I've decided not buying ANY new clothes until I've been
Banded !!!I have a crap ton of clothes that I never wear because im " fat " so ive just keep on shopping !!! No more !
So my surgeons office had me print out a 12 page questionair about my weight / history. Ive been asnwering honestly but some of these questions Im kind of scared to answer. Maybe if i answer wrong it will set my surgery back ?
For example :
What is the quailty of your sleep ? Good __ Fair __ poor __
How often do you wake up more than once durning the night ? Never _____ Always _____
Do you feel sleepy durning the day ?
Does beinf active make your chest feel right or make you wheeze ?
Now .. for one .. I have a new baby at home .. so no , i dont get alot of rest altho he is sleeping thro the night . So yes , i am tired durning the day sometimes . Yes , i do wake up at night but only because of my baby . And im FAT OF COURSE i feel out of breath when i excerise ! Do i wheeze ? No but im certainly out of breath ! How am i suppose to answer these questions ? I dont wanna say anything wrong . : / Whats up with the sleep apena test ? Do they want you to have a problem sleeping or not ? Is it better for insurance if you do ? Im so lost. =(
It JUST OCCURRED TO ME that if all goes well and smoothly i could possible be SMALLER FOR MY WEDDING !!! Omg !! Now im going to really stress about all this happening ASAP ! LOl Our date is set for Oct 1st of this year ! How awesome would that be ?! We arent having a huge wedding or anything but i want to look my very best for him . i really want him to be like " wow , she is beautiful !" . I really do have the best finace in the world. He is so supportive and i love him SO much. I just want to be the best ME i can .. for him and my son =-)
Geeze okay i wasnt going to post until AFTER i made the calls tomorrow but i cant get the Lapband off my brain ! its ALL im thinking about it ! im obsessing and i really need to chill the hell out !! on top of that my lil boy decided to stay up late tonight and so i didnt really have dinner . I did however just scarf down a mini size Milky way ., ugh what is wrong with me ? Actually i need to go food shopping . I really didnt have alot of choices. Oh ! I did have some carrots earlier tho. Lol Maybe they will cancel each other out ? Okay im going to bed hungry and ill post tomorrow !! YAYAYAYYAYA ! IM SO EXCITED !
I really hope my dreams arent crushed !!
Okay so here we go !!!! Im ready to make the " call " Yes , the call to my insurance company tomorrow morning to see if they will cover me and what my policy says. Why didn't I do this on Friday before the 3 day holiday weekend I have no idea ! I guess i like driving myself batty !! This is a lil about me and my situation. Iam a new mom . I have a son that is 10 weeks old. Iam engaged to the best man in the world and we are getting married on Oct 1st , 2011. The plan was to wait till we were married and i would go under his insurance BCBS and I would eventually get LapBand. All that changed when i found this site Friday of last week !! I seen a post where several people had the insurance i currently have and low and behold i found a entire site on Lap-band surgery and the hospitals they cover !! I dont know if i have the right plan under them YET !! Tomorrow morning tells all !! * fingers crosses*
I just want to clear up that im not fat because ive just had a baby . haha id like to think that but thats not the case. I was heavy before pregnancy and have been most of my life. Ive ALWAYS been able to pull motivation out for a short period of time , ex cerise , diet to death lose about 70lbs and then I come to a screeching hault !! I wont lose or gain and ill stay at a very unheatlhy 190lbs. Which right now to be honest i would LOVE to be 190 ! So , im doing something about it !!! Together with support groups like lapbandtalk and all the lovely women ive already had the pleasure of corresponding with .. i know i can get thro this . IT IS POSSIBLE !!!
Ill update tomorrow after the call and as soon as i can get my lil man down for a nap !! =)
SO EXCITED !! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE GOD LET THIS BE THE TICKET !! =)
oF Course im THRILLED about this !! I just got off the phone ! ive been making calls ALL morning ! So the first step is to see my new Primary care Dr . I see him on Saturday. This should be good ... When i called for the appt , HE .. the Dr himself answered the phone on his cell phone while driving in his car and told me to come in today !!! I would have but my better half is at work today so my appt is on Saturday !! YAY ! I already chose North shore Surgical , Dr. Gellman to do my surgery .They take my insurance , the have a decent web site with all the questions and answers i need and she was SUPER nice to me on the phone ! The staff there seems to be really cool so far and willing to do whatever it takes to make sure that i get the surgery. I meet with the surgeon on june 6th !! Its already moving so fast !! im so happy ! Hopefully , it will all go smoothly and ill have everything i need to get this ball rolling !!!
One thing my insurance company would nt go into full detail of all the requirements i needed to get approved. she said my PCP " might have you see a cardiologist, or a few other things . Its up to your Dr " . Whats that suppose to mean ? I guess ill find out.
SO ... I go to see my surgeon for the very first time on june 6th !! Im SO EXCITED !! I have to see my new PCP this saturday. hopefully that goes smoothly ! I hate seeing new Drs ! Never know who you're gonna get !!
Anyway , so the surgeons office has a 12 page questionnaire ive been filling out . Ive been answering honestly . I hope they are all the " right " answers. Im so knee deep in this now that I was surly be devastated if it doesnt happen ! Everyday I wake up i feel fatter and fatter!!! I guess from the stress of it all ive actually gained 3lbs !! Greeeat! Just what i needed!! To be FATTER!!! ugh .
I have to call my old Dr from Florida today and hope to heck he still have records of my weight ! =( Hopefully anything else they seen in those records doesnt stop me from getting my surgery .
Ive started a " real " blog to keep up with my journey . If you would like to check it out .. its
http://asmallerass.blogspot.com/
Hope to see you there =)
