I'm happy yet nervous about my surgery. Don't know how I'm going to tell Joe about it and how he will respond. We already have issues, one is that I don't know why we have these issues. After searching myself to what I've done to him I have come to the conclusion that it's not me.
It's silly that Joe said that he didn't like me to others after we got married and I thought he was just playing. Now after seventeen years of marriage the light has finally come on and I realize that he truly doesn't. He just tolerates me.
I am standing at the door of a new chapter in my life and I'm going throught it and I'll be damned if I'm going to let anyone take my God given right to peace and joy in my life.