Now let me start by saying sleep is hard to get for me to begin with. I have a 2 year old that sleep walks and a 5 month old that still wakes up at 11pm and 4am for feedings. And so now that I've taken the 1st steps come all the what if's that are keeping we awake.
Like the.....what if this really happens for me?
1. will it work?
2. will I be able to play with my kids and not feel like I'm dying?
3. will people finally see me and not the fat?
4. will I look good in clothes again?
OH THE POSSIBILITIES......
and the questions and day dreams don't stop there.....I found myself getting nothing done yesterday at the office and then sitting in my bed last night eyes WIDE OPEN considering all the possibilities. I promised myself I wouldn't do that you see. Just incase my insurance denies me...but I can't help it....what this would do for me and what it has done for so many has me sitting on the edge of my seat.....like waiting for the part you know is coming as the music gets louder and louder ......
So I ask...what is sleep? I am not sure I will get any for a minute or two.... Let's just hope it's worth it.
so why do I feel like I'm going to throw up? I have waited and worked what seems like my whole life (14 years old) to not be "fat" so what is the big deal with waiting 48 hours for a response from my insurance........GEESH.......I am hoping the doctor calls me today .....
Beyond insurance....I think I will be okay............
