Here I am AGAIN... thinking, "How did I get here?" "Why did I do this to myself?" and so many more questions. Not just questions either, cristicisms also. I feel like a failure... today I weighed in at 320 pounds! OMG! I can not believe I am up here again!
So, here I go.... I went to the gym and I got on that treadmill and started working out again... I drank my water.... I watched what I ate... I AM STARTING OVER!
I am tired of feeling sorry for myself and feeling like a failure. I have made justifications... like this, " Well, at least I still weigh less than when I was banded"....well, if I don't do something I won't!
I am going to stop making excuses and follow the rules! I have to...
Starting over again is hard, harder than being banded to begin with! I know the weight will not come off as easy as it did, but I want it to come off faster than it is! Ha! What am I talking about? MY scale is BROKEN! Everytime I get on the scale it gives me a different number... ugh! How can I start over with a broken scale???? I guess I just need to learn to do this without hopping on the scale every morning!
I think I have been doing better. There are a couple of things I have been working on this week. The main thing is PLANNING. I think this is where I may have started going astray to begin with. I have realized that I absolutely have to plan out exactly what I am going to eat for the day at the beginning of the day and take it to work with me. It is just to easy to not eat correctly when I have to go out to eat for lunch!
I have been trying to increase my water intake. This is something that I have totally let go! I know that water will flush all this fat away, so why do I not like to drink it??? Our instructions are to drink 64 ounces a day. I have also heard that a person trying to lose weight should drink half of their weight in ounces....anyone do this? I think I would float away!
Thanks to everyone for you support and nice comments! It has really inspired me!
Here I am AGAIN... thinking, "How did I get here?" "Why did I do this to myself?" and so many more questions. Not just questions either, cristicisms also. I feel like a failure... today I weighed in at 320 pounds! OMG! I can not believe I am up here again!
So, here I go.... I went to the gym and I got on that treadmill and started working out again... I drank my water.... I watched what I ate... I AM STARTING OVER!
I am tired of feeling sorry for myself and feeling like a failure. I have made justifications... like this, " Well, at least I still weigh less than when I was banded"....well, if I don't do something I won't!
I am going to stop making excuses and follow the rules! I have to...
