The day of surgery arived filled with dread and anticipation and even slight exhilleration. Long wait eventually anaesthsia given 4.27pm drifted of with some fear and intrepidation but slightly removed from myself during recovery was aware but tuned out. want so much for all to be ok
Looking forward to my new life.
Recovery ok extremely thirsty , staff extremely kind co-patients supportive John came so glad to see him I know he was worried I love him so much I know not fair to put him through all this but he will be glad when he sees the new me.
sleep drifting in and out pain meds,
eventually disharge and home to bed
havent told kids
Cant hide op - told them I had Gall stones removed.
Yes it seems strange Sad and a little nerve wracking. I will no Longer be the person I am Today and that is a scary thought. Tommorow I will have a friend placed inside my body who will support and encourage me to stay on track through my new journey to a healthy fit and worthwhile lifestyle.
I have stuggled for so long and finally I think this may be the answer and i dream that the thin person who has been trapped inside for so long will finally manage to emerge and leave the other half go . That whole other person that I allowed to attach itself to me to provide 24 protection against hurt and pain and vunerability. Unfortunately that whole other person took over and the real me has got lost along the way. Im now ready to start my journey of discovery and enlightenment and am ready to show the world the thin person that Im ready to love again....
I will try to keep track of my feelings and my progress in the hope that someday I can help 1 other person along the road to acceptance and true happiness.