that I've been on this forum, I don't even remember writing a blog so long ago....wow! It's so sad that I kind of fell off the earth after March of 2007. Well I'm back and I'm going to be blogging every day! I don't care if no one reads this or everyone reads this I need all the support I can get!!!!   So today was the first day I was really HUNGRY!!! After being completely unfilled two weeks ago, and then filled last Monday with only 1.75 ccs in a 4 cc band, I was thinking to myself "oh I may be in the green zone I'm not hungry between meals" YEAH RIGHT!!! My stomach is growling so loud I could wake up the dead (I work down the hallway from a morgue in a healthcare facility so it could happen lol). Also my boyfriend took me out to dinner for our anniversary (one year) to a sushi restaurant, and I ate a LOT of sushi, so not proud of that, but it was good. I'm not eating lunch until about 2pm or so since I'll eat dinner late.   And also with this blog I'm going to write (type?) down everything I put in my mouth. This may get boring since I eat the same thing almost every day, but here goes nothing:   Early AM-1 cup skim milk 1 scoop pure protein powder   B (9am)-1 container of peach chobani yogurt 1 T Bearnaked protein power granola 1 T yogurt covered raisins   L (2pm)- 4 oz of baked shrimp (jumbo size) 1/2 cup green bean casserole (soooo tired of this if anyone has creative vegetable side dishes please comment!!!)   D (7pm)- 4 oz of baked shrimp 1/2 cup green bean casserole   Post Gym Snack (who knows what time?)-2 tablespoons trail mix     45 minutes on the elliptical at the gym   I find it so funny about what I used to ate right after I got banded and how the rules have changed I guess. It seems like now the majority is 3-4 oz of protein, then a half cup of veggies then if you have room carbs, I'm so not interested in carbs anymore....
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6 Lbs Down In Two Weeks!

Went to the MD yesterday afternoon, and I lost 6 lbs from my last visit there on 1/16. So proud of myself! Sometime I feel like I'm not working "hard enough" at losing weight, but I guess I am because the scales don't lie!   Signed up for the February weight loss challenge, my goal is to lose ten pounds, let's see how it goes.   The MD yesterday put 2.5 ccs in a 4 cc band this is the most I've ever had in this band, and she told me I have plenty of room left to be filled, which felt wonderful. The last time the APRN put 2 ccs in and said "there's not much left from here, if you don't lose weight I'm going to have to have an RX written out for diet pills" so I think who you are working with makes a great difference. The MD is definetly more positive than the APRN (isn't how that always goes?)   So today, I'm on a liquid diet, Wednesday and Thursday "mushies" and Friday back to normal eating. I'm hoping I hit my sweet spot, but I won't get impatient if I don't.   Went to the gym last night as well, 30 minutes on the elliptical, going tonight for 35 minutes.   Also booked my trip to Key West we are going March 24-31, and flying directly into Key West, which I'm nervous about since I don't like to fly in the first place and the flight into Key West is going to be on a small plane!!!!! Wish me luck!   Have a good day everyone!
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Blah, but back on solids

I am so tired today, I think because I've been in front of a computer screen all day. Today I'm at school until like 4ish and it's so cold in this friggin' computer lab.   Well I'm back on solids now. I'm trying to do three meals a day and lots of water in between. This is what I had today:   Breakfast: 1 Scrambled Egg and 1 Slice of Seedless light rye bread   Lunch: Tuna and canellini bean patty (2 oz) and 1/8C collard greens   Dinner: 2 oz pork chops and 1/8 veggies.   I've been drinking a lot of water and chewing a lot of gum! I'm not hungry until I know I'm getting ready to eat. I brought a cheese stick for work since I won't eat from 2pm to 10pm. Blahhhhh.   Well after I eat tonight, I'll be walking two more miles. So far since Saturday I've walked 6 miles. WOW!!!!   Oh yeah, Borat comes out today, gotta buy that!
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Mondays

What a day, and it isn't even noon yet. I have to work on a take-home midterm exam that is just going along SOOOO slow. Then for the same class I have to revise a paper that the professor tore apart :help: but I only got a C- on the paper which isn't THAT bad considering a first draft.   Oh and on top of that, I woke up early to take the train, and it was delayed 30 min, so I had to drive to school. I don't usually mind, but I'm trying to save miles on my car since I'll be driving an additional 80 miles a week for training for my volunteer program (can you tell I'm excited about it????:clap2: :clap2: )   Tonight when I get home I'll walk 2 miles briskly. This is what I packed for my meals today:   Breakfast--1 Scrambled Egg   Lunch--2 oz Ground Turkey w/ mustard   Dinner--1/4C high protein cereal.   I also packed 1/4 C applesauce and 1/4C of pudding but I'm not hungry yet for snacks, I think I'll wait for lunch.   Have a good day everyone, wish me luck on this midterm it's killing me!!!!!!!!!!:faint:
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Saturday

So last night I went bowling with my cousin and her husband. I did horrible! But my butt is killing me, so I guess I got an unintentional workout along with all the walking from yesterday!   Today I did a brisk 2 mile walk. I don't know what I'm going to eat today. I think I have a general idea. I have to eat breakfast and lunch back to back since I can't eat at work, usually I have a snack in between to keep me full.   Breakfast (10:30)--1 scrambled egg 1/2 slice white american cheese   Lunch (1:15)--turkey roll-ups with 1 T cream cheese   Sustinance (3-9:00) (for work)--Protein drink and water   Dinner--(10:00) 1 oz ground turkey and 1 oz of spinach (to help with constipation) I'll see how that goes my dad said it worked when he was on Atkins.
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COURT!

so I have to go to court today and it's raining out and my "trial" will probably be delayed. It was talking on my cell phone while driving and in Connecticut if it's a first offense you have to go to court and show a receipt for a hand's free headset. What a waste of a day! And it's raining out too! So I'm going to be getting my exercise in by walking about 5 miles roundtrip from the courthouse to my car. So far what I ate today:   Breakfast--1/4 Cup seafood pot pie minus the pie part (just crabmeat and lobster)   Lunch--2 Slices of turkey with 1 T low fat veggie cream cheese rolled up (my favourite next to egg salad)   Dinner--Not sure yet.   It's going to be a GREAT day!
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